Jar of Hearts – Christina Perri
This is one of my favourite songs and it reminded me a `friend'. It also reminded of Jack and Ianto. Its Ianto's POV after Jack left and returned. It's more me in some places but I hope its ok. Please R+R!
Italics – lyrics
Normal - Ianto
I know I can't take one more step towards you
Cause all that's waiting is regret
Every time I look at you part of me dies. I want to see. I want to be near you. But every time I do I hurt. I have this pain in my heart knowing I'll never see you again and you'll never be mine.
And don't you know I'm not your ghost anymore?
You lost the love I loved the most
It was you I loved, you left knowing I'm struggling. You kept me standing and dried my tears when I cried. I still need you. Why can't you understand that?
I learned to live, half-alive
I don't live life to the full. I have this way of holding myself back because I don't know how much more hurt I can take. I know what I want but everyone is oblivious to it.
And now you want me one more time
I don't know if you want me back but I want you. Bare that in mind.
And who do you think you are?
Runnin' 'round leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart
I loved you and I thought you'd stay. Leaving, you scarred me and know my scars go straight into my heart. But you've got that in your jar. I want you to look at it, really look at it.
You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
I thought you were a nice man. I trusted you. But you're cold. I'm not going to let you freeze me.
So don't come back for me
Who do you think you are?
So don't come back for me, who do you think you are?
I hear you're asking all around
If I am anywhere to be found
You're walking around the place we met. Asking anyone, where are they? You ask so many but don't get anywhere.
I have grown too strong
To ever fall back in your arms
I've grown too strong to be with you. Being with you made me realise my weaknesses - I don't want to look at them anymore. You're not going to catch me anymore.
I've learned to live, half-alive
I still believe we can have a life together, but it won't be as good as first thought. Now you've done this, there's this uncertainness between us, maybe pushing us apart. But I still love you.
Now you want me one more time
You keep saying you want me but I don't want to look at you. I can't look at you without getting tears in my eyes. I don't want to be near you because I know how much it will hurt.
Who do you think you are?
Runnin' 'round leaving scars
You're under my skin and cutting me deep. Just another to add to my collection.
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart
Mine's the battered one at the top of the jar. The one which bleeds your blood.
You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
Can you feel it? That coldness spreading inside you. I know how you feel. It hurts.
So don't come back for me
Who do you think you are?
Don't come back for me, who do you think you are?
Dear, it took so long
Just to feel alright
But I'm still not alright. I'm still in the whirlpool of pain you dropped me in. I can't get out the feeling is too strong.
Remember how to put back
The light in my eyes
You've seen it. The small, white glimmer of hope I had when I smiled. How can I smile now?
I wish I had missed
The first time that we kissed
I was crying. Your lips were so soft on mine and so welcoming. Something passed between us in that kiss. Something from you to me. L.I.F.E
'Cause you broke all your promises
And now you're back you don't get to get me back
You said you'd stay. You said you'd always be there for me. if you kept your promises, we wouldn't be here.
Who do you think you are?
Runnin' 'round leaving scars
I'm bleeding and screaming out in pain. I don't care who sees.
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart
I haven't told anyone about you. I regret that, you're going to hurt someone else and get yet another heart. Mines the youngest I bet.
You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
I hope you freeze.
So don't come back for me
Don't come back at all
I don't want you anymore.
And who do you think you are?
Runnin' 'round leaving scars
I'm scarred now. I can't forget you.
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart
Look at it. Watch all those hearts beat their last.
You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
Die.
Don't come back for me
Don't come back at all
I can't want you.
Who do you think you are?
Who do you think you are?
Who do you think you are?
Who are you? And why did I let you in?