Hello, my names Abigail but call me Abby. I live alone, in my coffin, 6 feet under as some people call it. I wasn't always here, obviously I had a life, and I was pretty, friendly. I had friends a family and even a boyfriend. Would you like to know how I got here? Probably. Ok here it goes.
I live with my Parents Olivia and Jacob. My boyfriends name is Jack and my best friends are Emma, Alice and Billie. I have black hair, as black as night with blue eyes. I have 3 tattoo's, a star on my wrist, a rose on my shoulder and IMAGINE written on my lower back its beautiful. I'm not exactly popular, people don't really like me because I wear all black and I'm not a cheerleader, but I'm ok with that, I'd rather be hated then loved. I used to be though, a cheerleader I mean. I was dating the quarter back, typical I know, but that was my life I dyed my hair bleach blonde so know one knew that my hair was black, I wore mini skirts that showed half my ass and small tank tops that left little to the imagination. I made fun of the people I know call friends and I just wanted to be liked by everyone, well everyone I thought mattered. My boyfriend Adam had cheated on me repeatedly and when I found out I felt so alone, all the people I thought were my friends stop talking to me and started laughing and making fun of me tripping me in the halls calling me a poser. Well I guess they were right huh. I tried to kill my self, I over dosed on my mom's depression pills while they were at work and unfortunately my mom got home a little early, I feel bad for what she had to see I really do, but sometimes I wished it worked then, right then and there. I was in the hospital for a week and when I got home I wasn't allowed to leave the house. My parent's never asked me why; they thought it had something to do with them. I'm glad they didn't though, I mean what would I say " I tried to kill myself because my boyfriend cheated on me and my friends abandoned me and I spent so long pretending to be something I wasn't I really didn't know who I was". Oh yea that would work, I felt like an idiot knowing it myself, I didn't want anyone else to know it as well. When I got to school it was worse people were staring at me my ex-friends and ex-boyfriend were always yelling at me in the halls saying things like "your such a freak" and " you can't even kill yourself properly" and " no wonder you couldn't keep a man". They started saying that Adam left me before hand and the reason I did it was that I was so obsessed with him and sad that he wouldn't take me back. Pathetic, but then again so was what I did. One day it got really bad it was raining outside, they were calling for a storm, but we still had to go to school, nice to know they care about our safety. Adam and his new girlfriend Christy were pushing me around literally, I got pushed into a locker really hard and then I met Jack, he caught me just as I was about to fall, picked up my bag and the books that fell out and handed them to me and then if you can believe it he turned around and punched Adam, he knocked him out cold. I would have laughed if I weren't so shocked. He asked me if I was ok, all I could do was nod. No one has ever stood up for me before. He introduced me to his friends Billie and Emma. We all were inseparable after that, we hung out everyday, during and after school, my parents were so happy, because finally I was happy. It was April 6th when it finally happened. Emma and Billie had left to go eat dinner and Jack and I weren't hungry so we went for a walk instead, we walked by the park, it was night and there was a full moon and stars in the sky, it was beautiful. He looked into my eyes and told me how much he cared about me and he kissed me, it was the most passionate kiss I've ever had. I'm not sure how much time went by but felt like seconds, I wanted it to go on so much longer. After that we started dating I told him all my secrets, why I tried to kill myself, I even showed him my sketchbook, I had never shown anyone that before, know one even knew I drew, they were so personal but it was ok because I trusted him. I finally had a boyfriend that would never hurt me and best friends that weren't using me or pretending. I told them everything about my moms depression and even my fathers drinking, I never told anybody that stuff out of fear, and they said they wouldn't tell anyone and I believed them. I had met this girl named Alice she was strange but in a cool way, she always talked weird, like that girl from Harry Potter, that Luna girl. People made fun of her but I thought she was cool, I admired her, even though people didn't like her she didn't care, she was still her true self. I wish I had met her sooner then maybe, I don't know, I could have avoided a whole chapter in my life and maybe who knows? The whole thing. But well good thing come and go as I guess they must, it was mine and Jack's 1-year anniversary and he had never pressured me for sex, and well he was sweet and I could trust him right? I slept over at his house that night, Alice told me that I should wait longer, I mean she had this feeling about him and she was smart and a good judge of character, but I didn't listen. I loved him. He was my life and he loved me, so we had sex, it was the best night of my life, unfortunately it wasn't until the day after when I walked to school all happy to find Jack my sweetheart, my hero with eyes as green as the grass and hair as brown as, well it was brown, hanging out and laughing with Adam. I was shocked there he was talking and laughing with Adam like they were best friends. I saw Emma and Billie, maybe they could tell me what was going on. "Hey guys, I didn't know Jack and Adam were friends?" I was confused, but it all came suddenly clear as Billie and Emma started to laugh and explain the whole thing. You see Jack and Adam were good friends before Adam moved here and then shortly after Adam and I broke up Jack moved here to and became friends with Emma and Billie. They explained how Adam told them how much of a slut I was and how easy I was, so they thought of a little game, something to pass the time I guess. I was so shocked I couldn't even cry (that didn't last long though) here Jack was the sweetest person I've every met so cute and nice and funny, and just like that it was all taken away, he wasn't the angel he pretended to be, he was a jock, he was a jerk. I ran home as fast as I could, later that night Alice came to my house, I was so mad that all my friends had betrayed me again. I felt so stupid. But somehow even though she was one of the people I hated I mean I automatically thought she was apart of it. All she had to say was "I would never do that", and I believed her, I guess that's why were so good friends, she's the only person I can trust.