A/n- This is for the creepy quotes challenge. My line is: You never look into my eyes... are you scared of what you'll see?
I tried to hide them
The :u:g:l:y: scars
(My only |s|e|c|r|e|t|)
But you saw them
(Didn't you?)
Now I'm left
Wishinghopingdreaming
That you can understand the
|p|a|i|n| inside of me
Is this my punishment?
A :d:i:s:g:u:s:t:e:d: glance every once in a while
(You're almost meeting my stare)
But you're always careful not to, darling
You :n:e:v:e:r: look into my eyes
Are you scared of what you'll |s|e|e|?
Afraid to see the painsorrowhurt
Or the |m|a|s|k| the hides it all?
(I thought you were a Gryffindor though, honey)
Can you even tell the
:d:i:f:f:e:r:e:n:c:e:
Between the real me and the
Pretend?
Hell, I can't wishhopedream you can
(Because honestly, I can't tell them apart)
Because it's all I've ever |k|n|o|w|n|
(This game of fake happiness)
Did you :t:h:i:n:k: for one moment
I was happy?
Or did you :b:e:l:i:e:v:e: I was
Free of any |p|a|i|n|?
(You were always naïve)
Because I've dealt with painsorrowhurt
(Don't you understand?)
It must be a new concept
For |y|o|u| to understand
Since you've always gotten everything
Perfect grades
A unbreakable |h|e|a|r|t|
(As if it was made out of steel)
A beautiful girlfriend who adores you
All the :a:t:t:e:n:t:i:o:n:
While I was in the shadows of
Everyone's |a|c|h|i|e|v|e|m|e|n|t|s|
I wasn't brilliant like Rose
(But I made good grades)
I wasn't :b:e:a:u:t:i:f:u:l: like Victoire
(Is that why you chose her over me?)
I wasn't part /v/e/e/l/a/ like Dominique
With her silky blonde hair and crystal blue eyes
(No, I had flaming red hair and chocolate brown eyes)
I wasn't a |p|r|a|n|k|s|t|e|r| like James or Fred
(I was rather innocent)
But not too innocent like Louis
(He's only a second year, after all)
Large groups didn't /f/a/s/i/n/a/t/e/ me like Roxanne or Molly
(I preferred to be alone)
My |h|e|a|r|t| wasn't made of gold like Lucy's
(Not all of hearts can be gold, now can they, love?)
I couldn't be as :b:r:a:v:e: as Albus or James
(There was a reason I was placed in Hufflepuff)
And only I couldn't understand Quidditch like Hugo
(Sport's aren't my cup of pumpkin juice)
No, I was |m|e|
And no one else
Quietshytimid
-Lily-
Forever :s:t:u:c:k: in the background
Always overlooked and |m|i|s|u|n|d|e|r|s|t|o|o|d|
(Maybe that's why I have these scars on my wrists)
Maybe I wanted to be
N
O
T
I
C
E
D
For once in my short /l/i/f/e/
Or maybe it was a crypleadcall for help
And you were the one to hear it
Do you wish you |o|v|e|r|l|o|o|k|e|d| me?
Or you didn't :h:e:a:r: my screams for help?
But I'll understand if you can't look at me
After all, I'm |u|g|l|y| with these scars
(But I can never hide the truth from your eyes)
I can feel your hand under my chin
You say you /l/o/v/e/ me
But it's not the same way I |l|o|v|e| you
And it breaks my already /s/h/a/t/t/e/r/e/d/ heart
Into more pieces
You say you want to help me
(Is that you really talking?)
Can I be :f:i:x:e:d:?
Can I be |l|o|v|e|d|?
(I just need to be loved by the one I love)
A/n- I don't know why I'm so good at writing fics about people who cut. Trust me, I've never and will never cut. I've had several people around me cut so I can understand their feelings. This was longer than I expected. Was it good; was it bad? Please review.
