Prologue
Ever since the day I was born, I have been filled with a righteous sense of judgment. Maybe it was just my pride that made me believe I could play God, or maybe it was the thought of being able to go above my standards, not that I ever had any. I wanted a world clean of evil, was that such a terrible thing to ask for, was it such a sin? Death, destruction, it all was the only way to obtain the perfect world; it was the only way I could make my dream a reality.
When I started, this world was coated in a thick crimson, the air tainted with the bloodshed that spread across the land. My past was different from what they ever thought, I was never the person they believed I was. An honor student? I was that indeed, but there was so much more to my figure that no one ever knew. L. That one simple letter was the one person that understood who I was more than anyone.
It was him that I knew understood me. I hated him. I hated L. Somewhere though, deep in my heart, not in Kira's, but somewhere in Light Yagami's heart, he could never hate L. He loved L. As a companion, as a friend. He was the only one on Light Yagami's level, the only one who truly interested him; the only one he figured would pose a threat to Kira. There were other threats, yes, but none of them as big of a threat as L ever was.
Light knew that, me, Kira knew that. Yet still, I never could bring myself to kill the panda eyed detective. Maybe I'm just insane; maybe I got too lost in those eyes. Maybe, it was all in my head. They say Kira is a murderer, they say Light is a student working along side L. Who am I really? Am I Kira, or am I Light. No, I couldn't be Light. That name, it's pure, it's bright. That name lights up the darkness. Kira. Kira is who I am. That name means killer, and that's all I'll ever be.
In my own thoughts, I'm trapped, cornered. He stares at me, and I know he can see through my façade. He can see that I'm fighting with myself, he can tell that I want him dead, yet I can't kill him all at the same time. In the end, I guess what I really felt for the detective, was love.