A/N: This story, well...it's one I've been putting off. I've done my Pellie story, done my Palex story. Now it's time to tackle some Elex. Just a heads up that it is in ELLIE'S point-of-view. It seems my best writing occurs when the monsters go bump in the night. The wee hours of the morning. Not that I consider one-thirty to be wee. Far from it really. Wee is a funny word. Wee wee wee...Anyway.

This fic shall be similar to Collide in the way that it has lyrics placed throughout. These lyrics are by Taking Back Sunday, a great band that I use a lot of lyrics from. Definately one to check out if you like emo type music. Without further ado, here it begins!

I wasn't expecting any of this to happen. I have to tell you that right from the start. I barely knew her. Alex, well, I became friends with her inadvertantly. You see, I had been dating Sean. Sean was friends with Jay. Jay had been dating Alex. Now, both us wonderful couples had been broken up. Lately, it had just been Alex and I.

I considered her my friend most definately, however, I wasn't sure what I was to her. We didn't talk all that much. We mostly liked to hang out and have a good time. That didn't matter though. Point was, she was there.
I need some girl friends. Of course, I have Ashley but that's different. She's been busy with Craig a lot lately since his diagnosis. I didn't mind really. It was nice to get to know someone else.
Alex was weird. Don't get me wrong, I loved the girl, but she was strange beyond belief. A little hard to figure out sometimes. She was nice to me though, and that's all that mattered. Besides, we're all a little eccentric, right?
Marco and Alex were friends as well, so it wasn't odd for all three of us to hang out. Actually, my two friends tended to play cards together. Some game called euchre. I don't really know anything about it. It's fun to watch though. I love the look Marco gets on his face when he loses. Absolutely adorable.

Anyhow, things were getting a lot better in my life. I did lose my boyfriend, but not for a particularly bad reason. He had gone back to live with his family. It wasn't like with Alex, whose boyfriend had cheated on her with countless other girls. Including Emma Nelson, thought to be the biggest prude at Degrassi. But I'll get into that later.
My mom's in a treatment facility. So I've been staying on my own at Sean and I's place. Money can be a little hard, but it's all okay in the end. I do wish that my father would come back, and my mother would come out of rehab, and we could all be a family again. This life I'm living? It seems like a dream.
You can't run away from dreams, though. No matter how much you try, they'll always catch up with you.
Alex came over that day, just to hang out and watch some videos or something. It was totally out of the blue when I asked her to move in with me. I guess living alone was starting to take its toll. I was getting lonely. She's my friend, and I figured why not ask? She considered, looking at me with utter seriousness.

"Sure, why not?" I was ecstatic when I heard her reply. I threw my arms around her in joy.
"Thank you, thank you, thank you, thank you!" I shouted, hugging her. She pushed me away from her, a smile on her face. I could tell she was semi-excited. How couldn't you be? Parties all the time, someone always there for you.
"That's enough. You're welcome though. I'll start packing tonight, and I'll move in tomorrow." Alex confirmed, giving me a light pat on the shoulder and an encouraging smile.
With that, she left, leaving me alone in my deadly silent house.

I decided to go to bed, since there was nothing else to do. I crawled into the welcoming heaven, pulling the sheets up to my chin. I snuggled into them, feeling somthing tickling at my feet. I disappeared under the covers for a moment, coming back up victorious, with my loveable ferret in my arms. Bueller. He was something that was keeping me from going crazy. I loved that ferret. If it weren't for him, I'd probably be dead right now. You really can die of loneliness, you know. My grandmother did.
I cuddled with Bueller until I fell into a deep sleep.

Alex was at my house. She gave me this intense look, this smoldering look of passion. I melted right there.
I couldn't take my eyes off of her. She was so gorgeous. I wanted her right then and there. I pulled her to me forcefully, kissing her. She didn't resist as the kiss deepened.

I gasped, waking up from my dream. I rubbed my eyes, the daylight streaming through the window. I had just had a dream about Alex. A semi-erotic dream. And she was moving in today. I was sure it didn't mean anything. People have dreams all the time, right? It's not like I want to make out with her or anything. I thought for a moment. That idea actually seemed quite appealing to me. I'm just tired, I lied to myself, stretching. I got out of bed and warily made my way into the kitchen. I made some coffee. I wasn't sure why, but I was in a coffee mood. Heck, I don't even really like coffee. But that's beside the point.

Woke up yesterday
with you on my mind

I was sitting in my recliner, sipping on the hot coffee and watching the morning news as I heard a knock on the door. I sat the coffee cup down on the table, making my way towards the entrance. I opened it, pleasantly surprised to see Alex there, smiling up at me.
"Morning, sunshine." She greeted, sarcasm in her voice. I could tell she wasn't the biggest morning person.
"I didn't say you had to get up this early."
She shrugged, dragging her stuff inside and looking at me helplessly. Taking the hint, I walked into the hallway and grabbed the remaining boxes. I closed the door, and we both collapsed on the couch.

"Miss me?" Alex asked mockingly, throwing a glance in my direction.
"Sure." I replied sarcastically, lying my head on her shoulder. She let her hand settle on my head.
"Didn't know I was missable."
"You learn something every day."
Things were feeling a little awkward, at least to me. It was probably all in my mind actually. I was feeling wiggy after the dream I had. I was half-afraid Alex would somehow infiltrate my mind and find out I'd thought of her as more than a friend. Not that I did. I wasn't even sure. It could have been just a dream. Product of sleep deprivation. I wouldn't know until something happened. Of course, I wasn't willing to take a chance on our friendship. After all, she had just moved in with me. Needn't make things complicated.

We must have fallen asleep that way, much to my pleasure. Or at least my dream self's pleasure. I awoke, half confused about where I was. I pulled myself from Alex's arms and gave her an accusing glance.
"What's going on?" I asked, yawning. My head was throbbing. Her eyes flashed open and she turned to look at me, equally confused look on her face.
"We must have fallen asleep."
"Well you were feeling me up there, Alex." I answered, trying to gauge a reaction. She chuckled, nodding.
"You can't blame me, come on," She began, winking playfully. I knew she was joking. "It was my stupid idea to get up so early to move in here. I have no idea what I was thinking. Oh well. I guess I'm awake now that its noon." She continued, taking a glance at the clock. "I think lunch sounds like a fairly good idea."
"I'm up for that!"

Alex waited patiently for me as I took a quick shower. I stood in the shower, letting the warm water wash over my body. It felt amazing. I shampooed my hair and rinsed it, reaching for the soap to wash my body. I then rinsed off, turning off the shower and reaching for my towel. Alex stood there, mischevious grin on her face.
"Looking for this?" She asked, handing me my towel. I grabbed the towel, and pulled shut the shower curtain, embarrassed. I didn't want her to see me naked for longer than she already had. I dried off, wrapping myself in the towel and stepping gingerly out of the shower. She wasn't standing there when I got out.
I regained my composure, trying to keep my breathing steady. It was simply a coincidence. She'd been getting restless. I'd been taking a long time. That's all. It meant nothing. I sighed deeply as I walked into my room and closed the door behind me, eager to decide what to wear for the day.
I chose a simple pair of black pants, a nice amount of chains hanging from them. I also put on one of my favorite new shirts. It was a green one I'd bought the last time I had went to the mall with Ashley. I know, slightly insane. It wasn't often you caught me dead in a color non-black. What can I say? Green is a nice color.

Fully dressed, I returned to the living room. Alex was seated on the couch. When she saw me come in, she hopped up, eyes twinking.
"Ready?"
I nodded, still a little shaken about what had happened. These confusing feeling were definately starting to get to me. I shrugged those feelings away during the drive to the Dot. I didn't even know the dot was open this early. Actually, I don't remember the last time I'd gotten up before one on a Saturday. But that's just me.
I hummed along to the music on the radio, much to Alex's disdain. She gave me a look. One that said 'Will you please shut up, I'm trying to not go deaf before I turn 40'. I closed my mouth, settling into my seat.
It wasn't long before we arrived. My stomach was grateful.
I ordered a hamburger and an order of fries. (A/N: Ellie's not a vegetarian that I know of!) I silently sipped on my coke as Alex drank her Mr. Pibb. We were both quiet, glancing at each other from time to time. I saw her unwrap her straw, and she blew the paper at me. I picked it up, wadding it into a ball and hurling it at her head. She laughed.
"Well, don't I feel five years old." She exclaimed, giving me a grin. I hadn't seen that grin before. At least, not when it was meant for me. That was the kind of grin she used to give Jay. I swallowed roughly, taking a giant swig of my coke. I was trying to keep from talking, afraid I'd say something I shouldn't.
"You're not so talkative today. Why's that?" Alex questioned, looking at me inquisitively. I shrugged.
"Just got a lot on my mind, that's all."
"Penny for your thoughts."
"My thoughts cost more than that."
"Oh. Sucks for me then. I don't make much more than a penny at that pitiful cinema. I suppose it's not too bad though, since Paige and I are dangerously close to becoming friends. At least, we're not mortal enemies anymore. We agree over the evil fake cheese."
"Sounds like you guys have bonded."
"Oh yeah, extreme bondage has gone on," Alex paused, realizing what she had said. "Uh, you know what I meant. So anyway, are you thinking about Sean?"
I shook my head violently, blowing bubbles into my soda.

"Definately not."
"Who then?" Alex pryed, intensity burning in her eyes. I looked away from her, lowering my voice.
"Are you absolutely sure you want to know?" I asked, biting my bottom lip nervously.
"Duh. I wouldn't have asked otherwise."
"I had a dream about you last night." I admitted.
I wasn't sure how she was going to take it. Alex was becoming one of my really good friends and all, but I knew nothing of her stand on homosexuality. She was friends with Marco who was gay, but that was totally different. He was a guy. And he didn't have a flaming crush on her. Not that I did. I didn't know anymore. I was so scared, so confused. Everything was so far out of my comfort zone.

I was swimming in the sea of Alex. Let's hope I don't drown.