a moonlight fanfiction
ever since ive been turned i always felt so alone.
there was something different about me that no one would understand.
it was something you couldnt see but it was there.
something in my eyes that betrayed my apperance.
everyone has secrets, i know that now.
more that anyone.
secrets that they dont want anyone to know .
feeling different is hard especially when you know for sure that no one will understand youre situation.
you run away from human contact , in fear its like you have two different sides .
that only one of them you stand to show.the other is hidden.
you couldnt stand if someone else saw it.
youre ashamed of what youve become.
thats why i stay away from others.
you exile yourself because you dont believe you deserve to have someone close to you.
youre sick of this life . of what youve turned into.
but its worse when you didnt choose it .
you cat look at someone in the eyewithout feeling traped.
like if somehow they could see what was inside of you.
they can see the monster.
that how i feel every day.
im not sure that ill ever find peace or simply answers to what im looking for.
im sure that ill always be alone.
i dont know or understant how anyone could love me.
im sick of what i am.what ive turned into is anything but normal.
im anything but ordinary.
i cant change what i am.
i cant change the way people will see me.
no matter how hard i try things will never get better or easier for me.
i am a monster, and nothing could ever change that.
this is my prison.
what i am is the reason why i will always be alone.
sixty years is a very long time to deny yourself the touch of another.
but you do it, because you simply cant stand the thought of seing youself as a moster in someone else's eyes.
but ive done it simply because i dont think i can stand to hear someone else sreaming.
they see , and somehow they know what i am.
the screaming part comes naturally.
thats the one thigs that almost drove me insane.
they see the eyes, the other face that i have that is no longer human.
thats why i stayed away from people all these years.
they cant see the truth and it terrifies me.
solitude is my closest ally because with her, im sure i cant scare anyone.
sotitude is my enemy because i know that, with loneliness comes insanity.
written by ryro-fanfiction-x3 on november 30th