Title: Hidden Truths Discovered: Chapter 1
Author: Delilah (keeks82@aol.com)
Rating: PG
Pairing: R/J L/L
Summary: Picks up where "I Can't Get Started" left off. Rory must deal with the situation she created by kissing Jess.
Author's note: This my first time writing fanfic and I would love it if you would give me feedback! Thanks!
The morning following the wedding, Rory lay in bed allowing herself for the first time to think back to the day before. The day's constant activities had mercifully kept her mind off of it but now in the silence of the morning before her mom got up she was left to deal with grasping the reality of what she had done. . .she had kissed Jess. She, Rory Gilmore, who happened to have a boyfriend that she loved had kissed someone else. Well, she had kissed Tristan also but she technically didn't have a boyfriend then and it just wasn't the same. She didn't feel as guilty about that as she was feeling about this because she hadn't really enjoyed kissing Tristan. But the case with Jess was entirely different and that truth was disturbing to her. After kissing Tristan it made her all the more certain of her feelings for Dean. But this, this had exactly the opposite effect.
Part of her wished she hadn't done it, hadn't betrayed Dean this way. This part of her kept trying to forget what happened. But the other part of her wouldn't let her forget the thrill she felt when she saw Jess standing there. It wouldn't let her forget the incredible feeling she felt when Jess returned the kiss, the feel of his hand on her back, the touch of his hand on her face. Rory was quite sure she wouldn't ever forget what it had felt like to kiss Jess. But she had to! She had Dean, she loved Dean....didn't she?
With a disgusted sigh she threw the covers off her and got out of bed. Of course she loved Dean! She should never have done what she did. Maybe she had another stroke. Yeah, that was it. The thought of a perfectly healthy seventeen year old having two strokes in two weeks was completely absurd but that was the only thing she could think of to explain her strange behavior of late. Suddenly her mother's voice came into her head, "Maybe, honey, you are falling for Jess." The words Lorelai had spoken to her the night Rory came back from New York kept going around and around in her head as Rory made her bed, took a shower, got dressed and went into the kitchen to make coffee. Rory sat down at the table with a book and tried to silence the voice in her mind. Lorelai walked in, her hair a little rumpled, wearing her pajamas.
"It is like the 'Small World' song," Rory mumbled as she glanced up from her book to see her mother walk in the kitchen.
"What?" Lorelai asked. She poured herself some coffee and sat down at the table.
"Nothing," Rory answered putting on a smile. "Now are you going to tell me why Dad left yesterday?"
Lorelai's face darkened momentarily at the question. "You say that as if I have been avoiding answering that," she replied innocently.
"Maybe that's because you have been avoiding the question."
"I really don't know what you mean."
"Oh, so you just didn't hear me when I asked you about it ten times yesterday," Rory said.
"All right, all right. I'll tell you," Lorelai surrendered. She took a deep breath, trying to keep the pain at bay as she launched into the explanation of Christopher's disappearance. The phone call from Sherry, the news that she was pregnant, all of it came out. They both sat in silence for a minute or two. Each lost in their own thoughts.
"This sucks." Lorelai whined. "I know how much you would have loved to have your Dad and me together."
"Yeah, that's true but I think you were also looking forward to trying again with Dad. I'm sorry."
"Well, this is the way it's going to be. We'll just have to deal with it, as crappy as it is," Lorelai replied.
Rory sat quietly for a moment, dealing with the disappointment of knowing that things probably would never work out for her parents. "Are you okay?" she asked her mom putting her hand on Lorelai's arm. Lorelai sighed and smiled as she put her own hand on top of Rory's.
"Yeah, I'm okay," she answered. "Are you?"
"Yeah," Rory responded. "So, I'm going to have a half-brother or sister."
"I guess so," Lorelai said. She stood up and refilled her coffee cup. "Seems a little weird to think about, huh? Let's not talk about it any more."
"Agreed," Rory said. She watched Lorelai reach for a box of pop tarts and frowned. Rory was hungry and not in the mood for the pathetically unsatisfying meal that sadly was the norm when they stayed home to eat. "So, I guess this means we're not going to Luke's for breakfast?"
But just as she said this the thought came to her of who would be at the diner with Luke. She wasn't sure she was ready to deal with seeing him yet. At Rory's comment Lorelai frowned too. She thought back to her encounter with Luke earlier that week and the pain from it was still fresh. Now she was really feeling awful - first about Christopher and now being reminded of the utterly awkward and painful mess that was the Luke situation. Well, she couldn't do anything about the Chris problem but she could try again with Luke. Suddenly feeling very determined, she turned to Rory.
"No, we are going to Luke's," she said firmly. "Let's go."
Rory looked at Lorelai, trying to think of a way to talk her out of going there but then hesitated. She was glad that her mom was so set on going. She gathered from a few comments made after the last time Lorelai had finally made it into the diner that everything hadn't gone as well as she had hoped and Rory was happy to know that her mom wanted to try again to make things right with Luke. Resigning herself to the fact that she was going to have to see Jess again at some point in the future she decided this morning was as good a time as any.
To be continued. . .
Author: Delilah (keeks82@aol.com)
Rating: PG
Pairing: R/J L/L
Summary: Picks up where "I Can't Get Started" left off. Rory must deal with the situation she created by kissing Jess.
Author's note: This my first time writing fanfic and I would love it if you would give me feedback! Thanks!
The morning following the wedding, Rory lay in bed allowing herself for the first time to think back to the day before. The day's constant activities had mercifully kept her mind off of it but now in the silence of the morning before her mom got up she was left to deal with grasping the reality of what she had done. . .she had kissed Jess. She, Rory Gilmore, who happened to have a boyfriend that she loved had kissed someone else. Well, she had kissed Tristan also but she technically didn't have a boyfriend then and it just wasn't the same. She didn't feel as guilty about that as she was feeling about this because she hadn't really enjoyed kissing Tristan. But the case with Jess was entirely different and that truth was disturbing to her. After kissing Tristan it made her all the more certain of her feelings for Dean. But this, this had exactly the opposite effect.
Part of her wished she hadn't done it, hadn't betrayed Dean this way. This part of her kept trying to forget what happened. But the other part of her wouldn't let her forget the thrill she felt when she saw Jess standing there. It wouldn't let her forget the incredible feeling she felt when Jess returned the kiss, the feel of his hand on her back, the touch of his hand on her face. Rory was quite sure she wouldn't ever forget what it had felt like to kiss Jess. But she had to! She had Dean, she loved Dean....didn't she?
With a disgusted sigh she threw the covers off her and got out of bed. Of course she loved Dean! She should never have done what she did. Maybe she had another stroke. Yeah, that was it. The thought of a perfectly healthy seventeen year old having two strokes in two weeks was completely absurd but that was the only thing she could think of to explain her strange behavior of late. Suddenly her mother's voice came into her head, "Maybe, honey, you are falling for Jess." The words Lorelai had spoken to her the night Rory came back from New York kept going around and around in her head as Rory made her bed, took a shower, got dressed and went into the kitchen to make coffee. Rory sat down at the table with a book and tried to silence the voice in her mind. Lorelai walked in, her hair a little rumpled, wearing her pajamas.
"It is like the 'Small World' song," Rory mumbled as she glanced up from her book to see her mother walk in the kitchen.
"What?" Lorelai asked. She poured herself some coffee and sat down at the table.
"Nothing," Rory answered putting on a smile. "Now are you going to tell me why Dad left yesterday?"
Lorelai's face darkened momentarily at the question. "You say that as if I have been avoiding answering that," she replied innocently.
"Maybe that's because you have been avoiding the question."
"I really don't know what you mean."
"Oh, so you just didn't hear me when I asked you about it ten times yesterday," Rory said.
"All right, all right. I'll tell you," Lorelai surrendered. She took a deep breath, trying to keep the pain at bay as she launched into the explanation of Christopher's disappearance. The phone call from Sherry, the news that she was pregnant, all of it came out. They both sat in silence for a minute or two. Each lost in their own thoughts.
"This sucks." Lorelai whined. "I know how much you would have loved to have your Dad and me together."
"Yeah, that's true but I think you were also looking forward to trying again with Dad. I'm sorry."
"Well, this is the way it's going to be. We'll just have to deal with it, as crappy as it is," Lorelai replied.
Rory sat quietly for a moment, dealing with the disappointment of knowing that things probably would never work out for her parents. "Are you okay?" she asked her mom putting her hand on Lorelai's arm. Lorelai sighed and smiled as she put her own hand on top of Rory's.
"Yeah, I'm okay," she answered. "Are you?"
"Yeah," Rory responded. "So, I'm going to have a half-brother or sister."
"I guess so," Lorelai said. She stood up and refilled her coffee cup. "Seems a little weird to think about, huh? Let's not talk about it any more."
"Agreed," Rory said. She watched Lorelai reach for a box of pop tarts and frowned. Rory was hungry and not in the mood for the pathetically unsatisfying meal that sadly was the norm when they stayed home to eat. "So, I guess this means we're not going to Luke's for breakfast?"
But just as she said this the thought came to her of who would be at the diner with Luke. She wasn't sure she was ready to deal with seeing him yet. At Rory's comment Lorelai frowned too. She thought back to her encounter with Luke earlier that week and the pain from it was still fresh. Now she was really feeling awful - first about Christopher and now being reminded of the utterly awkward and painful mess that was the Luke situation. Well, she couldn't do anything about the Chris problem but she could try again with Luke. Suddenly feeling very determined, she turned to Rory.
"No, we are going to Luke's," she said firmly. "Let's go."
Rory looked at Lorelai, trying to think of a way to talk her out of going there but then hesitated. She was glad that her mom was so set on going. She gathered from a few comments made after the last time Lorelai had finally made it into the diner that everything hadn't gone as well as she had hoped and Rory was happy to know that her mom wanted to try again to make things right with Luke. Resigning herself to the fact that she was going to have to see Jess again at some point in the future she decided this morning was as good a time as any.
To be continued. . .