Note: This is a Degrassi fan fic, which would be my version of what would have happened after Secret. I hope you enjoy it! It's mostly about Emma/Jay, and the troubles that they get into. Until they notice that they have true feelings for each other. Alex/Sean evil.

Chapter 1: This is What Happens

Emma's POV:

So here I am lost, with no hope. The only thing I do is cry and cry. The shooting changed my life forever, and now I can't get rid of the image in my head. I hear a ringing noise that's coming from my cellphone. I stand up from my bed, and walk towards my desk. I gaze at the phone, while I grab it. It's Jay. I touch the button on the left side of it, and start talking.

"Hello." I say, quietly.

"Hey, Green Peace." Jay replies, with a jokingly tone.

"What do you want?" I ask annoyed.

"Calm down, I wanted to know if your coming to the ravine." Jay explained.

"Right now?"I asked.

"Yeah, so are you?" Jay asked.

"Sure. But it's late, can you possibly pick me up right now with your car?" I asked. While still holding my cellphone, I walked towards my bed and grabbed my jacket. I stop and continue listening.

"Why not, I'll be there in 5 min." Jay answered, and hung up.

Emma's POV:

Great, now I have to sneak out for the 15th time. I can't believe that I got myself into this. At first it was all about the shooting, until Jay asked me to go to the ravine for the first time. You couldn't imagine what happens there all the time. How could someone: smart, helpful, kind, softhearted person like me turn into: a cold hearted, off, not helpful, careless person?

I miss the way I was always joyous and hard working. But all of that is now gone. I am now cold and numb Emma. Who has no point to keep going in life. The only thing that matters to me now is my bracelets, and the ravine. Nothing is ever going to be like before, the ravine is my life and my home. It's the only place that I feel like I belong.

I walk towards the small window that's on the wall of the basement. I climb onto a small chair and open up the latch. I pull the small window up, and connect it with a long nail hanging above it. With my long scrawny arms I climb up the chair and go through the window. I pull myself up, and walk slowly towards the street. There by an overgrown oak tree, is a bright red sports car. Jay is standing right by it until he sees me and starts to walk towards me.

Jay's POV:

There she was, right in front of me as she would always be. The tall blonde, who only dreams of saving the whales. How did I ever get her into this? She seemed insecure as usual, but seemed eager to go with me. Emma Nelson, the schools suck up now messes around with me, Jay. Who could ever believe this? But that doesn't really matter right now. All that really matters is to leave and go to the ravine. I decided that I must say something, because this silence was killing me.

"So, Green Peace are you ready to leave?" I asked sarcastically.

"Yeah." Emma responded quickly.

"Well then let's go, after you." I said, while motioning my arm straight to the car.

Emma's POV:

His voice seems to stumble on every inch of my body. How is it that someone like him chose to be with me? I didn't stop to think; instead I walked slowly but not to slow towards the red car. I stopped in front of the car's door, and waited until Jay opened it. I got in and kept on looking back at my house. I hope my parents didn't hear anything, because if that happened I would be so dead. I fastened my seat belt, and looked back at Jay, who was staring straight at the road, he started the car and we were finally heading to the ravine.

We finally reached the ravine, Jay got out of the car and I followed him out. This place was filled with guys and girls who were ruthless and drunk. Beer was usually served and the van was always in the same exact spot. Which would be right by the picnic tables, and trees. I kept walking next to Jay, until we stopped for some refreshments. He pulled out to bottles of beer; one for me and one for him. We kept on walking, until we reached the picnic tables. I sat down next to Jay who was starring at the open fire. I simply took a couple of large sips from my bottle. But I stopped and starred at the van. Amy was coming out; she was fixing her hair and shirt. Then she just kept on walking with a guy next to her. I turned around and looked at Jay.

"Jay." I said quietly.

"What?" He asked with a smile.

"Umm, nothing." I responded slowly.

"Let me guess… you want to go to the van?" Jay asked, with a smirk.

I positioned myself, and gave him a friendly smile. "Are you a mine reader?" I asked. I gave him a small laugh and took hold of his hand. I pulled him towards me and stopped once he stared at me.

"Maybe, when I want to be one." He answered.

We continued walking towards the van which was as old as my grandma. Jay slid the rugged door and pulled me inside. It was filled with beer and bean bag chairs. Though it did have some pillows and a dark green carpet.

"So here we are." Jay said.

"Yep." I added. Jay then tapped my shoulder and turned me around. For a second we were both locked into each other's gaze. Jay then took hold of my right hand, and started to tilt his face towards mine. His lips seemed to be a magnet, because as soon as my face felt his get nearer my lips went closer to his. He gave me a kiss, but not like the usual. It felt pure, like it wasn't a game any more. We both continued kissing for a while, until we fell to the ground.

Jay continued kissing me until he went down my neck. I couldn't help but to pull his shirt up. We kept on making out for a while. I felt as if doing this brought me back to life. I couldn't imagine my days without seeing him. Wait! What am I saying? I couldn't possibly fall for Jay. Could I? Would I? No. This is only a friendship with benefits, nothing more.

I stopped thinking and kept on kissing him; Jay then was pulling up my tank top as I was unbuckling his pants. We would never go that far, we instead did something else. A couple of minutes past and he still kept on kissing me. This is something that I am used to, and won't ever stop doing. Time went by slowly, until it was all over.

Jay stood up and went to grab a bracelet; it was an indigo and blue color. I stood up and went towards him. He slowly placed the bracelets on my wrist, after that he gave me a kiss on the lips. He parted his lips as if he were to say something; although I was still fixing my hair after he gave me the kiss.

"You earned them." Jay said, with a natural smile.

"I did?" I asked innocently.

"You sure did." He gave me a smile, which seemed completely different from the rest.

"Jay… you're different." I said briefly.

"What do you mean?' He asked confused.

"Well, you're not like those idiots that I went out with." I explained.

"Huh." Jay asked.

"I am trying to say that you are a good person." As I said that, I crawled towards him and gave him a kiss on the lips. He placed his hand on the door and slid the van open.

"After you." He said.

I took a step onto the hard cement floor, which was filled with leaves. I was surprised when he placed his arm around my shoulder. Sure we would make out and do more, but usually when we were done we would walk side by side to the fire. It all seemed so different this time.

"Do you want me to drive you home?" He asked, with a smile on his face.

"That would be nice." I smiled back. We headed to the car slowly, and he still had his arms around me.

Jay's POV:

What does she mean by, "different"? It's true that I like her sort of, but what does she mean? This is all so confusing, to me and maybe to her even. I remember like it was yesterday when I asked Emma if she was coming to Bennett Park. I can still remember the first kiss that I gave her in the van and how she freaked out when I asked her if she knew what blowjobs are. The scared and confused face the she showed, and the anger that she had once she found out that I gave her Gonorrhea. Even though Alex dumped me, and Amy forgot about me. Emma happened to come back even when she hated me.

Maybe she has feelings for me; I kept on driving until we reached her house.

Emma's POV:

I unfastened my seatbelt and opened the car door; I went toward the basement window and stared at Jay. I had to say something. "Jay! See you at school, tomorrow." As I said that, I gave him a smile and waved back at him. He smiled back and went back inside his car. In less then a minute he left the scene that was before my eyes.

I crept back inside my basement room, and made sure that no one had heard. I got rid of my jacket and laid down on my bed. I turned to look at my nightstand, and stared at the clock. 3:30a.m, well at least no one heard me come in. I brought my wrist back and stared at my 30 bracelets. Jay would always give me 2 everytime that I saw him. There was nothing to do now but to sleep. I gently placed my head on my pillow, and closed my eyes. Before I knew it I was fast asleep, no one would ever find out what I do at night.