Chapter 1: Speechless
Sheldon looked at her, sitting there, she looked sad suddenly, almost depressed, she had an expression of despair. She looks lost. Fearful.
He cleared his throat in an attempt to regain focus, but yet would up struggling to breathe, at a total loss for words, and embarrassed by his silence, he finally spun round and whisked himself out of her apartment, the door slamming behind him as he went. He headed straight for his room, not stopping for futile chit chat when heads looked up to greet him.
Once in his room he froze, still, he stood motionless in the middle of his room,
Tall and rigid he tried to think, tried to understand what had happened, why it had happened and why he was having the most unfamiliar and unsettling of feelings, illogical and irrational reactions to another humans words.
Penny's words.
After what may have been hours, or yet minutes, he finally moved, he changed into his Thursday pyjama's and climbed into bed, he tried to clear his mind, and count batmen, and catwomen, he tried thinking of meemaw and her cookies, but his mind swam with confusion, his stomach having nerve wrenching sensations.
Eventually he allowed himself to think of her, what she had said, how she had been that night, that moment she made him laugh out loud, why such an evening had transpired, how she had looked and the first time they met. His mind began to ache, he felt bruised at sore.
He drifted off to sleep wondering what she was doing at that moment; he wondered if she was crying or not, he winced and was swept into an unsettling few hours' sleep.
She was drunk, she had already spilt wine of her top, he turquoise camisole, her hair had been up in a bun throughout the night, but most of it had fallen down, and although messy, it suited her, natural.
She hiccupped and slurped a whisper, she giggled to herself, then slid towards him and lent towards his face, for 5 seconds she just breathed heavily, he rolled his eyes, he began she protest but she cut him off by saying "I've always, sort of, thought we'd end up together" hiccup "an old married couple" she lightly kissed below his ear "we could be so in love, don't you think shelly".
He looked swiftly at her "Penny, what are you saying? You are clearly inebriated, you should retire to bed" .
He started to rise from her sofa, but she grabbed him and softly pleaded "Kiss me Sheldon"
"No penny"
"Aren't you attracted to me, Sheldon?"
He jumped off of the sofa, and looked down at her, as her expression changed she looked at him eye's wide and whispered
"Not even a little bit?"
He stood, breathless, and stumped, he had no answer, he couldn't answer.
He was speechless.