Disclaimer: I don't own Fairy Tail. If I did, NaLu wouldn't be a thing.
This is a songfic. Girl Crush by Little Big Town. ^_^
Characters: Lucy, Gajeel and Levy.
I got a girl crush
Hate to admit it but
I got a heart rush
It ain't slowing down
Levy sighed as she slumped over the bar, her head resting in the crook of her arms as she watched the scene in front of her. Her heart ached and she wanted to pull her gaze away from the happy couple, but found that she couldn't. She wanted the feeling of jealousy to go away, but she knew that she was fighting a loosing battle.
She knew she felt happy for them, but at the same time it hurt just to watch them be happy. She didn't know what to think when Lucy and Gajeel announced that they were dating. Hell, she didn't even realize how close the blonde and the Iron Dragon Slayer were. Levy guesses she was just too caught up in her own feelings to realize the danger that she was putting herself in. The heartbreak that was bound to come.
Jealousy was definitely there. Her face scrunched up in disgust just thinking about how jealous she was about Lucy being with Gajeel. Levy's had a crush on Gajeel ever since he saved her from Laxus' lightning back during the Battle of Fairy Tail incident. She didn't realize it at the time, but once she started to get to know the surly raven-haired male, those feelings just began to bloom. Levy had always thought that she would end up with Gajeel. He always went with them on missions when she asked, he was always willing to help her whenever she needed help.
Now she wondered if it was all just a ruse. If it was to somehow get a certain blonde haired female to notice him. Levy wasn't blind, she knew how pretty Lucy was. She was gorgeous, had a body to die for. Her personality was one to rival with, and her smile could light up a whole room. It was hard not to like the blonde. Hell, even people who have tried to kill her before are now some of her closest friends.
I got it real bad
Want everything she has
That smile and that midnight laugh
She's giving you now
Jealousy was a dangerous feeling. Levy knew that if she didn't reel in her jealousy, she'd do something she'll regret in the future. It wasn't like Lucy knew she had a crush on the dragon slayer. Levy never told her, though she thought that maybe Lucy could have figured it out. Levy prided herself on being one of the smartest people in the Guild, next to Lucy and Freed.
Levy watched as Gajeel wrapped his arms around Lucy's waist as the blonde talked to Gray and Juvia. The blue-haired girl always thought that if Lucy was going to get together with someone in the Guild, it would have been Gray or Natsu. They were always together, even when they weren't going on missions. They always watched out for the blonde, but than again everyone in the Guild watched after the Celestial Mage. Lucy was a beloved member of the Guild, and everyone would be devastated if something happened to her.
The Solid Script mage could tell Lucy was happy. She hadn't seen Lucy this happy in a long time, and it was great to be able to see that radiant smile on her face again. Levy had taken to Lucy from the get-go because of how similar their interests were. They were both into literature, Lucy let Levy read her novel that was great, they had the same interests in tea and favorite spots to visit. The blue-haired Solid Script Mage loved having Lucy as a friend, and didn't want to loose her.
I want to taste her lips
Yeah, 'cause they taste like you
I want to drown myself
In a bottle of her perfume
I want her long blonde hair
I want her magic touch
Yeah, 'cause maybe then
You'd want me just as much
I got a girl crush
I got a girl crush
Jet and Droy was worried about Levy. She knew she was acting weird, but in all honesty she couldn't tell them why. She didn't want to see their pitied faces, or the hurt looks that they might have given her - even though she's told them time and time again that she only saw them as friends. She never saw them as anything more, except maybe Jet a long time ago before she met Gajeel. At one point she wanted to believe that maybe something would work between one of the boys. She didn't want to continue hurting them, but she just found that she couldn't. She didn't want to string them along so she just told them the truth.
A part of her wish she just dated one of them. Though, the sane part of her told herself that she did the right thing. Dating one of them when she never really had feelings for them would have been a bad idea. Besides that, it wasn't in her nature to something like that. Maybe it would have been in Cana's nature, but Levy wasn't Cana.
I don't get no sleep
I don't get no peace
Thinking about her
Under your bed sheets
A part of Levy wondered if something was wrong with her. Why didn't Gajeel see Levy the same way he saw Lucy? Lucy always got attention, which was nothing new to the petite girl. Sometimes she was a little jealous of Lucy's curves or her boobs. Levy wished she had her body, or the other girls in the Guild. She wasn't anyone special. Maybe that was why Gajeel went to Lucy instead of her.
Levy wasn't experienced by a long shot, but she knew Lucy wasn't either. Lucy might have had the body to kill, but she was a lot like Levy in the romance department. Lucy had a thing with Hibiki from Blue Pegasus, but that didn't really last long. Hibiki was Lucy's only boyfriend - as much to Levy's knowledge. Lucy didn't like to flaunt that relationship though.
The way that she's whispering
The way that she's pulling you in
Lord knows I've tried,
I can't get her off my mind
Levy wondered when she'd get her happily ever after. She wanted to believe she had it, but when the relationship came out it was wrenched out of her chest. The pain was so real, she felt like she was stabbed in the heart. When Lucy asked her if she was alright, Levy just gave her a small smile and nodded her head - though inside she was wailing with pain. She didn't want to tell the blonde that though. Levy knew that if she had gotten with Gajeel, that Lucy would have just gave Levy a smile and congratulated her. So she did just that, even though it hurt so much to watch them together.
She wanted the feeling of jealousy to disappear, but Levy had no idea how to even begin doing that. She wasn't ready to move on from Gajeel, but she knew that she would have to. Dragon Mates are permanent, and once a dragon found something that he or she liked they usually latched onto it. Levy knew that from research, and she knew that the dragon slayers were the same way.
I want to taste her lips
Yeah, 'cause they taste like you
I want to drown myself
In a bottle of her perfume
I want her long blonde hair
I want her magic touch
Yeah, 'cause maybe then
You'd want me just as much
I got a girl crush
I got a girl crush
Levy often thought of drowning her sorrows in alcohol. She took up a lot of offers with Cana when the brunette asked if she wanted to go drinking with her. Usually, she'd say no, but during her recent predicament she felt the need for the burning sensation that alcohol gave. It felt good to just let loose, but the tension always came back when Levy watched Gajeel and Lucy.
It was hard, but Levy was determined to make it work. She was determined to get over the surly dragon slayer. She knew that she would find her own happily ever after. Yeah, things will never be the same between her and Lucy. She would always feel a little tension coming off when she watched the two together, at least until she found her own love to make the pain go away.
She had to believe that she would find that happiness with someone else. She knew she would, and she knew it would take time to get over Gajeel. He was her first love. And even though she did feel kind of bitter towards the newly formed couple, she felt happy for them too.
So as long as she felt happy for them, she knew she'd be fine. And in the end, she'll get her own sense of happiness.
Hate to admit it but
I got a heart rush
It ain't slowing down
Here we go! I actually loved writing this, it was so much fun! I am going to be posting one-shots and post what characters are going to be in the one-shot. Got the idea from GemNika with her 30 Day one-shot book. I don't write a lot of one-shots, but this will keep me from posting all my one-shots separately. :)
~yorusorra