Disclaimer:
Just when you think my disclaimer couldn't get any gloomier... not only do I not own this story, I haven't gotten permission to translate the prologue yet. -cringe-
So err... read it while you can... LOL.
(I hope to eventually contact Maya and get her permission though...)
Summary:
(ShizNat AU) Story follows our star-crossed lovers into different lifetimes. Co-authored by Maya(Prologue) & Asuka.
Author's Notes:
Technically, I haven't gotten the permission to translate the 1st part of the story. But seeing that it is critical for me to do the 2nd part of the story, I've opted to remove details, summarize and present the 1st part as a prologue instead.
So... if it seemed incomplete, awkward or doesn't flow well... yeah... it's because of me. -gomen-
(Hopefully when I get Maya's permission, I will eventually fill in the whole story)
Entangled Love
Prologue
Authored by Maya
Translated by glowie
I was pleasantly surprised to find myself being assigned to serve our miss, Shizuru-sama, in the Fujino's mountain-top villa. However, I could never understand why did they allow Shizuru-sama to stay in this desolated place... alone.
It pains me greatly to see the once sparkling crimson eyes now being reduced to lifeless dull almost-brown crimson. All I ever see her do now is to gaze into the garden wherein the hundred year old tree which is entangled heavily by bluebonnets lies. (-1-)
"But... once... we were also entangled as such..." she murmured.
One day, a loud and rude blond-haired woman accompanied by her quiet short brown-haired companion came to visit. She was shouting and even slapped Shizuru-sama! What nerve! Sadly, Shizuru-sama just stood there lifelessly while the loud woman continued her accusations. Miss said something that caused the rude woman to be very angry and eventually she stormed off the villa with her friend. Seeing to their departure was Shizuru-sama's laughter. Loudly it rang, cold and hollow. My heart tightens in pain.
I tried to help her steady herself but she collapsed unto the leaf-filled garden ground. Body curled up as if desperately in need of warmth. I tried to pull her up but her body seemed so weak and heavy with despair.
Suddenly, she grabbed unto me and said, "Do you know?..." she trailed as if she was reliving through a recent memory.
"Do you know what the last words she said to me were?" she added weakly.
"She said 'Thank you for taking care of me Shizuru', she said 'I do not owe you anymore now...' ... Why?! Natsuki... why? Why are you so cruel?" she wailed."Why did you have to take all my hopes away? Not even willing to leave me a glimpse of hope..."
She held on to me... weeping uncontrollably stopping only after her body and mind gave out on her.
One day a letter was delivered to Shizuru-sama from the main house. From the torn envelope I could see both a pastel pink colored letter and a white colored letter laced with black rims... a paper commonly used for funeral notice...
I do not know what was written on them... but the dimly flickering lights which were barely visible within dull crimson orbs were distinguished at that very moment.
That night, fire was found eagerly licking and hungrily feeding upon the mountain-top villa till the early hours of morning. Apart from me who was told to deliver a package to the main house by Shizuru-sama that very night, nothing was spared by the blaze.
I could almost picture Shizuru-sama, wearing her white uniform standing below the tree, smiling in her last moments.
I left carrying what little I owned. Found within my humble possession a pastel pink colored letter, most probably snuck in by Shizuru-sama. I guess maybe this was the only precious thing left she could not bring herself to destroy; so much more precious than her very life. Her last entanglement...
Shizuru:
By the time you are reading this letter, your Natsuki is no longer in this world.
Please forgive me for my irresponsibility, for giving up on life and killing your love, Natsuki.
I cannot handle living with the pain of this burdened relationship.
I guess you must have said things such as "Natsuki is a cruel person."
I am very sorry for being so cruel to you, to myself, to us.
In truth, I did try to accept you, to believe in your every promise, your every smile.
But, forgive me, I have failed. I, Natsuki Kuga, can no longer believe in the feeling which is known as "love" anymore.
I am thankful for your unyielding love for me. Standing beside me, shielding me from every harm. Shizuru, you are the stronger one. Because of that in the end, allow me to be the one giving up; freeing us from this entanglement.
I am unable to love you. If I said I love you, if I responded to our love, I would be lying. Maybe you would say even if it's a lie you'll still willingly accept it. You being the ever stubborn one. But I cannot. I cannot lie to you. I cannot base on my gratefulness or obligation and pretend to love you. I cannot use this cold and emotionless body to give you warmth, binding you even closer to me. Because the end that awaits us will only be destruction.
That day, when I saw them aiming their guns at you, I knew that was my only chance. The only thing I could do for you. I selfishly threw you back into a world without Natsuki Kuga. Finally, I can escape this world without feeling in debt; to flee from that painful road ahead; to flee from this feeling you are arousing within me but of which I feared.
Farewell my Shizuru.
If possible, I wish to meet again in our next life.
And in that life, let me be the one loving you.
TBC
Notes:
The angst factor here was toned down considerably with the removal of some details like Shizuru's brooding, Haruka's visit, Shizuru's burning of Natsuki's blood filled uniform and etc.
For the full story, you can go to:
http// www . yamibo . com / viewthread.php?tid5307 The author's blog is:
http// www . wanboke . com /user1/9206/index.shtml (I left a message and hope to hear the author's favorable reply)
Starting from Chapter 1, it's authored by Asuka (author for A Day In the Life Of Gakuenchou - Afternoon)
As usual, any form of corrections or bombardments are welcomed. (ok... ok... if you ran out of tomatoes and vegs, I'll allow fruits as well) -sigh-
-searches for her helmet-
Remarks:
1. This was suppose the heart of this piece but due to removal of related text, I cannot really bring out the true feel of the message. The tree represents Natsuki (her name in chinese means summer tree) whereas the bluebonnets represents Shizuru (part of Shizuru's name). The picture being presented is of the tree being entangled by the bluebonnets... which is the message of the story. The original piece has more references and thus the message is clearer. The tree is always presented as green lush and straight whereas the bluebonnets are pictured as weeds... entangling the tree. I know ZERO, NIL, NOTHING of gardening... so in truth it might not be bluebonnets but some kind of weeds. But checking out the names, it should be bluebonnets... but are bluebonnets weeds? I have no idea. (btw... bluebonnets are BEAUTIFUL...such cute flowers they have.)