Bridge over troubled Water
Author: 8-Sarah-8
Spoilers: The Woods, perhaps some other of Season 1 and 2, but I'm not good in those episodes names.
Pairing: Lil/Scotty
Disclaimer: Unfortunately, I don't own anything of it except the story itself.
Summary: Settled after the Woods. Lilly isn't able to forget things that happened.
A/N: First Cold case fanfiction. My English isn't the best, but I hope you'll be able to understand the things I want to say. If not, please let me know. Please R&R
Chapter One: Tragedy
When the feeling's gone and you can't go on,
It's tragedy. When the morning cries and you don't know why,
It's hard to bear. With no one to love you, you're goin' nowhere.
(Bee Gees)
Lilly Rush opened her eyes in pain. Her blanket lay on the floor and even the girls have left her bed. Her hair was wet as if she had had a shower a second ago.
She has dreamt of him. Every night she has to go through this nightmare again. She had killed him, but he was with her every night and every day.
She left her bed yawning and headed to the bathroom. A shower would help her. Perhaps she could get some sleep afterwards.
When Lil arrived she took a look at the mirror. She looked exhausted because of the lack of sleep she got during the last weeks; tears were all over her face. She didn't know what to do, she was not able to talk to anyone, she didn't even know whom she could talk to, there was no-one who really liked her after Kite had broken up with her. Okay, the guys at homicide department took care of her, but she couldn't stand their staring and caring any longer, she needed love, a holding hand that helps her out of her darkness. Could Scotty understand her feelings? Certainly not.
Her thoughts went to the mirror again.
Suddenly she saw a shadow behind her. She turned around to face it, but there wasn't anything. When she turned to the mirror once more she saw him.
"George, please let me live again! Go away!" she screamed and kneeled down.
"Please let me alone. I don't want this anymore. I need sleep. You got all you wanted. I told you what happened when I was little. I'm not the same anymore. You have killed me either. Do you call this life! I'm weak because of you! I can't protect myself any longer."
She was crying and sobbing like a baby, weak as she has never been before. It was so hard to build the walls again and it was even harder to open the door to her thoughts to someone.
Lilly woke up when the sun reached her through the little window. She didn't know where she was at first, but the memories of the last night came back to her mind. She sighed as she tried to stand up. Her neck was aching. Why wasn't she able to have a brake down in her bed instead of the bathroom? That was so typical her. She always took the harder way.
She looked at her clock. 7.24. She was too late. Dammit. It was too late to take a shower, which she really needed for looking awful and tired.
After putting on some make up and feeding Olivia and Tripod Lil left her apartment and headed to the department. On the way she stopped at Starbucks. She was too tired and she really didn't appreciate the idea of falling asleep at work. They would feel even more pity for her and she wasn't sure if she could bear more sympathy, therefore she had to drink a lot of coffee that day. Perhaps she would buy some medicine for better sleep that evening.