Yep, me again, with another random fic. This is basically about the addictive nature of their powers and the dark side of it and all that. Enjoy.
This ones kinda darker (in a different way) to my other one a bit more metaphorical
Darkness. It's like an obsession, a drug. Touch it once and it takes over your whole mind, it's all you can think about; day and night. Take to much and it will consume you. Leave it and it will destroy you.
It's a wild animal. It drags you into its world where you have to play by it's rules. Then, when you think it's won, when you lie beaten and bleeding in the depths of your soul it shows you the light. How it can help and heal what it has done and you forget the pain it causes. You cower in the shadows it creates for you. You hide in its pockets.
And suddenly it's changing again, just like it always does. Just as you break the surface you discover you're no longer drowning. The world beneath you shifts again. Again you're fighting something you don't understand. Something more powerful than you. Something smarter than you. Something infinitely deeper and more beautiful than anything you could ever imagine. And you know you're not dreaming, this has to be real because nothing you create could ever be that amazing..
It walls you in on every side then it shows you it's weaknesses and waits patiently while you circle to strike. But you can never win. No matter how smart or strong you are it will always be smarter. It will always be stronger. It will always be better.
It holds you deep inside itself. It plays out your fears and impassively watches as you scream and beg. It waits until it knows it has destroyed you on every level and then it builds you back up. It dries your tears and burns away your fears with its ice heart.
It takes your whole life and all your love. It destroys everything and everyone else until you are forced to cry in its lonely arms. I pushes you to the end of the leash it keep you on then drags you back.
It takes everything and gives back nothing until is possesses you mind body and soul. Until it belongs as much inside you as you belong to it.
It takes whatever it wants and never gives what you need.
It destroys your life and consumes your world. It tortures you every way it can then it heals you with its own blood.
It rules your world and you accept it. It lives and burns within you and you take it as a natural part of you. It is anything but natural and even as I hate it and wish it gone from me I love it and know I would die should it ever leave me. Everyday it sinks farther in, takes a firmer hold. Each moment it claims another piece of your mind, steals more from your sanity. And you welcome it and bring it with you every inch of the way. It makes you more powerful than you could ever dream of but it also brings you crashing to your knees. You will burn and in that burning know such pain and such pleasure as to know its true nature.
It will posses all of you and you will love it with your whole life. But every day of that life you will hate it and wish it gone from you. This is the only way we can truly exist. Loving and hating our powers and loving and hating ourselves.
Um...sorry if I creeped anyone out there...Now please please please review? I really want to know what you think and reviews make me write faster…please?
Sammy