I stare at the two pictures in each of my hands, and wonder, "Who do I love more?"
Gale, my best friend ever since I was little, or Peeta, my fellow victor, and the person who is suppose to be my 'Starcrossed lover'.
Before my first games I had known who I loved. Gale, my best friend, the person who I told all my secrets to when we went hunting together.
But after I kissed Peeta in the first time alone in the cave, I wasn't quite shure who I really loved.
"Aggg!" I scream as I flop onto my bed and shove my face into my pillow and start to cry.
I feel some one touch my head. I wipe the tears from my eyes and look up. It was Gale. I push the two pictures under my pillow and try to hide the fact that I was crying. But I could tell by the look on Gale's face that he knew that I was stressed and lost in confusion.
Gale sits down by me on my bed. Finally I can't take it anymore and I push myself into Gale and sob, my face buried in his arm.
After about 5 minutes of my sobbing, Gale calms me down by stroking my hair. Then after he had calmed me down a little, he looks me straight in my eyes and asks me with a slight smile.
"So what's wrong Cat-nip?"
I blush a little. He hadn't called me that since the reaping. But I remain calm. I really want to talk. But I only tell Gale a small portion of what I was crying over.
I tell him how I'm sick of living by President Snow's orders, not being aloud to make my own decisions, and wondering where Peeta is.
"I'm-I'm just sick of it Gale! I don't even know what to do anymore!" As I say this I start to cry again.
"I know Katniss. Where all sick of it. We just have to take it day by day, we'll figure it all out."
Gale says this in such a soothing voice, I could tell he was trying to calm me down. But it doesn't work and I begin to sob.
"But how do you know?" I scream.
"Sometimes Cat-nip, when it comes to life and death, you just have to take a leap of faith.