Chapter I: Don't play the gentleman

Hi,
so this is my first FF, and I'm pretty nervous ^^
It takes place after the episode "Can't Fight This Feeling", it's very A/U and I hope you give it a shot :)
I already wrote about twelve chapters and I have no idea how long it will be.
Oh, and I'm sorry when there are mistakes, I'm german and nobody read it beta, so I'm sorry!

Disclaimer: I don't own a single thing from Grey's

"So take a look at me now, Well, there's just an empty space And there's nothing left here to remind me, just the memory of your face Oh, take a look at me now, Well, there's just an empty space And you coming back to me is against the odds and that's what I've got to face"

Jackson went tired in his office, he was sick of the comments from his colleagues. Did they seriously thought he was happy about being the chief? He sat down and watched the big reams of charts on his desk. Annoyed exhaled Jackson and placed his head on his palms. A few moments later he heard a knocking on his door. Jackson grumbled and April appeared in the door, she seemed to be really nervous. He smiled weak at her while she took a seat in front of him.

"Hey, can I help you?" He tried to sound as casual as possible, but he was sure, she noticed the insecurity in his voice.

He felt bad about what happened a few weeks ago. When he told her, that he slept with Stephanie, she started crying and admitted she just wanted to kiss him. Deep inside he wanted too, but however, he just stood there paralyzed. And now that she had Matthew, the paramedic, he felt a lot worse.

"I need your help indeed. Can you please perform the surgery on Matt? And can I please be there by his side?"

Jackson raised his eyebrow in disbelief and asked her: "Really? You ask me to perform a surgery on your boyfriend?"

April stooped, she knew that he wouldn't be pleased about it but she hadn't expect he would be so mad at her.

"Please Jackson, you're the best plastic surgeon here, I trust you...Please Jackson...please!", she begged and bit on her bottom lip.

Jackson avoided her gaze, what should he do? On the one hand, he would do everything for her, but on the other hand, he was afraid about what she would do with him if he'd make a mistake.

He replied his thoughts: "What if I make a mistake? Do you know under which pressure I'd stand while you're watching me perform a surgery on your boyfriend?"

April should have known better. How could she asked Jackson, to which she had admitted that she wanted him, to perform a surgery on her boyfriend?

"Whatever, Jackson...It was selfish from me to ask you. After all that happened between us in the past few weeks. I'm sorry...I just needed my be- anyway...", April said with tears in her eyes while she stood up and walked to the door.

Jackson got up fast, caught her hand and pulled her into him. April had to caught her breath, she had never expect that Jackson would embraced her, and now she started to cry, big baby tears. She missed her best friend, his warm and muscled body, his everything. Jackson caressed her head and murmured soothing words while he had to fight with his feelings.

"I'll do it." he said quietly.

"Hey, just because I-I-I started crying, you don't have to play the gentleman, Jackson.", she whispered in his chest, so he barely understood her.

"I'm a surgeon, it's my duty. And...I would do everything for my best friend.", he ended slowly.

Now April just started to cry even more, and breathed: "I missed you as my best friend."

Jackson closed his eyes and pulled her closer into him, he had missed her too.

"You're shivering, is everything okay with you?", he asked caring.

"I'm just worried about Matt...And about you. You're stressed and this all is too much to take for you at the moment. I mean I can help you with that stuff if you want..." She answered quietly.

Jackson chuckled and said: "No, you don't have to help me, you have enough to do in the pit. I guess I could probably handle it, but thanks."

They were still standing there cuddling and it didn't bothered them in any way. Then suddenly April's pager went on and broke their silence.

"I'm sorry...heading trauma...sorry." she said excusing and smiled at Jackson.

"It's okay April. So I see you later at the cafeteria?", he asked shy.

April nodded happily and walked out of the room.

"Oh! April, wait!" he called.

April stuck in the doorframe and turned around.

" I meant it seriously, I'll do the surgery. And you'll be there.", Jackson said with a weak smile.

April smiled uncontrollable, ran to him and kissed him on the cheek:

"Thank you, it means a lot to me."

Jackson smiled mischievously and waved at her while she ran to the pit.

I would love to read what you think of it, it would help me a lot. :)