This First Chapter its almost the same, when katniss comeback to district 12, but it's the beginning of this story.
Once we got to the victor´s village, Haymitch headed me to the door of my house, but he doesn´t walk trough, and from the corridor i can see that someone has built fire in the fireplace and in the kitchen, but i don´t really care about it.
-Well, see you tomorrow- says Haymitch
I don´t answer, so he finally turns and walks away. As the clinking of his bag of liquor bottles fade away, I whisper -I doubt it.
i head to the hall where the fireplace is, without taking out my boots, i sit in the rocking chair, guarding the letter of my mother that Haymitch gave me, But I won´t opened it.
The swinging of the chair is mild and hypnotic.
The rest of the house become cold and dark only prevails the fire and my shadow, I pull the quilt of the sofa and I wrap myself in and I continue staring at the flames. And I guess I doze off because the last thing I know, it´s morning and I see Greasy Sae in the kitchen.
After she made the breakfast, she made me eat the scramble eggs and french toasts, we don´t really talk much.
Greasy Sae´s granddaughter must be really boring, because she starts to play with a ball of blue yarn taken from my mother´s knitting basket. Greasy Sae tells her to put it back, but I say that she can have it. After all no one will ever knit again.
After breakfast Greasy Sae do the dishes and goes, but by noon she´s back with the same routine, she cooks and makes me eat. I start to think if she being neighborly or it part of some government's payroll, whatever its, she shows up twice a day.
Haymitch never shows, even though he said he would since we arrived to district 12, maybe he change his mind, or maybe he´s just drunk. Only Greasy Sae and sometimes her granddaughter show up, but after solitary confinement, they seem like a crowd.
You know girl, spring is in the air. You have to get out. She says. Go hunting
I haven't left the house. In fact i hadn't walked more than 10 steps that take me from the rocking chair to the dining room or the 10 that take me to the bathroom. I even hadn´t changed my clothes since i arrived to district 12. My only will is be sitting in the rocking chair staring at the fireplace.
i don´t have a bow. I said finally.
Look in the study room. Says Greasy Sae before she goes.
I consider to stand and look for what expects me in the study, I don´t get up. But after several hours, I go anyways, walking in socks toward the study, where I had my tea with president snow back then.
In the table I found a big cardboard box, inside of this, my father's jacket, our plant book, my parent´s wedding photo, the spill that haymitch send me in the quarter quell, then I´m looking for the parachute and the pearl that Peeta gave me that night when our kisses made us forget about the Quarter Quell for a moment, then i remember that i used to carry it with me the pearl on my mockingjay/soldier uniform, which don´t survived after the explosion.
Next I found the bows crafted by my father, as a few handfuls of arrows. I put on the jacket and walk away without touching the rest of the things that just bring back bad memories, I come back to the fire place this time sitting in the sofa where i fall asleep and a terrible nightmare shakes me.
I'm lying on a grave, and they are burying me, every person that was killed because of me says their final goodbyes and they throw a handful of ashes. It´s a long list though, and the ashes are making things difficult to breath. I try to scream, but it is useless, ashes fill my mouth, my nose, my eyes, leaving me in the heavy darkness and the shovel´s scrapes go on and on and on.
I wake up with a jump and the dark it´s about to fade, because I can see the dawn it´s about to rise. And then I hear it again the scrapes of the shovels continues, I run to the door and open it and then I saw him.