I DO NOT OWN BLEACH.
A/N: set after Kaname's death. A one shot to tide everyone over.
Dear Shuuhei, There is something I want you to understand. My betrayal no doubt will have a profound effect on you. After all you had looked up to me someone who had preached about justice and wanting to cleanse the world. Its no surprise that you would feel betrayed by me but in the presence of him I cant explain my real reasoning for everything that is about to happen. Something rotten is spreading through the Seireitei and its been happening for longer than neither yourself or even Renji know. The reason why Kisuke's banishing will come to light, as well as the ever present fact that he was banished. That same friend will be affected by this as well. All things considering this will affect everyone within the Soul Society.
But take comfort in the fact that not everyone is happy with Aizen as everyone will no doubt notice the day we cross blades. It is apparent to me that one of us will die and it is my sincere hope Shuuhei that you will not become a casualty in all of this. But even so the irony will be apparent I digress though, the day approaches for my betrayal I will tell whoever my blade crosses on that day that my goal in life is to avenge the death of a friend and with the Soul Society at present I feel like this goal will not become reality any time soon. Revenge is my ultimate goal out of this that's the Devine reason revenge against all the injustice in this world.
That however isn't the real truth although I know people will be harmed I cant say I'll be ok with the innocent slayings. But alas my personal feelings wont matter in any of it. I wish I could see you through my own eyes one day before I die though. That would make all of this worth it and is my real reasoning that one day I can see you through my very own eyes. Instead of sensing spiritual pressure. "That is where my confessions transcribed for you ends. Goodbye Shuhei and good luck in our upcoming battle. Kaname Tousen."
As the last words left my lips I didn't know what to feel numbness and shock both present. All of that just so my captain could see me with his eyes after everyone left I took the letter and burned keeping in mind the words of my former captain. In a way I was glad I had never found the letter until now. Because than seeing his death would've been too painful no this, this was for the best telling myself this "Goodbye to you too captain" my own final parting words. Before letting the fire burn itself out and walking heading back to the Seireitei and normal everyday life. Finding that letter had been my closure.