disclaimer: i dont own anything except sammy, erica and danny.

a/n: first outsiders fic. dont know where its going yet. rating is just in case. r&r

ponyboy was one of a kind. he was the whole reason i was okay with my life. the reason i was alive.

It started about 2 years ago. My family started going down hill. Dad stopped coming home, but when he did, he was mean and drunk. Mom tried to still care, but the stress of a job and three kids was wearing her thin. She began working late and when she was home, her focus was on anything but us.

I had two younger siblings, my brother, danny, was 7 and my sister, erica, was 9. I tried my best to take care of them, but i had to focus on myself too. I was 16 when this started, and it was a rough time all over. Ponyboy curtis lost his parents about 8 months before that, and we were best friends.

It was so hard on all of us. Not more than Pony, Soda, or Darry. They were like my family and when their parents died, it crushed me. I watched Pony go through the worst of it. I remember one night when I was staying over, he woke up screaming in the middle of the night. He had these nightmares, so Soda moved into his room to help him feel safe. But i knew he still had the nightmares, even if he wouldnt admit it.

There was a knock on my door that brought me back to reality. I got up and opened the door, it was my mother. "hi mom." She pursed her lips, as if the very thought of me being her child disguisted her. "I thought you had left already." She glanced pver my shoulser at the packed bag on the floor. I shrugged, "just packing the rest of my stuff up. Ill be leaving soon. Hope im not being a burden." I added in the last bit to get a reaction. Her eyes narrowed, "I was just coming up to make sure you didnt take my scarf." I turned, grabbed ot off the desk and threw it her face, picked up my bag and pushed past her.

Danny and Erica were standing at the bottom of the stairs, with tears in their eyes. They were the only reason I hated to leave. I put my arms around them and kissed them both. "im so sorry. I love you both more than anything, and i promise i will come back for you. You both know where Ponys house is, if you need me, come get me." They begged me not to go, but i couldnt stay. Not even for them. I walked out the door without a look over my shoulder and down the street to the curtis'.

My eyes filled with tears as I walked up to the front door. I pushed the door open and Pony appeared, "Sammy? You okay?" I shook my head as i dropped my bag on the couch. "no. im not okay. Danny and Erica were crying when i left, it nearly made me stay." I had his arms around me suddenly, my head found his shoulder and i cried.

He led me outside and handed me a cigarette. I lit it with shaking hands and sighed. "Thanks Pony. You really have been a savior. I dont know what i would do without you." I wrapped my arms around his neck and pulled him close. I felt him smile against my neck, "dont thank me. Im always here for you. But i wanted to ask you something..." I pulled away, "what is it?" He smiled, "Do you wanna go on a date tonight?"

My heart pounded and i couldnt keep from smiling, "yes. I would love to." I guess good things do happen, even when youre having the worst day of your life.

a/n: hope you enjoyed so far. just getting to know sammy right now. reviews are appreciated. thank you!

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