A/N: OH. MY. GOD. I'm back! I'm so freakin' sorry for being gone for eight months straight, but I honestly had a bad case of writer's block. Ugh...

Yes, this is a new fanfic. Breathing Hope will be continued soon, but I'm honestly considering restarting because the storyline is going downhill and it's not adding up anymore.

So... This is a fanfiction called "Desire". It's a Bella/Edward fic for you guys, set a couple months after Edward leaves in New Moon ;). Since I last posted on this website, my writing has improved, so I hope you guys notice some changes.

In this FF, Charlie moved to another part of Washington with Sue Clearwater so Bella lives alone. Excuse my logic but I honestly want Charlie out of the way in the first few chapters.

Enjoy...

-Athena x

Chapter 1: Lost & Found

BellaPOV

I was broken. I knew that, but I didn't want anyone to try and fix me like Jacob had tried to. Tried to, and failed, that is. Edward had left me, Jacob had left me... Even Charlie had left me. The question is, who the heck do I have now?

I honestly felt like nothing but an empty shell. Nothing bothered me any more, nothing but the constant ache in my chest... The wide, gaping whole that had been left there by the one person in my life I thought would never leave me. Edward. Some people said that I was attention seeking, some said that I was over-reacting, but the bare minimum of people that actually cared were the ones I'd pushed away in the past eight months.

Soon, I'd be on my way to University. Most fresh out of high school kids would be excited to begin their life as a proper adult, to pursue their dreams, hopes and aspirations. Myself, on the other hand, just wanted to go to sleep one night and never wake up. The only thing that made me eat, the only thing that made me willing to get out of bed in the morning was the small, torn photo that had been left in the back of my photo album.

The small, tattered picture of my love was my prized possession, I'd never let it out of my sight. I wanted nothing more than to wake up in his arms, I wanted him to love me. Despite the fact that I knew he didn't love me, he'd said it himself, I clung on to every bit of hope that I'd see him again, kiss him again.

EdwardPOV

Something deep inside me told me not to go back, and I unwillingly obliged.

After telling the girl, the woman that I loved that I loved her a thousand times, I had left her. The most unsettling thing about this was her reaction. When I'd lied through my teeth, telling her that I didn't want her, she'd believed me. Who knows, she may have moved on, settled down somewhere with a loving boyfriend, ready to start her life fresh.

Even though I'd broken her heart, I was still selfish enough to not forget her. How could I forget her? She was my La Tua Cantante, my singer, my soulmate. No man would have hurt their soulmate like that.

My mind wandered to my adoptive family, who I hadn't seen in... weeks... or was it months? I'd lost count, but it felt like an eternity. No doubt about it, they would've tried to contact me, but failed. My phone - more like pile of twisted metal, now - was broken and dumped in a bin in Germany. I didn't want to see them, not any more. They would mention her name, and I'd break.

Slowly...

A/N: First chapter: done!

I honestly really enjoyed that, haha. How was it?

R&R? Should I continue this fanfic? 3

-Athena x