Prologue
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Shadows of Cerinia
Prologue
Many people can't say they have extraordinary lives, but then again most people's lives don't have the same circumstances as mine. My name is Alexander "Kitsune" Schaefer and this is my story.
Ever since I was a child, I always hoped for something amazing to happen to me, something that would change my life forever. Now I just wish for a new life, and a fresh start. I hope to leave this place and travel to other places far away from the Earth. Most people think these thoughts to be nothing more than whimsical musings of mine, but I never gave up hope. Never once did I give up my hope or my dreams, I always kept going. Things fell apart in the third grade when my first and only girlfriend left me for my best friend. One by one those who I called 'friends' left me.
Alone, hurt and betrayed, I became reclusive and lashed out at all those who hurt me. I tried repeatedly to regain that fragile peace I had but failed each time miserably. After each failure I felt myself falling farther in to the darkness that was consuming me. My hope was fading, but it never truly left me, I always felt it. Over the years some of those who left me came back and rekindled our friendships. I decided that it was best if I moved out of the city and to a small country house I found in a secluded area with a small lake by it. In spite of my connections to my friends, I still feel at time alone and empty. My hopes and dreams changed into a desire to have an amazing event to happen to change my life forever and fill the voids in it, but all my wishes fell on deaf ears.
It seemed as though it was fate that I would be doomed to live this lonely existence. Why did it seem that everything that could happen to stop me did or is happening? Was god himself against me or was it something else? I'll never know, now unbeknownst to me events were set into motion that would change my life and all those I know forever. Soon I decided enough was enough and started to do something about my problems. I'm tired of whining and crying, I am going to change my life for the better. Not long after I had changed my mind on what I wanted to happen in my life, I had made a few new friends that were more faithful than all the others before. Soon I realized that while I've hidden my wounds they were still there. I realized that while I've picked up the most of the pieces of the 'puzzle' of my life, but there were still pieces missing. I wanted to start over, but not here. I wanted to leave earth, because I would be faced with everything I dislike. I wanted a clean slate on a new world I just needed a way to leave and someone to help me adjust to life there. So I dreamed, hoped, wished and prayed for it. Finally I have something to look forward to. I'm done carrying my past; I'm ready for a new future, a new beginning. During this time of revelations, I found a song that described how I felt now, it was called 'Breaking inside by Shinedown' and it fit perfectly. I was and am tired of being the last in everything and wanted to be first for something, it's time for something new. And so my journey begins.