A/N : Yay sequel! I'll be posting this chapter by chapter, and I've change the layout. Mistakes = Sorry lol. Enjoy the OOCness!
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Let me explain, this time I'll use both of their P.O.V. First part it's Byakuya's. Then when you see a line, it means that it'll change into Renji's P.O.V. When you see another line, it'll change back to Byakuya's and so on. I hope it's not confusing...
It has been three weeks after we became lovers, and of course, had sex. Ever since our first night together, our relationship hasn't changed much. We don't spend time together, only in the office. We don't sleep together, hell, we don't even kiss. It's really, really frustrating! I've got myself a lover, but I'm still sexually frustrated. Well it's not that I became Renji's lover just to have sex with him, I really do love him. But still… I just want to be held by those strong arms.
Renji enters the room with our usual afternoon tea. "Time for tea, taichou I bought some dango." Again with the formalities. How many times do I have to say it to him?
"Renji, call my name." I stare up from my daily paper works to meet his gaze.
"We're at work, taichou. We can't possibly let anyone know!" He walks around my desk and stands behind me.
"Renji…" I know he could never stand my whines.
"No, taichou. Let's just eat and get back to work." He pats my shoulder and takes a bite of his dango. I just force a little smile at him and eat. Did he just reject me?
A few hours of silence and uncountable piles of paperwork later, it's finally time to go home.
"Let's head back, taichou." It irks me every time he says 'taichou'.
"Uh, yeah, you head back first. I'm just going to clean things up." Sorry I lied to you, Renji. I need some time alone.
"Do you need any help?" No damn it!
"No thank you, Renji. I'll see you tomorrow morning." I force a smile to assure him.
"Well, okay then. I'll be going now." Please get out. Leave me alone to think… "Bye." He closes the door and I'm left alone in the office. I rest my head on the desk.
What's the matter with him? Was he playing with me when he said that he loves me? Three weeks! For three weeks he hasn't done anything at all, we don't even like lovers. Maybe he doesn't love me from the beginning? He did say that he's not fully sure about loving me, but I didn't think that he would change his mind this quick. I can't believe it. Shit, why do I have tears welling up?!
"Urgh… Renji…" I can't help having this fear of losing someone I love. I've experienced it once; I don't want to feel that way again. Everything was dark… It was terrifying. My breathing gets heavier by the second and it feels like my head is exploding. I can't breathe right. "Renji…" Fear is overpowering me. I pass out.
Another great day in the office with my lover! He whined at me this afternoon. He was so cute! I've been holding back these days, and the way he whined almost made my restrain falter. I'm quite weak when it comes to Byakuya. Every single movement he makes is like poisonous seduction. I want to make love to him every second of the day, if possible. But I just can't… I don't want to think that I'm a nuisance. It is plain stupid to tire him out everyday just because we fuck each other brain's out every night. I just want the best for him.
"Damn it, I left my sake behind." That's a stupid thing to do. Byakuya would scold me if he ever catches a glimpse of the bottle. I walk back to the office immediately. Hmm… Sometimes I wonder if we should go somewhere together. Maybe we can stay for a few days in Karakura and go sightseeing. We can take a few days off any time. Then I can see him wearing normal clothes again! Shit, that's such a huge turn on…
I reach the office and slowly open the door. "Taichou, sorry to bug you. I left my-?!" Byakuya's head is slumped on the desk, unconscious. "Byakuya!" What the hell happened to him?! I rush to his side and start to panic. I checked his pulse and it seems that he's still alive. Why? What happened? He was just fine when I left! I scoop him out and carry him out of the office and I start to run to the 4th Division Squad unit.
The streets are quiet and no one's here. I continue to run as fast as I can while carefully carrying my lover. Damn, why does it have to be so far away? I look down to see his pale face.
"Abarai-kun?" Who the hell called me? I'm in a hurry here. I stop to see the captain of the 13th Division standing not far from me.
"Ukitake-taichou? Sorry, no time to talk." I try to rush things.
"Just bring him over to my house, it's not far." I consider his offer. It'll be bad for Byakuya's image if I carry him into the 4th Division unit anyway. Ukitake-taichou knows how to take care of a sick person, since he's always sick. I'm sure he can handle medicines… "Please, show me the way!"
I lay him down on the futon Ukitake-taichou set up. I sit down beside him and caress his hand. I can't imagine what will happen if I didn't come back to the office. The mere thought of it send shivers down my body. I draw my breath and sighed. His face is so pale it's as if someone drained all his blood away. What happened to you, Byakuya? I reach down to touch his cheek and kiss his forehead.
"So, how long have you two been going out?" Ukitake sits down beside me and offers a cup of tea. I hesitated to answer. This can't go out in public. "I won't leak out that information. You can have my words." He smiles warmly.
"Two weeks, taichou." I grip Byakuya's hand even firmer and sipping the tea with my other hand.
"Hmm… Any troubles?" People should be pissed when someone is interrogating you about your relationship. But it's kind of relieving for me to be able to talk to someone about it.
"No, taichou. I don't think so. We've been going on just like usual." Ukitake hums and goes silent.
"I'll let you in on one secret. I've been engaged in a relationship with Kyoraku-taichou for a long time." It's not much of a shock to me, they've been close since their academy days. "I get jealous every time he flirts with Nanao-san, even if it's just a play to cover our relationship. In addition to that, he rarely holds me. He naps or drinks instead. He doesn't come here often." A bitter smile on his face shows how sad he is. "I get lonely, Abarai-kun. Sometimes I doubt whether he loves me or not. These thoughts are so bad; I fall ill most of the times because of it." Ukitake-taichou ruffles his hair. I never knew he's in so much pain.
"Well Kyoraku-taichou should pay more attention to you! No one deserves that kind of treatment. Why didn't you tell him, taichou?" I didn't mean to raise my voice like that, but I'm so angry to care about that simple matter.
"How can I possibly do that? I don't want to trouble my lover. I don't want him to think I'm a bother to him and make him leave me for someone else. I'd rather fall ill than to do so." Shit. Is this how Byakuya is feeling? I haven't laid a finger on him for weeks and it's been bothering him.
Suddenly the hand beneath mine moves a bit. "Byakuya?" His eyes flutter and relief washes over me as soon as his gray eyes met mine.
"Renji?" His voice is hoarse, but still so beautiful.
"Help him up, Abarai-kun." Ukitake-taichou pours another cup of tea and hands it to Byakuya. "Drink up. You don't need any medicine, just rest here for a while." He smiles at us.
"Jyuushiro." A voice called Ukitake-taichou from the door.
"Shunsui!" It's obvious how his face lights up at the sight of Kyoraku-taichou. He stands up and runs to him. They embrace each other and kiss ever so sweetly. It's such a nice sight, seeing them being all love and kisses. "What I've told you, Abarai-kun, we've gone through it. I'm sure you can do it too. Best of luck." Kyoraku-taichou wraps his arms around Ukitake-taichou and they walk out from the room.
What am I doing here? All I remember is passing out in the office. But most importantly, why is Renji here? Ugh, my head hurts… The tea Ukitake gave me is a type of herbal tea. I hope it'll soothe my headache soon. "Renji." I look at him. "Can you please let go of my hand?" But I need something to soothe my heart.
"No, Byakuya. I don't want to let go of this hand." He grips firmer. "I'm sorry. I caused you trouble, love." He kisses my hand and I can see regret in his eyes. "Will you please tell me what's on your mind?" How can I possibly do that?
"I have nothing on my mind, Renji." I smile bitterly. He says nothing and sighs. I can't tell you, Renji. I'm still bothered by my own thoughts. He leans closer and hugs me.
"Tell me." His warmth is truly comforting…
"Do you not love me, Renji?" I whisper. He quickly pulls away and cups my face.
"Do you think I'll be here if I don't love you?" That still doesn't convince me enough. I just look over to the cups of tea beside my futon. "Look at me, Byakuya." He gently tugs my face and caresses my cheek. "I love you, Byakuya Kuchiki. Believe me." What kind of creature would turn down a stare so sincere, so passionate, so… full of love? I rest my head on his shoulder as he hugs me and strokes my back.
"Why won't you hold me?" I snuggle closer, breathing his scent.
"I want to! I really do. I've been restraining myself all these times. I just thought that you're way too busy for it and you'll be tired the next morning. I just want the best for you." He smiles. "I just can't hold back once I've got my hands on you, baby." So that's his reason… I'm so ashamed of myself… He cares about me, yet I'm being selfish.
"Forgive me, Renji. And thank you. I've been thinking of only myself…" Surprisingly he chuckles.
"Worry not! It's okay to be selfish at times, I guess. Just don't do it often. You can always ask me to spoil you sometimes!" He sounds so cheesy! We both laugh.
"So will you hold me now?" I ask while trying to sound as innocent as possible.
"No, you need to rest." He chuckles.
"But Renji!" I whine.
"Just sleep, I'll stay with you until we need to go home. I pout as he lies down, patting the empty space beside him. "Tonight. If you sleep at least an hour, we can do it tonight." I can't help to smile and lie down beside my lover. Once again I've found peace.
"Promise?" He grins and coos me.
"Promise." Peace, once again.
A/N : How's it? Is it confusing? Please send a review so I can make necessary changes to it. Thank you!