"I'd Die For You"
by Yanagi-sen
Weiss Kreuz songfic
Usual disclaimers apply. Not mine, etc. etc. (we all know what goes here…) song belongs to Bon Jovi… and I own this particular tape… I'm getting old!
Warnings: angst, yaoi, language, evil Crawfish!! (sorry Brad fans)
Quiet giggling filled the air.
"Shhh… someone will hear us."
"Sorry… but that tickles."
"What about if I do this…"
"Ohhhhh…."
"Better?"
"Do that again."
Omi stroked Nagi's erection while probing him with slick fingers. The dark-haired boy for his part latched on to the blonde's mouth, helplessly thrusting against the other boy's hand. Nagi threw his head back with a quiet sigh.
"Now, Omi… now!"
The blue-eyed archer released the younger assassin, turning him around and quickly slicking his own hardness. Nagi braced himself against the wall as Omi slid into him with one quick thrust. Their coupling was hurried, almost frantic. Their time together far too short for comfort. Far too soon, the dark one stiffened, head thrown back, mouth open in a silent cry he could not voice. Omi thrust a couple more times before muffling his groan in the other boy's back.
He withdrew and then collapsed to sit against the wall, pulling his slighter lover down to cradle him in his lap. Nagi's head fell against his shoulder, seeking the comfort and affection no one else was willing to give.
~If you could see inside my heart
Then you'd understand ~
"I love you so much, Omi."
"I know… I love you too. But I'm worried."
"Worried?"
"If Weiss finds out… they'll just yell at me… but you…"
Nagi burrowed his head in Omi's shoulder. "Don't think about it. I'm not gonna worry about something that hasn't happened yet." He sighed. "Just hold me Omi… please… just hold me."
Omi's arms tightened around his fragile lover. "I'm not letting go."
~I'd never mean to hurt you
Baby I'm not that kind of man ~
They dressed in silence, neither wanting to voice the inevitable. They slipped out of the warehouse office they'd been using and relocked the door. Hand in hand they threaded their way through the mountains of rice bags to the side door they'd used. Nagi used his power to redraw the bolt and then they walked toward the entrance to the alley. Omi suddenly swung the brunette around and pinned him to the wall, kissing him hungrily.
Finally the need for air broke them apart. Nagi gasped. "What was that for?"
"Something to tie us over till next time."
The young telekinetic smiled shyly and kissed his boyfriend gently. "Till next time."
Omi smiled and squeezed his hand, he checked the street, and then was gone. Nagi sighed. He was really getting tired of sneaking around like this. /It's just not fair… other people get to be with the ones they love. I get stuck making out in back offices. My life sucks./
'And now it's gonna get worse, gaki.'
Nagi gasped and whirled, his eyes searching the shadows. He saw nothing, not that that meant anything. He swallowed, mouth suddenly very dry. "Schu?"
~I might not say I'm sorry
Yeah, I might talk rough sometimes ~
"And what the Hell do you think you were doing?"
/Crawford's in rare form tonight… what crawled up his ass and died this time?/
"Well gee, Brad. I was meeting my boyfriend for some wild monkey sex in the back office of Takatori's rice warehouse. How's your evening been?" Nagi suppressed the grin as Crawford's face purpled in anger. /The man better get on some blood pressure medication or he's gonna burst a blood vessel./ He could see Schu trying desperately not to laugh off to the side. /And THAT bastard better watch it or I'll toss him through the wall. I'm fucking sick of taking orders from these two pricks./
'Better watch it chibi…''Fuck you asshole! I'm not your slave. And stay out of my head.' It was petty, he knew, but he gave Schu a little mental push, knocking his head against the wall.
Brad glared, gritting his teeth as the redhead swore loudly in German. "Stop it, Schuldich. And you better come up with a better explanation that THAT young man." He rounded on Nagi.
"Oh. My. God! Who died and left you my father?! He's probably already told you what he saw, so stop giving me the third degree here!"
"You are a member of Schwarz and…"
"Oh quit your bitching right now. I might be a member of Schwarz but that doesn't make me your slave. What I do with my time off is my business and no one else's. I'm going to bed." He turned and stalked out of Crawford's office, ignoring the orders to come back. He grinned and mentally slammed the door in their faces. He slammed his own for good measure and flung himself down on his futon.
Only then did his temporary confidence shatter. No one outside could have heard the quiet sobbing as Nagi cried tears of frustration and fear into his pillow.
~And I might forget the little things
Or keep you hanging on the line ~
Omiitchi,
They've found out. Schu saw us leaving the warehouse last night. They bitched at me for a while, I bitched back. I probably made the situation worse. I don't know if I'll be able to make it tomorrow. If I'm not there after an hour, I'm not gonna show up. Please don't worry about me. I'll be okay.
Suki da,
Nagi
~In a world that don't know Romeo and Juliet
Boy meets girl and promises we can't forget
We are cast from Eden's gate with no regrets
Into the fire we cry~
/I wish I knew everything was gonna be alright. I wish I had Crawford's gift. I wish I didn't have mine. I wish everything were normal… What is normal? Not me. Not my life. Oh! Why did I have to fall in love with him? Its like Romeo and Juliet here! How clique is that?/ Nagi sighed. /I just don't know what to do. I know what I should do. I should break this off right now before someone gets hurt… namely me. But that would hurt Omi's feelings. That would hurt my feelings. Break my body or break my heart… I don't know what to do./
He sat in his open window, looking out at the night. He just couldn't sleep. Not when he didn't know what the next day would bring.
/What can I do? I can't fight back if Brad decides to punish me. Esset made sure of that. I guess I can try to play along… but Schu will see right through it. And he's so eager to get into Braddy's good graces, and his bed, that he'll run right to Crawford with the information. Prick./
/What am I going to do?/
~I'd die for you
I'd cry for you
I'd do anything
I'd lie for you~
/I've had to fight to survive my whole life. But sometimes, it's knowing when to submit that keeps you alive. But do I want to do that again? Every time… I've just rolled over and let Crawford have his way. When was the last time I got something I wanted?/
/When was the last time someone cared for me? Omi does… I can tell. It isn't his words, words are meaningless. Those perverts on the streets mumbled those words all the time. I never believed them. But I believe him. Why? I know he can lie. I know he can kill. I know he isn't what he shows on the outside. But he cares for me. I think maybe he even loves me./
/I don't understand. How can anyone love me? I'm nothing. A boy-whore from the streets turned into a whore for Esset. I'm worthless beyond some computer skills and a weird power somewhere between a curse and a gift. But he loves me…/
/And that's why I'll do anything for him… anything…/
~You know it's true
Baby I'd die for you
I'd die for you
I'd cry for you
If it came right down to me and you
You know it's true, Baby I'd die for you~
/I'm not going to give him up. Not this time. Never. At least, not willingly. /
As if waiting for his mind to finally reach a decision, Nagi finally felt the weight of his exhaustion on his body. Checking once more to make sure his room was secure, both physical and mental locks in place. He eased beneath the covers. Nagi sighed… he really wanted Omi there to hold him.
~I might not be a savior
And I'll never be a king ~
/So far… so good./ Nagi peeked around the edge of his door. He'd snuck down to the kitchen once for food, other than that, he'd hidden in his room all day. /I really don't understand what the big deal is. It's not like I can tell Omi any secrets or anything, the conditioning is too strong. It's MY free time; I should be able to do what I want with it. Crawford never harasses Schu about going out… I mean, come on. Schu's fucking a different guy or girl every night. He's more of a security risk than I am./ He sighed and froze, listening.
Silence.
That in and of itself was worrisome. The apartment was rarely silent if anyone was there. /Maybe they got called out./ It wasn't unusual for Crawford and Schu to have to accompany Takatori to various parties and social events. Half the time they got no warning at all. If they were truly gone, then Farf would be locked up. Which meant, he was home free.
Ghosting down the hallway on silent feet, Nagi paused between Schu and Crawford's bedrooms. Still quiet. Farf's door was closed and the light was off. The whole place was dark, the only illumination coming from the huge windows in the living room, and the dimmed lights in the kitchen. He held his breath and mentally crossed his fingers, tiptoeing past the living room. No one was in the kitchen, so it was only Crawford's office to get by and he was safe.
Nagi paused by the office door. He heard a low murmuring sound. He pressed his ear to the doorframe, hoping to identify the noise.
"Aaaiiiieee!!!" The boy stumbled as the door was suddenly jerked open. Hard hands grabbed him and hauled him in to unceremoniously dump him on the floor in a heap. Nagi was momentarily blinded by the lights, his eyes having accustomed themselves to the dark in the rest of the apartment.
"Going somewhere?"
As the spots cleared, Nagi could see the other three members of Schwarz staring down at him.
~I might not send you roses
Or buy you diamond rings ~
Nagi picked himself up off the floor, brushing at the imaginary dirt on his jeans. "Why yes I was." He was trying to be nonchalant about it, but inside he was quaking.
"And where do you think you were going?"
"Out."
"Out where?"
"Where I was going."
"Which was?" Brad was starting to lose it.
"Out."
The American clenched his hands and Nagi was sure he wanted to wrap them around his own thin neck. He knew he wasn't getting out of it, so his only chance was to bluff his way through the situation and hope he didn't get killed. Brad controlled himself with visible effort and walked around the desk to sit in his chair. /Freaking king on his throne./ Nagi remained where he was, the picture of apathetic teenager.
Once seated the man steepled his fingers in front of his face and nodded to Nagi's right. Too quick to react, Schuldich was behind the boy, his hands on either side of his head. The telepath forced his way into Nagi's mind without care or warning.
~But if I could see inside you
Maybe I'd know just who we are ~
Nagi fell to his knees, the redhead bending over to retain contact. The German ruthlessly plowed through his mind leaving behind pain and disorientation. When he finally let go, the younger assassin collapsed to the floor, moaning feeling almost as if he'd been raped. In a sense he knew he had been. He could hear Schu talking to Crawford and Farf interrupting a couple times. Then footsteps and silence.
It was several minutes before he could even think of opening his eyes. When he did, he still winced, and then laboriously rolled to his knees and pulled himself to his feet using Crawford's desk. As he stood there, wavering on unsteady legs, he noticed the American studiously watching him from the other side of the desk. The man was smiling at his struggles.
"Not so mouthy now are you?"
Nagi decided discretion was the better part of valor and remained silent, he did however school his features back into an expressionless mask.
"Do you really think he cares for you?"
His midnight blue eyes narrowed slightly. What was Crawford getting at?
"I mean, really. What are you? An ex-whore. Member of Schwarz. His ENEMY. What make you think he gives a damn about you?"
"Shut up."
"Or maybe you're not an EX-whore. Tell me… does he pay you for services rendered?"
"SHUT THE HELL UP!! You asshole! How can you even say things like that! You don't know me! You never have. You don't understand how I feel! I LOVE HIM!!"
Nagi froze. He didn't just say that, did he? Crawford's eyes went flat.
~'Cause our love is like a hunger
Without it we would starve ~
He gasped as another kick landed on his already aching ribs. He hoped none of them were broken, but right now everything hurt too much to tell. He knew he was already bleeding from a gash on his forehead, the result of getting thrown into the corner of Crawford's mahogany desk. He could taste the metallic tang in his mouth, but couldn't tell if that was from the punch to the face or if he was coughing up blood. One eye already felt like it was swelling shut and he was pretty sure his wrist was sprained, if not broken. His mind kept a running account of his injuries, more as a distraction from the beating than anything else. He grunted at yet another blow to his back, but stayed where he was, kneeling on the carpet, hopefully protecting the more vulnerable parts of his body.
Suddenly, the blows stopped. Nagi didn't move. /Please be done… please be done… just stay still and maybe he'll leave… please leave… Omi…/ It was so hard… but he refused to cry and give Crawford the satisfaction.
White-hot pain lanced across his back, and Nagi screamed. The belt fell again and again. Agony, pure agony laced through his body as first his clothing and then his flesh parted before the now blood-slick leather. Nagi thanked the gods that Omi wasn't there… that he didn't have to suffer like this. He prayed that if Crawford killed him, that his lover would never know the truth. But he feared Omi would come searching for him. Crawford would kill the blond, after torturing him for everything he knew. "I love you Omi." He whispered before the darkness overtook him completely.
~In a world that don't know Romeo and Juliet
Boy meets girl and promises we can't forget
We are cast from Eden's gate with no regrets
Into the fire we cry ~
The carpet under his face was rough, harsh against his skin. That was the first thing Nagi noticed. A bit of fluff from the pile was tickling his nose. He started to reach up to bat it away and nearly screamed. He lay there, gasping, involuntary tears burning a trail down his bruised face. Everything came back in a rush and Nagi groaned. Somehow, he was alive.
He pulled his knees up underneath him, hissing at the pain even that caused. His head swam as he struggled to push himself up enough to sit.
'Hurts don't it?'Nagi jerked and just barely bit back his cry. Lounging on the couch, watching him, was Schu. The boy didn't answer; he was too busy trying not to be sick.
'Yeah, I wouldn't throw up in here if I were you. Brad's already bitching about the carpet.' He shifted sitting up and staring at Nagi intently. 'Tell me gaki… was it worth it?'
"What?" Nagi whispered around the bruises on his throat.
'Was it worth it? Being beat like that… for what? A flower boy?'"You… you don't understand."
Schu cocked his head. 'You're right… I don't. There's some water on the desk, as soon as you can stand, we're leaving.' He got up and stalked from the room.
Nagi winced at the sight of the bloodstained carpet and reached up for the glass of water. He drank it greedily, the cool liquid soothing the pain in his throat if nothing else. Steeling himself and using the edge of Crawford's desk again, he forced himself to his feet. Nearly blacking out at every step, Naoe Nagi limped from the room.
~I'd die for you
I'd cry for you
I'd do anything
I'd lie for you~
He sat rigid… trying not to let his back touch the seat. Schu was whining inside his head about the blood and how he better not stain his spotless interior. As if he wasn't in enough pain already. The redhead stopped suddenly at a light, forcing a cry from Nagi as the seatbelt cut into his injuries.
"Hang on a little longer kid."
"I thought I was the gaki?"
"You are. But still. He really did a number on you didn't he."
"Aa." Nagi knew he wasn't going to last much longer. The darkness at the edge of his vision kept coming back. His body was desperate to shut down, to try to heal. Each turn and jolt of Schu's red sports car sent fire through his tortured body. The German turned again; they were in a completely unfamiliar section of town. "A… anou…"
'What?'"Where…"
'Brad said to dump you off somewhere. His Highness has decided that he's put up with your shit for long enough. You got your wish gaki, you're no longer a member of Schwarz.'
"WHAT?!"
'As of tonight… you're gone. Brad's already informed Takatori and Esset is being notified tomorrow.'
"But… they'll…"
'Yeah… better watch your back. You better appreciate what I'm doing for you here. Brad said to dump you off; 'back to the streets he came from' was the phrase I believe. But I'm a little more compassionate tonight."
The cars eased to a stop in front of a small building. The bottom floor appeared to be a store, apartments above. 'End of the line, gaki. This is it.'
"Where?"
'That store there is Koneko no Sumi Ie.'
"But that's…"
'Yup, now you can't say I'm not a nice guy. When the mood strikes me of course. Get out! And remember if we see you again… you're dead.'
Nagi very painfully eased himself out of the car. "Thank you."
'Actually kid, I'm jealous.'
"OF WHAT?!"
'You got out.' He pulled away in a squeal of tires, leaving Nagi shivering in the street.
~You know it's true
Baby I'd die for you ~
Wincing with every step, Nagi made his way down the alley to the back of the building. His vision graying a little he rang the bell, praying that someone… anyone would be home.
"JUST A MINUTE!"
He could hear a lock being released and then the door opened a crack. A blue eye peered out. "Yes?"
"Omi…" Nagi croaked.
The door was yanked open and the blond assassin stood in the doorway, his mouth gaping in horror at the condition of the boy outside. "Omi… what's…" Youji's voice fell as he too saw what was waiting on their back doorstep. "Chibi, get the first aid kit, quickly." Omi disappeared and Youji reached out to help the ex-Schwarz member inside.
~I'd die for you
I'd cry for you
If it came right down to me and you
You know it's true, Baby I'd die for you ~
Owari
Or not… I'm not sure whether this will have a sequel or not… will probably depend on the response I receive. So let me know what you think!