Cold

          Sora slowly opened her eyes and looked around.  She was in her bedroom.  The lights were off, but sunlight shone through the closed curtains.  They had been closed since the Day of Infamy.

          Feeling no warmth or comfort from the spot she was currently in on her bed, Sora rolled over, tears forming at the very thought of him.  The spot next to her was cold.  It was as cold as it had been since that terrible day she found out.

          She got out of bed, dressed, ate.  Went through the motions like a mindless robot.  She had nothing to look forward to at the end of the day.  Nothing to live for anymore.

          Sometimes she wondered why she went on living.  Her husband was gone, her friends had moved away, her parents had died several years ago of cancer, so why go on living?  What was the point? 

          To remember him.  That was why.  He still lived in her heart.  Only now she didn't cry nearly as much.  She had never been the type of girl how cried a lot.  Her emotions stayed on the inside.

Toya- Moving On

Just getting used to waking up every day, not seeing your face

I just began to stop setting your place and I stopped longing for your long embrace

And it was God that made me able

To finally sleep at night

Though you're not by my side

Finally I don't hardly cry

See right when I start letting go

Somebody wants to let me know

Can they take your place

No they can't fill your space

No

I tried to move on but you're not gone

Cuz in my heart you still live on

See now I know why

I'll never love another for the rest of my life

And why

Now that you're gone I'm holding on

And deep in my heart

I wanna move on

And now I know why

I'll never love another for the rest of my life

I finally put your clothes away

You know the ones you wore that day you were taken away from me

I just began to stop wearing my ring

And I finally stopped playing our song

When I realize I was dancing alone and

 Finally God gave me strength

To go on and breathe again

See right when I start letting go

Somebody wants to let me know

Can they take your place

No they can't fill your space

No

I tried to move on but you're not gone

Cuz in my heart you still live on

See now I know hwy

I'll never love another for the rest of my life

And why

Now that you're gone I'm holding on

And deep in my heart I wanna move on

And now I know why

I'll never love another for the rest of my life

Now that you're gone I'm holding on

And deep in my heart

I wanna move on

And now I know why

I'll never love another for the rest of my life

God knows it's time for me to move on

I want to feel alive again

I want to be in love again

And no matter how hard I try

I can't erase you from my mind

And I gotta find somebody new

But I just can't get over you

I tried to move on but you're not gone

Cuz in my heart you still live on

See now I know why

I'll never love another for the rest of my life

And why

Now that you're gone I'm holding on

And deep in my heart

I wanna move on

And now I know why

I'll never love another for the rest of my life

          Sora moved on.  About a month later she met a guy named Ben at the café where she worked and they started going out.  Even though she thought of him constantly, she found comfort in the time she spent with Ben.  Then, everything came crashing down around her.  She lost her job, and their house.  She had to move in with Ben.  The first week she was there, he raped her twice and hit her more often that not.  She realized that if she didn't get away from everything now, he was going to kill her, and that wasn't how she wanted to die.  Her dream was to have died as an old lady, warm in his arms.  But he was dead, she was battered, and there was no other way out.  Sora went to her room, and removed a box from under her bed.  Ben wouldn't be home for another few hours.  There was no opportunity for interruption.  In the box was a gun she had bought on the day of his death, feeling she would never be happy until they were together, but then realized he wouldn't her to die for him.  Sora looked down at the gun in her hands and thought about was she was about to do.  Did she really want to go through with this?  There seemed to be no other way out.  Ben wouldn't let her out of their apartment except when she was with him, so it wasn't as if she had friends right next door.  This was the only way.

          "I'm on my way, Yamato." With that, Sora put the gun to her head, and ended it all.

The End

Dedication- To all those who lost their lives in the September 11th tragedy.  *~**~*God Bless America*~**~*