SUMMARY:
Haley and Nathan were all each other had. They grew up together; they were each others first everything: kiss, girlfriend/boyfriend, sex, and most importantly love but when both their mothers, also best friends, died in a plane crash they are both left confused and scared. Nathan starts to pull away from everyone he cared about, including Haley. Haley was heartbroken when this happened and moved away to live with her father. Now two years later, her senior year, Haley, when her father relocates for his job, is forced to move back home. She is forced to face everything and everyone she left years ago, those feelings she thought she had gotten over long ago will be rushing back. Will she be able to handle them, or will she run away from it all? Naley centric, brucas, jeyton
CHAPTER ONE: The Worst Day Since Yesterday
Two years earlier:
"Nathan stop! Put me down!" Haley laughed as Nathan picked her up over her shoulder and started walking towards her bedroom.
"And what if I don't?" Nathan asked with a cocky smirk and even though Haley couldn't see him, she knew he had that crooked smile on his face.
"I won't….I won't kiss you ever again!" Haley said knowing that if she just threatened no sex he would have the same response as always, "I can live on your kisses!"
"Oh that was a low blow, Hales." Nathan said as he reached the stairs and started walking up them with Haley still over his shoulder.
"I know" Haley smirked. "Now put me down mister!"
"Your wish is my command." Nathan smiled as he put Haley down right in front of her bedroom door.
"Very sneaky." Haley laughed as she pushed open her door and walked in, with Nathan following her. Her mind was racing with so many different thoughts.Haley continued to have a little argument with herself in her head until she looked up and realized Nathan was staring at her with a huge grin on her face.
"What?" Haley asked when Nathan started chuckling.
"You know you look so cute when you're worried about something."
"How did you know I'm worried about something?"
"Haley I know you. I know you more than I know myself. So what's going on in that head of yours?"
"I don't know. Something just doesn't feel right. Like something's off, but I can't place it."
"Yea I know what you mean I've been having the same feeling." Nathan said as circled is arms around Haley's waist and pulled her close to him. "I know something else that will make us have a completely new feeling." He smirked as he leaned down meeting his lips with hers. The kiss started out slow and then it quickly became more passionate.
"Mmm" Haley moaned as Nathan moved from her mouth to her sensitive spot on her neck. He kissed his way back up her neck and jaw line until she pulled his face back, facing her, and fiercely crashed her lips onto his. Now it was Nathan's turn to moan as she glided her tongue along his bottom lip, begging for entrance, which he quickly granted. Nathan walked them backwards towards the bed, lying them down, with him on top, putting his weight on his arms. He removed his lips from hers to take off his shirt, but as soon as they left they were back, crashing down on to hers with a kiss full of desire. Haley flipped them over so she was straddling him as she placed kisses down his torso. She sat up for a second to pull her shirt over her head. Just as she was leaning down to meet his lips with hers, she heard her phone ring. With a frustrated sigh from Nathan, she leaned over and picked her phone up from the nightstand.
Haley flipped open the phone. "Hello"
"Hi. Is this Haley James?" An unfamiliar voice asked.
"Yes, this is she."
"I'm Dr. Harris calling from Memorial Hospital in Fort Lauderdale. Is there anyway you could somehow get down here?"
"Why? What's wrong? What happened?" Haley rushed out, fear overtaking her.
"It would be best if you we're told in person." The doctor responded solemnly.
"No tell me what's wrong now!" Haley demanded.
"I really think it's best if you just get do…" Haley cut the doctor off mid-sentence, yelling.
"TELL ME WHAT HAPPENED! RIGHT NOW!" Nathan looked so scared as he looked into Haley's eyes and saw them filled with fear, as tears slowly started to fall. Haley looked up at Nathan and just then dropped the phone. She started to sob uncontrollably. Nathan immediately picked her up in his arms and sat there holding her for dear life, before asking her what was wrong when he heard her crying starting to slow.
"Haley, baby, what happened?"
"It's mom…and Deb..they.." Haley couldn't seem to get any words out.
"They what? Are they okay?" Nathan asked in a panicked voice.
"There was a….a plane crash." Haley managed to choke out and started to sob, again.
"What? They're okay right?" Nathan asked in a frantic, rushed voice.
"They…didn't make it."
"WHAT? NO! It's not right, it has to be a mistake!" Nathan demanded as tears started to form in his eyes. But when he looked down at Haley, into her eyes filled with pain, he knew it wasn't a mistake. Right then he sank onto the bed next to Haley and wrapped his arms around her, and broke down crying. He couldn't believe that his mom was gone.
Two weeks later at the funeral:
"Nathan, it's time to go." Haley knocked on his bedroom door, opening it slightly and peeking through. She saw Nathan sitting on the floor, his back against his bed, looking at a picture of him and his mom.
"Nathan?" She hesitantly walked into the room, walking up to Nathan, standing in front of him. After he didn't say anything she sat down next to him.
"I remember that" Haley ran her fingers over the picture, "It was the fourth of July a few years ago, when we went to the beach house for the night. Do you remember what happened that night?" Haley asked with a small smile that didn't reach her eyes.
"Yea I remember our moms walking in on us. That was the night they found out about us dating." Nathan said with a small smile, but Haley would take it; she hasn't seen him even hint of a smile for the last two weeks. "I think it was the happiest day of their life" Their mothers always thought they would end up together, or at least hoped they would.
"Yea, it probably was." Haley leaned her head against his shoulder for a second and then Nathan abruptly stood up.
"I think we should get down there. It's time to go." He walked over to the door and opened it and walked out, leaving Haley just sitting alone. After a few minutes Haley pulled herself together and walked downstairs. She saw Nathan standing next to Lucas, but not talking, just looking at the floor.
"Hey, tutor girl. How you holding up?" Brooke asked as she linked arms with Haley, when she reached the last step.
"I'm okay. I'm worried about Nathan though." They turned over to look at the boys they love standing across the room.
"He'll be okay. Don't worry. It's just going to take some time."
"I know it's going to take time, trust me. I'm just scared that he's going to push me away.
I can already see it happening. I can't I can lose him too!" Haley choked.
"Oh, sweetheart, he'll let you in, eventually. You'll see." Brooke tried to convince her as
she pulled her into a hug.
"I hope you're right." Haley whispered so Brooke could barely hear her.
I will never let you fall. I'll stand up with you forever. I'll be there for you through it all.
Even if saving you sends me to heaven.
A few weeks after the funeral and Nathan had pulled even further away from Haley, and
everybody else for that matter. She never seems to be able to push through to get him to
talk to her. Haley has had enough and is going to confront him. She walks up the steps
and knocks on his door. When he doesn't answer she takes out the key under the flower
pot and lets herself in.
"Hello? Nathan?" Haley hesitantly walked into the living room. This is weird. Never have
I been afraid to let myself in here. Haley thought as she started walking towards the stairs
after realizing Nathan wasn't down here. She ascended the stairs and found herself
standing in front of Nathan's door. She slowly reached up her knuckles to knock on the
door.
"Nathan? Are you in here?" She peeked her head in the door and saw Nathan lying on the
bed. He looked like he hasn't showered for days, which he probably hadn't.
"Nathan?" Haley walked over to the bed and sat down next to Nathan. He didn't even
respond, he just turned over, away from her.
"Nathan, please just talk to me." Haley pleaded as she tried to get Nathan to face her.
"I told you when I'm ready I'll come talk to you." Nathan responded without even
turning around.
"It's been over a month! I really need you to talk to me. Don't shut me out! Please!"
Tears started forming in her eyes, but she tightly closed her eyes when they threatened to
fall. She waited for Nathan to say something, anything. But he just laid there silent,
motionless.
"Nathan? Say something!" Haley was starting to get angry.
"What do you want me to say? Huh?" Nathan shot up into a sitting position right next to
Haley.
"Anything. Just let me in. I can help you! We can help each other get passed this."
"No you can't. No one can."
"I can try."
"No. Look why don't you just leave. I want to be alone, I can't help you."
"You said you would always be there for me, that I didn't have to worry with you. Why
won't you be there when I need you most? When you need me most?"
Cause you're my, you're my, my true love, my whole heart. Please don't throw that away
Cause I'm here for you. Please don't walk away. Please tell me you'll stay.
"I never should have made you that promise. It was a lie. Being together just isn't
enough; love isn't enough. I don't need you to get through this."
"You know what Nathan? If this is what you want then fine you can have it! I'm tired of
this. I gave you time! I gave you all I could, but you refuse to let me help you. You're
making a mistake by pushing me away and I may not be here when you finally realize it."
Haley said as she stood up to walk to the door.
"Yea whatever." Nathan turned around and lied back down.
Use me as you will. Pull my strings just for a thrill. And I know I'll be okay though my
skies are turning gray.
"Goodbye Nathan. I love you." Haley opened the door, with one final look back, and left
with tears finally spilling from her eyes; she couldn't stop them this time.
"Haley you can't just leave!" Brooke begged.
"It's just too hard being here, plus my dad is basically making me come live with him. He
doesn't want me to be alone now." Haley was packing the last box in her room.
"You wouldn't be alone; you would have me."
"Yea my dad doesn't really see a sixteen year old girl who basically lives by herself the
best of influence." Haley laughed.
"Hey I'm so the best influence. I taught you so many things!"
"Yea like how to break into a store, take my first shot, and oh yea get arrested, twice!"
Haley chuckled as she remembered back.
"Well I got us out of both without them being put on our permanent record. Damn am I
good!"
"Okay I guess it's time to go." Haley frowned as she taped up the final box.
"Not already! God I'm going to miss you so much!" Brooke cried as she pulled Haley
into a bone crushing hug.
"Me too, Tigger. Me too." Haley hugged her back.
"Okay I'll drive you to the airport. Let's go." Brooke said as she pulled away from Haley.
"Call me when you land." Brooke demanded of Haley as they got as far as Brooke could
go without a ticket.
"Of course."
"And call me whenever you need to. No matter what time, day, night, it doesn't matter!
Okay?" Tears started forming in her eyes.
"Okay. Thanks Tigger, for everything. Man am I going to miss you!" Haley pulled
Brooke into one last hug.
"Me too." Brooke cried as she heard Haley's flight being called.
"Okay I guess that's my cue to go." Haley turned and walked away, not looking back;
that would have been to hard.
Lucas came to Nathan's room, knocking lightly on the door. After a while he heard
Nathan faintly telling him to come in.
"Hey man. How are you?"
"Okay" Nathan lied.
"You miss her?" Lucas asked.
"Of course I miss her! She was my mom!" Nathan yelled.
"Yea I know you miss her, but I meant Haley not your mom." Lucas explained.
"What do you mean? Why would I miss Haley?" Nathan asked confused.
"Well with her moving and all, I just thought you wouldn't be taking it hat well."
"Moving? What are you taking about? Haley isn't moving."
"Dude, yes she is. She's probably already on her plane."
"You're kidding right?"
"No. I thought she would have told you. She's moving in with her dad." Lucas told his
little brother.
"That's in New York!" Nathan yelled realizing that Lucas was telling the truth.
"Yea"
"Why didn't she tell me?"
"I don't know. Brooke said something about her being scared that you were pulling away
from her." Lucas said as he looked at Nathan, who looked completely shocked. "Well
were you? Pulling away from her?"
"I guess." Nathan said after thinking for a while. "God how could she just leave without
telling me?" Nathan asked, clearly angry.
"Well can you blame her?" Lucas asked, but Nathan didn't respond. "Look why don't
you just call her?"
"No. She obviously didn't want me to know. Look Luke I just want to be alone."
"Okay little brother. Just think about it okay? I'll stop by tomorrow.
After Luke left, Nathan grabbed his phone. He scrolled through his contacts and found
Haley's name. He looked at it for a while, thoughts flying through his head. He didn't
know what he should do.
Where are you and I'm so sorry I cannot sleep, I cannot dream tonight I need somebody
and always this sick strange darkness comes creeping on so haunting every time and as I
stared I counted webs from all the spiders catching things and eating their insides like
indecision to call you and hear your voice of treason will you come home and stop this
pain tonight stop this pain tonight.
Finally Nathan closed his phone, lying back down in bed. He soon fell asleep, but not
without a dream filling his unconscious thoughts. A dream that turned more into a
nightmare, a dream of Haley leaving him.
AN: okay, so how did you guys like it? Should I continue? Please review!
Song in middle is "Your Guardian Angel" by Red Jumpsuit Apparatus and the end
song is "I Miss You" by Blink-182. Thanks for reading