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Dreams and Memories and Beasts

I am running. Running for the feeling of flying through the air as fast as I can, pushing for more speed. A smile breaks out on my face and I let the feeling of pure happiness course through my body. Trees pass by in a blur of faded green and rusty brown. The wind whips and plays with my black scruffy hair as I run faster than I have in what seems like forever. I glance behind to see a beautiful girl trailing behind me. I stop running to let her catch up with me out of courtesy. My breathe is a bit heavy and it slowly comes to a normal pace. She sees me stop and lightly jogs to catch up to me, her white dress slightly flapping through the gentle breeze. When she reaches me she has a familiar stubborn look on her face. Her bottom lip is pulled up a bit over her upper lip in a puppy dog way. Her glistening blue eyes looked towards the ground as her golden blonde hair falls perfectly into place around her shoulders and around her chest. She folds her arms in a defiant way and I wonder why she looks so upset with me.

"What's wrong pretty girl?" I ask sincerely using the name she most likes to be called by me. It makes me feel warm knowing that I found something that only I can call her while everyone else calls her by her name. She breathes outward in a defiant way knowing that she will eventually tell me.

"You are always running ahead of me and I'm never able to catch up with you." She said in that strawberry sweet voice of hers. There was a hint of whining in her words also. All I could do was smile at her because she was so cute and beautiful when she was trying to be defiant and stubborn. I placed my hand gently under her small chin. She looked into my eyes with her deep summer sky eyes. They were so different from mine. Mine were almost opposite from hers, with mine being dark and bottomless with a hint of brown in them.

"Ah, I see. Well, if you would like we can stop rite here and take a break from running for a while if you like." I said with a hint of reluctance in my voice. I slowly moved my hand from her chin to her hand that lay by her side and held it there until she moved hers to fit into mine. As we joined hands a soft fuzzy warmth shot up my arm and into my chest. I felt so complete with her. Her eyes widened a bit as she smiled and her cheeks glowed a cute pink color. I just smiled back at her and walked toward a large evergreen with her hand still in mine and sat down under its cool shade. I took a deep breath as she sat down next to me and untied the pack that she had carried with her. She pulled two apples out of the pack and handed me one with her slender light skinned hands. I gladly took the apple and took a large chunk out of it with my teeth. She does the same with the apple that she kept and takes a considerably smaller bite. She crosses her short legs and swallows the bite she had taken from her apple.

She looks over at me and a smile crosses her lips. I wonder why there was such a humorous smile on her full pink lips.

"What are you smiling at?" I ask about to giggle myself just by the fact that she is smiling.

"You've got, uhm…" She giggles with the sweetest light fluff in her voice and leans over to touch her small thumb to my chin. She presses down on my chin to wipe off a small piece of apple that must have slid off of the big chunk I had eaten. She sticks her tongue out the side of her mouth to focus and make sure that she wipes off the apple completely. She smiles after she had gotten the apple off my chin but, she does not go back to her sitting position, she stays upright mere inches from my face. I slowly scan her face taking in the complete perfection and beauty of her complexion. Even though she does not know it I long for her to be next to me, to have my arms wrapped around her where I know she'll be safe from any harm. She leans closer to me slightly tilting her head as if to give me a kiss. I lean forward getting closer and closer to her lips. Before our lips touch she smiles mischievously and quickly turns around into my arms and rests her head on my chest.

"Oh, so now you're going to tease me?" I ask her wanting so bad for her lips to be pressed against mine. To feel her slow and steady breathe on my face.

"Teasing you? Psh, I don't mean to." She said it with a bit of exaggeration in her voice because she knows how much I want her to kiss me. She turns her head forward to get a better look at me and she is so cute when she is being stubborn my heart melts to see that look on her face. She giggles and slides her body down so her head could rest more comfortably on my chest. The sun was glistening through the small space of leaves on the trees. My back against the tree I wrap my arms around her folding her arms with mine. She is so warm as she closes her eyes and turns her head sideways to sleep. I begin to feel my eyes close as well. No wait, I can't fall asleep. No please not now, oh god please not now just give me one more day or two, please I'm begging you. It's too late I feel my eyes begin to droop and become heavy. I begin to feel the warmth of her body slip away like a distant memory. I want to struggle but, my body won't move. I need to move, to stay awake, but I won't budge an inch. My world is becoming darker and darker by the second as my eyes close.

Now it is cold. I feel nothing but sadness and hate for the world. I see someone in the distant dark. It is me. I am sitting with my back against an evergreen with a beautiful girl in my arms, her hair laying perfectly on her shoulders and her head laying on my chest but, it isn't me. I am here looking in on myself. I want to be there, where I should be. I start to move my legs slowly step by step until I break out into a full sprint. The dark is so cold and it scares me like something could jump out at me and grab me. I couldn't let that happen I needed to get out of this nightmare and into that dream, or memory, or fantasy. Whatever it was I needed in it. Why wasn't I there yet? I have been running for hours or minutes or days or, I don't even know how long anymore. I was still looking in on myself holding the beautiful girl. It was taunting me, showing me something that I could never have or obtain. Why? Why are you taunting me? I hate it. I hate everything that I can't have. I hate the world for taking everything from me. The fantasy in front of me is getting farther and farther away. I let it go knowing that if I try to catch it I will only be disappointing myself.

My emotions have shattered. I start to shake. I am losing control of myself. I let out small whimpers of fear for I know what is coming. There is a small pull inside my stomach. My knees hit the ground first and then my head. I do not feel the pain of it though. The pull in my stomach gets stronger and tighter as my hate and fear consume my body. The dream is long gone and now I only have the darkness for comfort. A voice whispers in my head. It is him.

"Kill them." It whispers to me.

"Kill them all."

"No!" I shout in the darkness. The tugging in my stomach is beginning to be too much for me to take and it is causing a great pain that courses through my entire body.

"Kill all that angers you." It speaks again getting louder and stronger. I am able to push myself upright onto my knees and let out a roar of anger. The roar is inhumanly loud and ravenous. Why was I so angry? I could feel the hate rise once again in my chest and it was to much to bear. I need to let it out somehow but, I don't know how to.

"Let me out." It speaks again this time outside of my head as if it were in front of me but, I do not see it. It's voice is becoming more real and it is rough and rusty like metal grinding against metal. There is so much hate in me and I can feel it making a bridge for it to cross over and fully into my body. I am exhausted trying to fend off this entity trying to take over my body. It brings so much hate and anger with it and it overwhelms me. My mind and soul grows weak and I give up to the beast trying to get in. My barriers fall and it enters in a rush of power and rage. It hurts so much but, the power it brings is so intoxicating. My skin burns as if someone had poured gasoline over my entire body and put a match to me. I look at my arms and pouring from my skin is a blood red mist. It is transparent and I can still see my skin underneath this powerful mist. The mist grows and starts to bubble over all of me and glows to a more bright crimson color. I look down at my hands and I see razor sharp nails instead of human finger nails. I don't want this but, it's too late to turn back. I begin to get frantic and I feel more on edge. I need something to destroy, need something to kill. I want to see blood spilled before me. The urge for this to happen is so strong.

The evil power that courses through me allows me to stand even though that there is still pain that comes with it. I turn around to see myself in a mirror. I am covered in a transparent red mist and it forms a transparent tail behind me. My eyes have become like a wolves and they are blood shot with a bright scarlet color. My face has been put up into a permanent scowl that more looks like a ravenous dog growling at an enemy. My teeth have become like razors and my nails like claws. What is this feeling? I feel so sick with myself. I do not want to become this. This is not me. Why won't it go away? The reflection in the mirror begins to flare up in red flashes showing momentary visions of a blood red wolf covered in fire. The flashes become more frequent until the wolf bursts out of the mirror and consumes the darkness in flames and me with it.

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