Fanfiction presents;
What is a youth?
Prologue - The start of something new
Ø Teenage pregnancy – never had she ever thought she'd experience such a thing but she guessed that it wouldn't be a surprise. After all, she was only a little girl with her pretty little head always on the clouds, fantasising about princes and the sweetest of romances. It was only a matter of time for reality to break all the glass walls she had built around herself and at the same time, her as well.
It all happened so fast. One moment, the love of her life was kissing her and then the next, they were kissing in her bedroom. For the first time, he showed so much gentleness with her. He told her she was beautiful!
Her hands has fisted; her nails digging into his back but didn't dare stop him or even utter a single sound of complain. He groaned. ''…You…okay?''
She opened her eyes and saw herself in his eyes. They burned. And her Irie-kun never looked so…open. The very sight of him made her feel warm and tingly. She nodded with a tight smile. ''Um.''
He gazed at her for a few moments before his eyes fell on her lips. His eyes closed shut as if in pain and then he kissed her again even more passionately than before. She bit her lip and she felt herself burn with him.
It was her Irie-kun and she loved him. A small fire of hope was burning brightly at the back of her mind as she dreamed that this was a start of something new; that Irie reciprocated her feelings after all!
Oh how wrong she was. Oh how much it hurt when he fell beside her, panting like he had just ran a marathon. She ached between her legs but she smiled, turning at her side, expecting that they'd cuddle like they do in the movies, that he'd grace her with a happy smile and tell her he loved her.
His swollen lips opened. His eyes were no longer warm as they uncharacteristically widen with alarm – no, there was no point sugar coating this – Kotoko knew fear when she sees it.
The feeling she felt at that moment was extraordinary. It felt as if a bucket of ice-cold water fell on her. Her heart broke – oh no, it shattered. And she felt it and heard it. It may have been her imagination but it was there. Her chest never hurt like that before and she swore she will feel no pain greater than that she felt then.
''Kotoko…I…'' the love of her life pulled himself up and dressed quickly. His movements was for once, ungraceful. He stopped by the door and shifted as if wanting to turn to face her but he didn't in the end. She was barely covered. He mumbled something that sounded like an apology but Kotoko can't hear much over the loud furious beating of her heart.
She had stumbled out of her bed, finally noticing the remnants of their lovemak—sex –around her inner thighs and on her bed. She dipped her hand and stared blankly at the strange fluids.
'What's happening?'
'What happened?'
'Oh God…D-daddy… Oh God…The sheets! W-what…What do I do?!'
Kotoko remembered removing her bloodied sheets while she trembled all over, looking over her shoulder time to time, scared that her auntie would suddenly burst into her room and find her in that state. Then the next day when everyone was busy doing their own thing, she sneaked out and dumped her bag of evidences into their neighbour's bin a few houses down the road.
He never approached her after that and she was too shocked at what they did. He was quiet and she was silent. He didn't utter a single word towards her while everyday she forced herself to look normal and answer the small inquiries thrown at her. Everyone noticed and assumed they were fighting again. She had sinned. She had brought dishonour to her father. If her dad knew…
The consequences of what she did came knocking at her glass walls when she started feeling sick. She was in a daze the past week (or weeks, she can't exactly remember). She still went to school and sat with her friends. But she only realised the consequences of what she did when she happened to glimpse at a heavily pregnant woman outside the café she and her friends were sitting at.
Her whole body stiffened and she wanted to rush into the nearest clinic. Get rid of it…She had to…
''Kotoko…are you really okay?'' Jinko asked, placing a tentative hand on her arm. ''We know there's something wrong but we can't wait for you to open up anymore. Please tell us?''
When Kotoko finally looked into her best friend's eyes, that's when Jinko knew that whatever Kotoko's problem was, it was horrendously big. Jinko and Satomi shared a worried look.
''…Jinko…Satomi…''
They gulped, shuffling closer towards their friend. Satomi held her friend's hand and squeezed. She had never seen her best friend like this. Kotoko, her bright and energetic best friend never looked so drained and so small before.
The air around them was heavy. It was stifling and crackling with tension and they knew it was going to explode soon. But they were going to stay. Whatever it was. They were going to stay with Kotoko.
''…Kotoko.'' Jinko said, having the same thoughts as Satomi. She glanced up and saw a waiter looking intent to come to their table. She minutely shook her head at him and he immediately spun on his heel and walked away.
''…Jinko.'' Kotoko choked out, her shoulders slumped and started to shake. She pulled her hand from Satomi and clasped them around her trembling mouth. ''Satomi…''
''Kotoko. What is it?''
''…Kotoko.''
Jinko and Satomi felt like they were going to cry already. She looked up; eyes big, scared and lost.
She told them that Kin proposed to her. She told them that Irie Naoki had decided to cancel his engagement with Matsumoto. She told them that his father was recovering and everything went back to normal in the Irie household.
Then, she told them how it hurt. She told them how hard it was to remain as normal as she can. She told them she disposed all evidences of her sin. She told them she got rid of everything. Everything.
But then her dainty hands fell on her stomach and she didn't have to say it.
''Help me,'' she said anyway amidst her crying. ''Please help me.''
AN: Any suggestions? I need to do some work but damn, I needed to write this one down. I want this as realistic as possible. And although I have the general idea of what I want is going to happen, I'm open for suggestions. Rated T for now but may rise up. Thanks for reading!