A Sad Christmas
'Christmas, it's Christmas and I'm still alone. Miss Misato went to Hawaii with Kaji. I envy them both. Life seems to flourish with those two.' Shinji sighs, alone at nerv central dogma.
"Asuka." Shinji whispers the name with mixed emotions. 'It's nice to see her smile.' He thought, 'I hope you'll have fun visiting your father back in Germany.'
Shinji silently prayed that Asuka would come home soon. It might be a little selfish, but he doesn't want to be alone.
Shinji stopped for a moment, he saw a little boy, just about 6 years younger or so he thought. The little boy was lost. He felt that the boy shouldn't be alone this Christmas. He was just about to walk towards the boy but. the boy ran toward a middle-aged man. The little boy was smiling. The man hugged the boy and carried him in his arms. Shinji looked away. His heart broke into pieces. Tears were welling up in his eyes. Shinji continued to trek home.
'Touji and Kensuke.' Both boys Shinji thought were having a blast with their family. Shinji imagined an incredibly good Touji feeding his sister with a smile on his face. He also imagined a deranged Kensuke swimming in a pool somewhere with his parents, on vacation.
He didn't want to know where they went. Thoughts only made him sad. He tried to smile at the thought that he'd be alone, no classes, and no worries.
"Father." Shinji left a small parcel before his father's office the day before Christmas. Shinji thought he was always to busy for him. He decided to accept the fact that his father didn't know he's alive.
Tears were now rolling down his cheeks. I didn't seem to bother him at all, for he has been crying almost every night.
"Home." Shinji whispers as he stood in front of Miss Misato's condo. It was filled with nice memories. Shinji brought out his Nerv ID card. He scrolled it down on the computerized pad. "Identification valid. Welcome home Shinji.'' An electronic voice mail replied.
Shinji frowned. He wished that the machine were a real person. Someone he could talk to. She shook his head. Swiftly the door opened, he walked inside head tilted downward. He went directly to his room; dinner wasn't on his mind. He was too sad to eat anyway. He sat on his bed tinkling with his SDAT player. "I'm miserable," he said, as if he were talking to his SDAT. Closing his eyes, he took the blade he hid under his pillow and slashed his wrist. It pained him a bit, he gently hid the knife under his pillow and began to sleep.
Earlier
Shinji didn't notice the two people sitting at the couch. "He passed us." A blue haired girl said to an older man with glasses. "Rei, his eyes were closed. He didn't know we were here." Replied Gendou Ikari.
Present
Rei was headed for Shinji's room Gendou Ikari followed the timid girl who was headed for his son's room.
Rei opened the door gently, taking a little peek. Rei frowned, this alarmed the Commander. "Is something wrong Rei?" he asked. Rei just stared at the commander, then opened the door.
Shinji was asleep, he didn't have a calm expression though, and it was more of a frown.
Gendou walked towards the sleeping boy. He gently brushed away a piece of hair that was covering Shinji's face. He smiled at his child. His Shinji.
Rei stood beside him holding a piece of parcel. It looked like a Gift. She gently placed it on Shinji's side and gave him a kiss.
Shinji moaned a little. But didn't wake up. Rei frowned, she expected Shinji to wake up with her kiss, but he didn't. She let that pass away from her mind.
Elsewhere
Unit 01 was alone, she was emerged in a room full of lcl. She didn't like to be alone. She wanted to be with him. To be with the pilot called Shinji. That boy was familiar to her. That boy made her complete.
Unit 01 growled a little. The room was shining. it was shining a ray of blue and white colors. Unit 01 was online.
Shinji's room
"Lets go Rei." Gendou said as he was heading towards the door. Rei followed slowly. Glancing once in awhile at Shinji.
Before closing the door. Shinji was glowing, he was floating, little by little his image were fainting. Gendou and Rei were taken surprised by this, they ran towards Shinji tried to grab him. Their hands failed them. All they could hold on to was air. A few seconds later. Shinji disappeared. All that was left from him was his clothes. Gently folded on the bed. A few tricks of blood on the shirt.
Gendou frowned at the sight of blood. He felt responsible. Rei just stared at the commander. She frowned. She didn't understand why the commander was crying.
"I've lost Shinji." Gendou whispered as he remembered receiving a gift, it was placed innocently outside his office. It's wrapper was simple, yet it was from his son. It wrote. Dad, merry Christmas.
It burned him so. "I've lost Shinji."
Rei, innocently tugged the commander coat, he showed no response. She tugged a little harder. Waking the commander from his daydream.
"Commander are you alright?" Rei asked, a hint of concern was in her voice.
The commander nodded.
She didn't smile. She just stared at the pile of clothes left in front of her. She thought about Shinji. This was not natural. A human couldn't disappear on his own. Shinji's not an angel, or is he, she thought. No, she concluded. Shinji's not an angel.
Nerv cage, Unit 01
Shinji was sleeping in the arms of Unit 01. His cut has now stopped from bleeding. An image of a woman appeared in front of him. She looked like an older Rei, an older Rei with brown hair. She held Shinji's cut wrist and it healed.
Shinji opened his eyes. A blurry image of a lady was standing in front of her. He blinked his eyes more, and his vision focused a little. She was surprised at what he saw. He saw Rei, a little older and also more mature, her hair's brown? This isn't Rei.
"Who, who are you?" Shinji asked, almost like a whisper. The woman looked at him, she smiled a sad smile. The woman reached out and gave him a warm hug. He tried to resist but his body wouldn't let him. He was afraid.
"Don't be scared Shinji. Don't be scared, I'm here for you. I love you. Don't be scared. I'm here for you. Your not alone, I'm here so, please don't be scared." Said the woman in Shinji's ears.
'Her voice sound's familiar, I've heard her voice before.' Shinji's eyes sparkled.
"Mom?" he whispered with tears in his eyes. The woman in front of him smiled.
The woman hugged Shinji and she didn't let go. Not for almost like an eternity to Shinji, but he didn't care, he was not alone.
"Do you want to be with me Shinji? Do you want to be with me? I've missed you so much and I don't want to loose you. I want you to be with me. Please Shinji, will you stay with me forever?" The woman asked.
Shinji nodded, smiling, he's eyes full of tears of joy. Now he knew he wasn't alone. He never will be. He didn't want to leave his mother. Not now that he's found her. He smiled and said. "I won't live you mom. Not ever." The woman smiled. She smiled a warm and caring smile. She was no longer alone.
Nerv Dogma
Gendou Ikari was shouting commands on finding the 3rd child, Shinji Ikari. 'Shinji. Yui, Shinji disappeared in front of me.' he thought. De ja vu?
Rei Ayanami, the 1st child just sat on a bench. Near the nerv cafeteria. She was hungry. She decided eat.
*flash of light*
Unit 01 cage
Rei lost her desire to eat when she saw Shinji, pale as her, lying on the floor. He just appeared in front of her. She ran towards him and held his hand. He was cold. He was smiling. She closed her eyes, knowing that Shinji will not wake up for the first time in her life. She punched in a number in her cell phone. The commander answered. She told him she found Shinji. She told him where they were. The only thing she failed to mention was, Shinji will not be waking anymore.
*Click*
The phone went dead. She glanced once more at the now peaceful Shinji, Tears welled up in her eyes, she couldn't bear the sight of him looking this way. Memories, memories of Shinji smiling, filled her thoughts. She knew Shinji was dead, but she didn't want him to be, she could no longer bear it all. She cried.
Minutes later
Gendou Ikari arrived. He was shocked as well as horrified at what he saw. Rei was crying over Shinji, he didn't understand what happened. Shinji was smiling. He glanced at his arm, it was no longer bleeding. All is perfect except for one thing. Why was Rei crying? Then it hit him. Shinji wasn't breathing at all.
Gendou Ikari dropped the cell phone on the ground and stared Shinji. This was not supposed to happen. Shinji was supposed to receive his gift. Shinji was supposed to.
"I was to late." murmured Gendou. still staring at Shinji.
Rei still in tears stared at him. "Sir." she replied.
"I was to late. I couldn't make amends. I'm sorry. I'm sorry Yui." He replied looking at unit 01.
Rei stood and hugged Gendou Ikari.
Unit 01 eyes were glowing. Rei and Gendou stared at it.
"Merry Christmas Father." a familiar voice said. Then the glow vanished.
Gendou stared at the violet eva. First with surprise then with hatred. "Yui. why?" was all he could say.
Gendou Ikari. frowned. Now he understood. Unit 01 took Shinji away from him, she couldn't wait any longer. Yui wanted to be with Shinji.
He bowed his head low. All he had worked for, he did it all for Yui and his son. Now they are together. "Merry Christmas. Shinji." Gendou replied almost crying. He remembered Shinji's tiny present. "Merry Christmas."
The End
'Christmas, it's Christmas and I'm still alone. Miss Misato went to Hawaii with Kaji. I envy them both. Life seems to flourish with those two.' Shinji sighs, alone at nerv central dogma.
"Asuka." Shinji whispers the name with mixed emotions. 'It's nice to see her smile.' He thought, 'I hope you'll have fun visiting your father back in Germany.'
Shinji silently prayed that Asuka would come home soon. It might be a little selfish, but he doesn't want to be alone.
Shinji stopped for a moment, he saw a little boy, just about 6 years younger or so he thought. The little boy was lost. He felt that the boy shouldn't be alone this Christmas. He was just about to walk towards the boy but. the boy ran toward a middle-aged man. The little boy was smiling. The man hugged the boy and carried him in his arms. Shinji looked away. His heart broke into pieces. Tears were welling up in his eyes. Shinji continued to trek home.
'Touji and Kensuke.' Both boys Shinji thought were having a blast with their family. Shinji imagined an incredibly good Touji feeding his sister with a smile on his face. He also imagined a deranged Kensuke swimming in a pool somewhere with his parents, on vacation.
He didn't want to know where they went. Thoughts only made him sad. He tried to smile at the thought that he'd be alone, no classes, and no worries.
"Father." Shinji left a small parcel before his father's office the day before Christmas. Shinji thought he was always to busy for him. He decided to accept the fact that his father didn't know he's alive.
Tears were now rolling down his cheeks. I didn't seem to bother him at all, for he has been crying almost every night.
"Home." Shinji whispers as he stood in front of Miss Misato's condo. It was filled with nice memories. Shinji brought out his Nerv ID card. He scrolled it down on the computerized pad. "Identification valid. Welcome home Shinji.'' An electronic voice mail replied.
Shinji frowned. He wished that the machine were a real person. Someone he could talk to. She shook his head. Swiftly the door opened, he walked inside head tilted downward. He went directly to his room; dinner wasn't on his mind. He was too sad to eat anyway. He sat on his bed tinkling with his SDAT player. "I'm miserable," he said, as if he were talking to his SDAT. Closing his eyes, he took the blade he hid under his pillow and slashed his wrist. It pained him a bit, he gently hid the knife under his pillow and began to sleep.
Earlier
Shinji didn't notice the two people sitting at the couch. "He passed us." A blue haired girl said to an older man with glasses. "Rei, his eyes were closed. He didn't know we were here." Replied Gendou Ikari.
Present
Rei was headed for Shinji's room Gendou Ikari followed the timid girl who was headed for his son's room.
Rei opened the door gently, taking a little peek. Rei frowned, this alarmed the Commander. "Is something wrong Rei?" he asked. Rei just stared at the commander, then opened the door.
Shinji was asleep, he didn't have a calm expression though, and it was more of a frown.
Gendou walked towards the sleeping boy. He gently brushed away a piece of hair that was covering Shinji's face. He smiled at his child. His Shinji.
Rei stood beside him holding a piece of parcel. It looked like a Gift. She gently placed it on Shinji's side and gave him a kiss.
Shinji moaned a little. But didn't wake up. Rei frowned, she expected Shinji to wake up with her kiss, but he didn't. She let that pass away from her mind.
Elsewhere
Unit 01 was alone, she was emerged in a room full of lcl. She didn't like to be alone. She wanted to be with him. To be with the pilot called Shinji. That boy was familiar to her. That boy made her complete.
Unit 01 growled a little. The room was shining. it was shining a ray of blue and white colors. Unit 01 was online.
Shinji's room
"Lets go Rei." Gendou said as he was heading towards the door. Rei followed slowly. Glancing once in awhile at Shinji.
Before closing the door. Shinji was glowing, he was floating, little by little his image were fainting. Gendou and Rei were taken surprised by this, they ran towards Shinji tried to grab him. Their hands failed them. All they could hold on to was air. A few seconds later. Shinji disappeared. All that was left from him was his clothes. Gently folded on the bed. A few tricks of blood on the shirt.
Gendou frowned at the sight of blood. He felt responsible. Rei just stared at the commander. She frowned. She didn't understand why the commander was crying.
"I've lost Shinji." Gendou whispered as he remembered receiving a gift, it was placed innocently outside his office. It's wrapper was simple, yet it was from his son. It wrote. Dad, merry Christmas.
It burned him so. "I've lost Shinji."
Rei, innocently tugged the commander coat, he showed no response. She tugged a little harder. Waking the commander from his daydream.
"Commander are you alright?" Rei asked, a hint of concern was in her voice.
The commander nodded.
She didn't smile. She just stared at the pile of clothes left in front of her. She thought about Shinji. This was not natural. A human couldn't disappear on his own. Shinji's not an angel, or is he, she thought. No, she concluded. Shinji's not an angel.
Nerv cage, Unit 01
Shinji was sleeping in the arms of Unit 01. His cut has now stopped from bleeding. An image of a woman appeared in front of him. She looked like an older Rei, an older Rei with brown hair. She held Shinji's cut wrist and it healed.
Shinji opened his eyes. A blurry image of a lady was standing in front of her. He blinked his eyes more, and his vision focused a little. She was surprised at what he saw. He saw Rei, a little older and also more mature, her hair's brown? This isn't Rei.
"Who, who are you?" Shinji asked, almost like a whisper. The woman looked at him, she smiled a sad smile. The woman reached out and gave him a warm hug. He tried to resist but his body wouldn't let him. He was afraid.
"Don't be scared Shinji. Don't be scared, I'm here for you. I love you. Don't be scared. I'm here for you. Your not alone, I'm here so, please don't be scared." Said the woman in Shinji's ears.
'Her voice sound's familiar, I've heard her voice before.' Shinji's eyes sparkled.
"Mom?" he whispered with tears in his eyes. The woman in front of him smiled.
The woman hugged Shinji and she didn't let go. Not for almost like an eternity to Shinji, but he didn't care, he was not alone.
"Do you want to be with me Shinji? Do you want to be with me? I've missed you so much and I don't want to loose you. I want you to be with me. Please Shinji, will you stay with me forever?" The woman asked.
Shinji nodded, smiling, he's eyes full of tears of joy. Now he knew he wasn't alone. He never will be. He didn't want to leave his mother. Not now that he's found her. He smiled and said. "I won't live you mom. Not ever." The woman smiled. She smiled a warm and caring smile. She was no longer alone.
Nerv Dogma
Gendou Ikari was shouting commands on finding the 3rd child, Shinji Ikari. 'Shinji. Yui, Shinji disappeared in front of me.' he thought. De ja vu?
Rei Ayanami, the 1st child just sat on a bench. Near the nerv cafeteria. She was hungry. She decided eat.
*flash of light*
Unit 01 cage
Rei lost her desire to eat when she saw Shinji, pale as her, lying on the floor. He just appeared in front of her. She ran towards him and held his hand. He was cold. He was smiling. She closed her eyes, knowing that Shinji will not wake up for the first time in her life. She punched in a number in her cell phone. The commander answered. She told him she found Shinji. She told him where they were. The only thing she failed to mention was, Shinji will not be waking anymore.
*Click*
The phone went dead. She glanced once more at the now peaceful Shinji, Tears welled up in her eyes, she couldn't bear the sight of him looking this way. Memories, memories of Shinji smiling, filled her thoughts. She knew Shinji was dead, but she didn't want him to be, she could no longer bear it all. She cried.
Minutes later
Gendou Ikari arrived. He was shocked as well as horrified at what he saw. Rei was crying over Shinji, he didn't understand what happened. Shinji was smiling. He glanced at his arm, it was no longer bleeding. All is perfect except for one thing. Why was Rei crying? Then it hit him. Shinji wasn't breathing at all.
Gendou Ikari dropped the cell phone on the ground and stared Shinji. This was not supposed to happen. Shinji was supposed to receive his gift. Shinji was supposed to.
"I was to late." murmured Gendou. still staring at Shinji.
Rei still in tears stared at him. "Sir." she replied.
"I was to late. I couldn't make amends. I'm sorry. I'm sorry Yui." He replied looking at unit 01.
Rei stood and hugged Gendou Ikari.
Unit 01 eyes were glowing. Rei and Gendou stared at it.
"Merry Christmas Father." a familiar voice said. Then the glow vanished.
Gendou stared at the violet eva. First with surprise then with hatred. "Yui. why?" was all he could say.
Gendou Ikari. frowned. Now he understood. Unit 01 took Shinji away from him, she couldn't wait any longer. Yui wanted to be with Shinji.
He bowed his head low. All he had worked for, he did it all for Yui and his son. Now they are together. "Merry Christmas. Shinji." Gendou replied almost crying. He remembered Shinji's tiny present. "Merry Christmas."
The End