Dear Juilet,
How do you know when you are in love? Not just any day love, but the once in a life time type of love. The soul crushing, heart melting, leaving me breathess sort of love.
Is it when you go to bed late at night, and wake up early just to see if they had left a message on your phone. when all you want Is to talk to them, and to see them. Or the time when you wake up early because reality is much better than sleep walking in your dreams. When you think no monsters can come out to grab you, and pull you down into the darkness once again.
Or how about the contentment of just having lazy days together. The peacefulness of just laying in bed together, snuggling and watching movies all day. The type of day where you don't have to get out of your pj's, or even brush your hair. The day where you are completely happy at the point of life you are at.
Or maybe when you see the perfection in all the flaws. Where you see the good, the bad, the growth, and find it beautiful at how it blends all together, like the beauty of a rainbow. Like how on a rainy spring afternoon, the smell of the rain on the freshly mown lawn. You might not want to go out and get wet, but in the end, it brings out the beauty and enhances everything. Or like the beauty of an abstract painting, with all the blends of emotion. When they do something, or say something that kills you inside. But, yet, you still find a way to forgive them because they mean the world to you, and still want to be with them, and would do anything to make them happy.
Or maybe is it finding somebody who sees your flaws and think of it as perfection and beauty. The contentment of being able to be completely yourself; the fun; the happy; the crazy; the sad; the moods; the struggles, and not be reprimanded for it all. To say what you want to say, to do what you want to do, and not feel self-conscious and shy about it. When you feel like crap, and just want to disappear for a while. But they can bring you out of that funk with a snap of their fingers. With just one message, or with just one look, and in an instant there is a smile on your face.
So, my dear friend, how do you know when it is the life altering, once in a life time type of love?