Disclaimer: This is a song fic to Decode by Paramore the lyrics belong to them and all Potter influences belong to JKR.
How
can I decide what's right
When you're clouding up my mind?
I
can't win your losing fight
all the time.
My hands shook, tears stained my cheeks leaving hot trails in their wake. I slowly got to my feet. Standing in the clearing I turned a full 360 degrees. My head was heavy with images I wanted to forget. Did I ever have a winning chance?
Nor
could I ever own what's mine
When you're always taking sides
But
you won't take away my pride.
No, not this time.
Not this
time.
I looked down at my shaking hands. They were covered with dirt and scratches from the shrubs I had fought my way through. You should have thought harder about what side you wanted to take. I thought I had chosen the winning team. But now you've broken me down. Leaving me to pick up the shredded fragments. Somewhere inside I was still me. I had to be, I had to believe that I could mend the wounds.
How
did we get here?
When I used to know you so well.
But how did
we get here?
Well, I think I know.
I dropped to my knees once more as the images found a crack in my mental barrier. They assaulted my mind with the memories that tore me apart. The lazy days in the sun, the cold nights in the dorm, your soft hands as they caressed my bare skin, the colour of your eyes. You eyes, did they ever hold any truth?
The
truth is hiding in your eyes
And it's hanging on your tongue.
Just
boiling in my blood.
But you think that I can't see
What kind
of man that you are,
If you're a man at all.
Well, I will
figure this one out
On my own.
(I'm screaming, "I love you
so.")
On my own.
(My thoughts you can't decode)
Will
I ever get to hear your voice again? Where are you now? If I only I
could touch your face one last time, hold me close. I need to hear
your heart beating again, to calm me. I thought I could read you like
the books I knew so well. Now you're a complicated puzzle, I can't
place the pieces. "I still need you" I screamed into the
darkness.
How
did we get here?
When I used to know you so well, yeah.
But how
did we get here?
Well, I think I know.
Do
you see what we've done?
We've gone and made such fools
Of
ourselves.
Do you see what we've done?
We've gone and made such
fools
Of ourselves.
Tremors tore their way through my body as I tried to places the pieces that didn't fit. I let out a scream. The battle was won. Light defeated darkness. Why was I here, alone and broken? I saw you fall. Hit by your own side. The losing side. I had no energy to run anymore. The scene played before my eyes it was on a loop that I couldn't make stop. I clawed at my eyes.
How
did we get here?
When I used to know you so well, yeah, yeah.
How
did we get here?
Well, I used to know you so well.
I think I
know.
I think I know.
Blood mixed with tears, I couldn't quite make out the shape moving towards me, cutting through the darkness like a boat across a still lake. I felt my energy fading like a battery running flat. "Hermione, No!" it's all I herd before I welcomed the night that was enveloping me inside.
There
is something I see in you.
It might kill me.
I want it to be
true.
The light was blinding as I blinked furiously to clear my vision. There he was standing over me. I tried to scream but my throat was too dry. Gently he held me down and rolled up the sleeve of his robe. There, were I had assumed what the missing puzzle piece should have been, was smooth pale skin that looked like it had never been harmed. If he wasn't branded than why. "I was a spy." Like always it seemed like he was reading my mind. "I love you" he whispered as tears swam in his stone grey eyes, "I'm so sorry, I'd thought I'd lost you" tear spilled from my eyes as I remembered the event of the past 24 hours, how could I have been so stupid. "Draco" I managed to croak out before his lips crashed down on mine.
