A/N: This is a story I'm writing based on one of my favorite songs, Look After You, by The Fray, (Lyrics at the bottom). In a nut shell, Jasper feels as if he's a disappointment to Alice and decides to leave. It takes place quite a few years after Breaking Dawn, when Renesmee is fully grown.
The first time I related this song to Twilight I thought of New Moon, when Edward left Bella. But the second verse of the song, the part about control, reminded me of the first chapter of Midnight Sun, where Jasper is in the cafeteria really thirsty and Alice is trying to help him through it. Then I thought, what would happen if Jasper were to leave Alice and the Cullens? And thus, this story was born.
And a big thanks to my most wonderful beta in the whole wide world, TrulyFrighteninLilMonsterAlice. YOU ROCK!!!
Please Review (Reviews will make me love you). Enjoy!
(P.S- I didn't no what Jasper's favorite animal was, so I chose the wolf. It makes the most sense to me, I mean the reason it wouldn't be in Twilight, would be because of Bella's reaction when Edward talked about eating wolfs in Eclipse)
(P.S…S- I decided that the motorcycle Edward had in Eclipse would be a Harley Classic. My dad has one. It's really cool, and fits the description well.)
Disclaimer: I am not the great and wonderful Stephanie Meyer, and therefore do not own the great and wonderful Twilight (Darn)
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Look After You
Chapter One
I was cramped up in my study reading some old book, but I knew it was hopeless. With the combination of my pending thirst and the high levels of lust pulsating from the three couples in the family room, it was next to impossible to concentrate.
Since I had made it two and a half weeks without a single hunt, I decided that it was time to reward myself with the meal of my choice, wolf. I jumped out the window so not to catch the attention of the people downstairs. I made my way across the lawn to the garage, where my shiny Harley Classic, a gift of Edward's, was waiting. I jumped on starting the engine and drove down the winding drive.
Strange, how no one came after me. Usually my family wouldn't allow having me hunting alone. They were either too caught up in what they were doing now, or they were actually beginning to trust me. Either way, I was fine with it. I hadn't slipped up in over five years, and I trusted myself completely.
It would have been fine to hunt with someone, if the people I actually enjoyed hunting with were home. Alice and Emmett, my two favorite hunting companions were in Paris currently, along with Rosalie. I had decided to opt out of this trip, seeing as I had gone shopping with Alice in London last week, and, although I do love being around Alice, carrying her bags and running around a city for five days just doesn't suit me to well.
Alice was always my first pick when hunting. She trusted me even more than I trusted myself, and even if I was going to mess up, she would see it and stop me. That little back up had helped me out quite a few times.
Emmett was my other favorite. It's not that he had any special powers or anything. It's just that he tended not to watch over me as much as the others. While the others tended to be tense and worried, Emmett would be relaxed and have fun on a hunting trip.
So, here I was, riding down the road with the wind in my hair; my new favorite form of travel. I reached the Canadian border in a few hours time, and my hunting spot in just an hour on that. As I parked my bike on the edge of the secluded forest, I pulled out my cell phone, which I had turned of for the ride. Forty-seven missed calls from Alice. I didn't think much of it because she was probably just calling to tell me what she bought at every store, which she had a tendency to do when I wasn't there. I decided to call her back after my hunt.
I threw my cell phone into the saddle bag of my bike and ran out to my favorite spot. When I arrived, I greedily sniffed the air. Ah, wolf, my favorite scent. I caught scent of a pack about an estimated mile away, and I took of like lightning. So consumed with thirst, I didn't even attempted to sneak up on them. I jumped on the large alpha and sucked it dry within a minute. The other wolves had scattered in my haste.
I took another whiff of the air in hopes to catch the scent of my escaped prey, but another scent came through. I took off at full speed before my mind even registered what the smell was.
Human. Spilt human blood.
My conscience clouded over and instinct took over. I didn't even have the sense to register that it was even remotely wrong. In my mind there was only one thing: Thirst, extreme, undeniable thirst.
I reached the edge of the clearing where my prey lay. I peeked out to see a climber at the bottom of a cliff with a massive head wound. I advanced greedily.
When I reached his side, I heard a faint heartbeat. The man was still slightly alive, but he wouldn't be for long. I sunk my sharp teeth into his warm neck and drank. The sweet blood slid down my burning throat and completely extinguished the fire a relief I hadn't experienced for quite some time. I became lost in the richness of the taste. I had not a care in the world as I drained the man dry.
When I finished, I pulled my head up with a satisfied smile plastered onto my face, which faded soon as the cloud over my conscience cleared, and was replaced with the torturous expression of guilt and pain.
The wrong that I had done came flooding into me with a wave of guilt. I had killed a man. He probably could have survived if it hadn't been for me. I murdered him. I took him away from friends and family, and for what? A small relief of the burn in my throat, a small feeling of satisfaction, a satisfaction that was being consumed with guilt. I was a horrible monster killing for so little.
I don't know how long I stared at the man's face. It hurt to look at it, but for some reason, I couldn't look away. I couldn't stop looking at my mistake. It was like looking at myself; looking at the evil, monstrous vampire inside of me.
I reached down to grab the body. I couldn't just leave it here with all of the distinct markings on it. I might have been evil, but I wasn't suicidal. When I touched the body, it was ice cold. I must have been sitting here longer than I thought.
I picked up the body and ran back into the forest. I uprooted a descent sized tree, stuffed the body underneath and placed the tree back into place. The humans would never find it there.
I then ran back to my bike, started the engine, and began my long, lonely ride back to Forks. Hours of time to torture myself, thinking about what I have done, and, although I was dreading it, the sick, masochistic side of me was actually looking forward to it.
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A/N- So how did you like it? Please review with your thoughts, comments, suggestions, questions, or anything else you might want to say! Oh, and here are the lyrics to Look After You.
Lyrics to Look After You, by: The Fray
If I don't say this
now I will surely break Oh, oh, oh There now, steady love, so few
come and don't go Oh, oh, oh If
ever there was a doubt Oh, oh, oh It's always have
and never hold Oh,
oh, oh
As I'm leaving the one I want to
take
Forgive the urgency but hurry up and wait
My heart has
started to separate
Be my baby
Oh, oh, oh
Oh,
oh, oh
I'll look after you
Will you won't you, be the one I always
know
When I'm losing my control, the city spins around
You're
the only one who knows, you slow it down
Be my
baby
Oh, oh, oh
Oh, oh, oh
I'll look after you
My love she leans into me
This most
assuredly counts
She says most assuredly
Oh,
oh, oh
Be my baby
I'll look after you
You've begun to feel like home
What's mine is
yours to leave or take
What's mine is yours to make your own
Oh, oh, oh
Be my baby
Oh, oh, oh
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