Hey everyone. This idea came to me out of no where and I just really wanted to write it. I would love Reviews, I know everyone always asks that but if you could just tell me what you think quick it that would be awesome. This kida follows the storyline of Twilight but it's different. I also have a kinda Vampire Diaries thing going on with the journals, well it's mostly like the tv show. Here's the full summary:

Loosely follow's the storyline of twilight

A big thanks to mybeta Sarah for all her help:D

Missing person's in the window Staring at me, Saying things I can't hear,

A missing person's in the window Staring at me,Haven't seen them in years.

Missing Persons 1 and 2, Onerepublic

Edward's POV

September 4, 2005

Today is going to be dreadful. As the sun sets outside my glass wall, I know this for sure. Another school year at Forks High is going to be torture. Alice says today will be a good day, but I see it differently. Trying to live as we do is becoming more and more difficult for me as the days pass. I watch every day pass me the same as before in my depressive state. I feel as if this big thing is missing in my life. I have tried to fill this void I have so many times, but I always come up empty. Most of the time I just make my existence worse. I knew that after my mistake years ago that I was done with filling it. The flocks of scared faces entering that horrid room still haunt me. It's as if I have this huge black hole is inside of me and every face, every memory, and everyone I've ever hurt makes it bigger. I would've thought that after my first experience of rebellion I would've learned something. Nevertheless, I was convinced that I could find something better then what I had. Something that would mean anything to me at all. I still ask myself every single day why I wanted to go there to find happiness. More importantly than that, I ask myself why it took me five years before I even thought of leaving. Still, knowing the fact that I had only taken the guilty and saved most of the innocent doesn't help. How could I have let myself justify it, even just in my own mind? It felt so right at the time, trying to save innocent vampires from the law. After I had came across that poor vampire who had his daughter in hiding so they wouldn't find her, I thought I had found something that would make me happy. I will never forget the day Charlie Swan was killed by the Voluri for only keeping what was important to him safe. That girls face in his memories has haunted me the most out of everyone I had ever seen. I don't think I will ever know why…

I looked up from my journal as the pen I was holding burst in my hand. Perfect- I was covered in ink. Before I could even do anything about it, my door slowly opened reliving a very hesitant looking Alice.

She looked at the mess I made for a minute before silently going over to my closet, and coming out with a pair of pants and a long sleeved shirt for me to change into.

"Here, put this on and then meet me downstairs we need to leave," she told me, her voice as cold and dull as ice.

"Thanks Alice," I muttered, grabbing the clothes. She gave me a tight nod before walking out. I didn't need to hear her thoughts to see the hurt in her eyes. That was the thing I hated the most from the whole mess and I couldn't even bring myself to change it.

I sat back down and put my head in my hands, trying to remove all the thoughts from my mind, before getting changed and walking downstairs. Esme was standing five feet away from the stairs giving me the sad smile as I came down.

'Have a good day son,' she told me, sadness clouding her thoughts.

"Thanks Esme," I whispered, giving her a tight nod.

I walked to my Volvo where a sullen Alice was now waiting in the passenger's seat with Jasper behind her in the back. Emmett and Rosalie wouldn't ride with me anymore. Not that I blamed them, they were the only smart ones in the family. Alice on the other hand, was never going give up on me. She was still convinced that one day I would be back to my normal self. Jasper wasn't happy with me for hurting Alice or any of the others for that matter. But, he would follow Alice anywhere.

I jumped in my car and pulled out of the garage quickly trying my best to ignore everyone's thoughts as I drove. I hated my gift these days, as if I needed to know how sad my family really was. The Volturi had messed me up beyond repair. I didn't even know why my family took me back. I knew when I came back that I had to distance myself from them; they didn't need to be around someone like me. As little as it made sense to them, it did to me. I was a monster something sinister; I didn't deserve their help or sympathy.

I pulled into the school parking in the same spot as last year, right next to Rose and Emmett. They of course paid no attention to me as I got out and leaned against the side of my car. Rose was just being herself in not talking to me, but Emmett was one of the most hurt by me, and at some point that hurt had turned into anger.

"Edward, do you want to come inside with us?" Alice offered breaking me out of my thoughts.

"You go ahead," I mumbled looking out at particularly nothing again.

"All right," I heard Alice mumble sadly.

'You're such an ass.' Rose of course felt the need to add.

I ignored them as they walked away, leaving with a few glares. How one's life can be so screwed up is beyond me; but somehow I had managed to screw mine up so badly. I just couldn't turn my life around and be somewhat happy. I had tried everything I could think of to make it better but nothing. I had come to the conclusion that this was my life and nothing would ever change that. It was one depressing reality.

Bella's POV

Dear diary,

Today is the start of a new life for me. One I'm not so sure I want. I woke with the feeling that today was going to be a bad day. But, against everything I think and feel I know I need to do this. If not for me then at least for Lisa. She seems happier now that we're trying to lead a normal life. She has risked so much for me in the past I know I have to do this one thing for her. Now that we know for sure that we're safe there is no reason for us to hiding anymore. I have to admit that it is nice to live, normally and feel free. Lisa says that this change is a good thing for us. So, I've tried to listen to her and think that maybe this small town of Forks, Washington has something good in it. Some amiable quality that is lost in its green forests and cloudy, rainy skies. Though the more I try to convince myself, the more I doubt it. I hate to be cynical, but what difference will this place make for me over any another place I've ever been? What good will come out of this change? I'm still the five four, pale, brown eyed, brown haired, half vampire I've been for the past fifty years. I still have the same interests and beliefs, the same personality. So I just can't seem to see how this will make me happier. Maybe I just can never be truly happy anymore. I've caused more bad in my life then I have well. My own father and mother lost their lives for me, so why would I deserve happiness, when they will never see another day? I just cannot see any good in anything as much as I try…

I jumped as my alarm clock rang, losing my concentration. I put down my diary with a sigh, before I hit the off button. School would start soon and I wasn't even nearly ready. I got up from my bed throwing my purple comforter back and went over to one of my many boxes on the floor. Lisa and I had just moved in to this somewhat older house yesterday, so I wasn't anywhere near unpacked. I finally found one of my favorite blue sweaters and pair of faded jeans. I needed to blend in no matter how hot I got; so after I was dressed, I grabbed a coat and put it on before slipping on my blue converse high tops and grabbing my bag. I walked across the hall to our only bathroom and washed my face, brushed my teeth, and took in my appearance. As always, my pale face with its natural beauty stood out through my perfectly straight brown hair. With a small grimace, I looked away from the mirror and walked away. There wasn't much I could change about this face. As beautiful as it was, sometimes I wished that I could be seen without my beauty.

As I rushed downstairs, I tried to get rid of my dread and look somewhat happy for Lisa. I reached the kitchen where Lisa was sitting looking at something on her laptop. She smiled as I approached, her golden eyes sparkling as I waved and walked into the kitchen to grab an apple.

"You should really eat more for breakfast Bella," she told me, showing some of her motherly nature as she looked at me.

"You know I really would rather drink blood," I told her after taking a bite of the bitter apple. "I'm trying my best to live off human food, but this is the most I can eat for right now."

"Just looking out for you hon, I was going to make you something but I know better," She said, smiling slightly before turning back to what she was doing before.

I was glad she didn't waste her time making me breakfast this morning. I had already inconvenienced her enough. She had taken me in without even a second thought when my father died; and in my opinion, that was enough. She risked a lot to keep me safe and happy, so if anything, I owed her. However, no matter how much I told her this, she never stopped doing things for me.

Things were silent for a few minutes. When I looked over at the clock, I knew I couldn't put off leaving any longer. I threw what was left of my apple away and picked my bag up off the ground.

"I've got to go," I sighed, walking over to Lisa.

"All right, good luck hon, you'll do great," she told me, standing up and tucking some of her short brown hair behind her ear and looking nervous. "If you need anything, you know where to reach me. I will be working at the flower shop until seven tonight, so be careful in the forest until we know the place better. And don't go too-"

"Lisa, I've got it. Don't worry so much." I interrupted giving her a hug. She hugged back tightly for a minute before letting go.

"All right, just promise to call if you need anything?"

"I will, have a good day," I said giving her one last hug before running out the door.

I smiled as I entered the cab of my old red rusty pickup truck. I loved my new truck no matter how old it was. We had money, but it wasn't a lot, and I saw no point in wasting money on an expensive car when this one was perfectly fine. Besides, it wasn't like anyone in this old town could afford BMW's and Porsche's anyway. I would at least not draw any more unwanted attention to myself, which was good in more ways than one.

As I pulled away, I let my happy façade drop and let my dread come back. I was sure to be the center of attention today and that was going to be the worst. I didn't want to be talked about and be the one that everyone's eyes would follow. This was the one down side to the beauty that I hated- I was someone who'se only wish was to fade into the background and be invisible.

The school itself looked like a bunch of matching houses, built with maroon-colored bricks. I felt like I was going to throw up as a shiny Volvo passed me as I went to park in an open space. I closed my eyes as I turned off my truck and it backfired.

Great, that was just the thing I needed.

I took a few seconds to calm myself before I grabbed my bag and got out of the car. I looked down at the pavement in front of me as I walked trying to ignore the stares I was getting. My idea of walking straight over to the office at the time seemed possible but of course, that was ruined when I heard a voice call out in my direction.

"Watch out!" The male voice yelled right before a football came flying at me. I could have caught it but I was staying inconspicuous. I moved back a bit trying to make my movements look jerky, and let the ball fall at my feet.

"I'm so sorry," the boy that the voice belonged to said as he ran over to me. His voice dropped a bit and his eyes getting glossy when he actually saw me. This boy had light blond hair and blue eyes. He was, if anything, cute.

"Um, it's all right." I muttered giving him a small smile trying to walk away, but another boy came up beside him.

"Mike, I told you that you couldn't catch it," The boy said not yet looking at me. This boy wasn't cute like boy named Mike was. He was more lanky, his black hair was slicked back making it greasy looking, and his skin was in need of some care. When he looked at me, his eyes widened and his mouth popped open with an audible snap. I held back my laughter the best I could but couldn't help the amused smile that formed on my face.

Mike seemed to be coming around; he looked like he could breathe now at least.

"You m-must be t-the new g-girl," he stuttered, his hand shaking a bit as he held it out to me. He cleared his throat before talking again. "I'm Mike, and this is Eric."

"Bella," I told him, shaking his hand. Poor Eric was still staring at me opened mouthed.

"It's nice to meet you both, but I'm running late so if you would excuse me," I said when he let go of my hand. After getting no response from the two staring boys, I walked away quickly but not quick enough to not hear when Eric broke the silence.

"Bye Bella," he whispered breathlessly when I was about five feet away making me laugh.

My first class of the day was English. Getting my schedule was easy, though I was late to class but at least I hadn't had to run into anyone on the way here. The downside to it was that all heads turned to me when I entered.

"Ah, nice of you to join us Ms.?" the tall balding man said not looking happy.

"Uh, Swan," I mumbled awkwardly before clearing my throat to speak louder. "Isabella Swan."

"Well Ms. Swan, please take the open seat in the back. And don't be late to my class again," He told me giving me a hard glare before looking back down at the book in front of him. I bit my lip not moving as several students laughed, and then made my way to the seat. I'm sure a faint blush could be saw on my face, one of my least favorite things about me. The lovely teacher who I discovered was named Mr. Rice came over and gave me a book list while I gave him the slip I was told to give all my teachers. The whole exchange was made in silence and sort of awkward because of everyone stares. The class seemed to drown on and on, and staring at me was popular among everyone. I looked down ignoring it all the best I could, praying for my next class to come soon.

When I walked outside to get to the next class, it was pouring out. With a long sigh, I pulled my hood over my head, and stomped off towards building six. As I was walking, I caught some odd scents that shouldn't have been in a high school. I had not smelled them on my way to class, and the scents were not strong, probably from the rain. I knew human scents, and these were not. It smelled as if vampires had been around here. I stopped for a second, moving out of the way so kids could get through. I inhaled the air around me but I could not catch the smell it getting any stronger, which meant that they probably weren't close by.

It was odd; no vampire would be here unless they had the same diet as Lisa and I. But, we had never met anyone like us, and its lightness made me think that maybe they were just passing through. As bell went off, I started to class again, trying to forget about my new discovery.

The next few classes went ok. I met a few people and they all seemed nice. Jessica, a girl I met in Trigonometry and Spanish offered for me to sit at her table, I agreed. I was trying to fit in so this was a good thing. The thing about me was that I was not as scary as regular vampires were. People felt normal around me, which was an advantage in this case. They also didn't smell as tempting to me as they did to regular vampires as well.

I got some pizza and a coke for lunch, hoping I could get it down all right. I didn't mind human food but it still was hard for me to eat it alone without blood. That was why I was planning to go hunting.

Jessica was talking happily between me and a nice girl named Angela. I nodded occasionally to make her think I was still paying attention though I had really lost interest a while ago. It was then, as the air conditioner started to blow, that I smelled the scents I had earlier, except this time, there were more different smells and they were stronger. I started looking around quickly trying to be inconspicuous so the people at my table wouldn't notice, and that was when I saw them.

There were six of them all sitting at a small table in the corner. They all had pale skin and I could already tell they were amazingly beautiful. To human eyes it would look like they weren't talking but I could tell they were. They were talking to low for me to hear, as much as I wished otherwise. Their gold eyes were a striking difference. There was a blond boy and girl, the girl was stunningly beautiful even for a vampire. The shortest one at the table reminded me of a pixie. She had unique short spiky black hair, and was smiling at something the blond boy said. The one that stood out the most was huge and scary, but the smile on his face and his curly hair brown hair made him seem innocent in a way. The last boy was the one who took my breath away. His untidy bronze hair stuck out from his strikingly beautiful face. He looked less muscular then the other two, but just about as tall as the blonde one. The one thing that held me the most though was how unhappy he looked. He was staring down at his uneaten lunch, not involving in the others conversation.

I felt my breath catch as he looked up and started saying something. Then his gaze turned to me. I should've looked away from him, but I couldn't bring myself to do it. I watched as his face turned down in confusion, and then to my surprise he looked as if he had seen a ghost. I watched as he said something at vampire speed to the others, and stormed off giving me on last look, that for some reason was a menacing glare.

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