part1

"I know! I will get him a thong!"

We all stared at her while she jumped around the room like a hyperactive frog (on in Rosie's case-Viking bride)

We are all planning Christmas presents as it is only three weeks till Christmas and we haven't done any shopping. Jas has already decided what she's getting tom...

"He really wants new walking boots and a flask for when we go on our winter rambles!"

Oh joys abounded! A winter ramble! Tom must be ecstatic-but actually- knowing him he will be.

Jools wants to get some new lip gloss for when her and Rollo snog, but we all decided that that was too self-centred as it would only be her wearing it and she would choose the flavour.

"Fine then, I will get him season tickets for rugby."

Well…jools is in the lead at the moment with the best present. as for me. I don't have to get ANYONE a present because im SINGLE! Three cheers for the girl in the cake shop with no money and no need for a cake!! wo0o0o0o.

we were sitting in my jas room getting ready to go to the park to meet the guys. for once I wasn't upset that I didn't have a boyfriend because right now I just couldn't be bothered. I have had my fair share of love and war- and now was my turn to sit and watch the others panic over what to wear and how to smile. (Wow, that was quite deep thinking for me! my head is starting to hurt, im going dizzy! aaaahhhh!)

"Well I ummm well I do you think I should. Well umm I umm well.." some time later Ellen finished her amazingly simple sentence.

"Should I get dec a present? Coz umm, well we aren't going out, but I like him and umm I think he likes me??"

Eventually we all decided that she should get him a present. It would be romantic and he would probably get her one so it would be well…nice.

Sitting under a tree.

By myself.

Im kind of lonely. I pretended that I was fixing my shoe laces. But really I was just sitting. Thinking.

The guys were off with their boyfriends. And Ellen was walking with dec. I hadn't seen Dave at all. But I don't think I really want to see him anyway.

I was watching love actually the other day, and I realised how amazing it was to be in love at Christmas. The guy who works in the office. Carl? Yer… well... He reminded me of Massimo. But then I remembered what an idiot he was so I turned it off. So really I only watched a bit of love actually and not the whole thing. So I never knew if he got together with anyone or not. Poo.

Rosie shouted from behind Sven "come on gee, we are going to Rollos. You coming? Or are you going to sit like a loner all day?"

Well that could be a good thing. Just sitting here. But eventually I decided to go.

Wow his house is big. I never thought he would have such an amazing house! But its actually huge! We were in one of the MANY spare rooms in the house. (More like a mansion)

Me and jas decided to go and look around.

"Just don't go in my parents room or my room." said Rollo

"We are only going to find the kitchen nothing to worry about." jas is such a boring so and so. I would rather play hide and seek than look for coffee. But noooo. Jas wants a hot drink so off we go to find the kitchen. We could be some time.

"I think I see It." as we passed a large arch I saw a really biog fridge. Big and shiny!! As I looked through the cupboards for the coffee I remembered being in rosies house a couple of weeks ago for her party. She had similar cupboard in her kitchen. I shut that thought out noticed though.

"You ok gee? You seem shocked. You've been really quite recently?"

"Im fine. Just. Got a bad thought that's all."

a bad thought? What am I talking about? I wanted to cry because all I could remember was that dreadful evening. But that's a story for another day.

Just as I had finished making the coffee (by the way the machine was complicated so jas went off to get Rollos help) I heard someone enter the room.

"See jas! I can work out how to use these things easily. Look! Two beauuutiful coffees."

"They look nice kittycat. Mind if I have one?"

That was definitely not jas. I turned quickly to see Dave in front of me. He was quite close actually and I almost spilt coffee down his top. But that wouldn't be a problem for me.

"Hi gee." he looked really nervous. But I ignored that and walked straight past him.

"Not now Dave"

He grabbed my arm and held me back

"Gee I need to talk to you. You can't just keep avoiding me."

I turned to loom at him "your right Dave, I can't. But you can help by avoiding me."

I passed him the coffee and walked out the house.

it took me a while because the house w\s huge and I got lost twice. I swear I walked past the same bathroom about four times.

Walking home on my own.

Hmmmm

Poo.

I guess I should tell you what happened to make me so angry and Dave? Well…

It started at a party about two weeks ago. I had been single for about four months. I had broken up with Massimo and wanted to be single for a while. While I was single and had no interest in anyone I started to get really close to Dave. We talked about really personal stuff and had a laugh at the same time. I felt like a liked him more than a friend and he flirted with me all the time. Sooo I decided I would ask him out at rosies party because I could get him alone and it just seemed special.

When I couldn't find Dave at the party I got really upset and drank quite lot. I was really tired and began to feel ill so I went upstairs to go to the loo when I heard a noise next door. I decided to be nosey and see who it was and when I opened the door I saw this guy taking off this girl top and kissing her. I was about to walk away when I noticed the guy was Dave. He was with some thin brunette and she was taking his shirt off. They noticed me and stopped. But before he could do anything I had rundown the stairs and out the front door.

I walked home alone in the dark and just felt stupid. of course he wasn't really into me. He could get any girl he wanted. And when I was going out with Massimo admitted he liked me and we snogged and and and. I just thought he loved me. But now I done care.

ad he made my make up run and I had to throw away my shoes because they hurt. And I bought them especially because Dave has grown and I wouldn't be able to reach his lips if I wore flats. But it doesn't matter anymore. I don't care.

Sooo. That is the end of my dramatic story. I need to sleep now zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz.

First chapter complete! Im new to this so I don't actually really know what im doing or how to upload next chapter! Help. pls review. Thanks for reading. biii xx