Hey everybody! It's Muddi! This is my first fanfiction, so it's kind of short. But I hope you'll enjoy it!
Sometimes I say things without actually realizing that I'm saying them. And then when I notice that I just said what I said, it's too late to correct it. That's why I've managed to create the image that I'm clueless when it comes to romance. I tend to say the first things that come to mind. But when I've thought over some things, it makes more sense. Unfortunately, no matter how hard I try to show people that I'm not as clueless as I see, I just can bring myself to it. It goes against the image I've accidentally set up. I feel as though I'm stuck under a masquerade. A masquerade of lies. Which leads me to wonder, are there other people out there who are just like me? Unable to speak their mind, just because the voice in the back of their head says, "You wouldn't say that in front of them. They don't know you say things like that." I can't be the only person who has that problem.
Take my partner Dawn, for example. She's always so bubbly and cheerful. Always smiling. Always happy. But I know, somewhere behind the joy that's usually in her sapphire eyes, there's a different girl. A girl who isn't happy all the time. A girl who's been through thick and thin. A girl who knows what it's like to have her heart broken. I think I know how she feels. Because my heart wants to break too whenever I see her upset. Or, at least, when her eyes show her sorrow. Like when she lost at the Solaceon Contest. Her smile shined through like a lighthouse beacon. But that was the only happy part about her. Her eyes were sad, their joyful luster gone. Her hand was clenched in a fist and was shaking uncontrollably. I wanted to help her. Reach out a hand and touch her shoulder reassuringly. Let her know that I truly felt she should have made it to the second round. Maybe even give her a hug. But I didn't. I couldn't have. It was against the image Dawn saw of me. And so I said nothing.
I little while after that, I was practicing with Turtwig when I saw her. She was sitting against a wall, and I could tell that something was wrong. Her Piplup tried to make her smile, but she stayed glum. I came up to her once more to try to make her feel better. But when I started to talk to her, she shrugged it off, and immediately became happy again. We went to go eat ice cream after that, and she smiled for the rest of the time. But I knew something was wrong. Nobody can stay happy after such a loss. Maybe she was just looking out for me, hoping that I wouldn't fall into her state of being. I can just hear her now saying, "No need to worry!" but, I'm afraid, that's when I worry the most.
It makes me wonder what else she tries to hide from me. Maybe it's a secret, just like her nickname, or maybe she's just trying to look out for me. Has she concealed her feelings well enough where I can't even tell anymore when she's lying? The Solaceon Town Contest was a major letdown for her, so I knew that it would be hard to hide her real feelings. But what about her other contest losses? She didn't seem upset; on the contrary, she just shrugged it off and went on with life. Was she as disappointed as I was when she lost? I guess I'll never know. But I've realized that some people aren't always the same. In fact, everybody is hiding their true feelings from other people at one point or another. We're all just living under a masquerade of lies.
So how was it? Good? Terrible? In between? Let me know with your reviews, and thanks for reading!