Sleepless Night
Another sleepless night, the darkest hour before dawn
Crimson sheets bind me in bed and keep me worlds away from you
The sound of your music blaring behind the door
Shakes the walls of what we've so long shared
Tears of worry on my skin
I realize you are slipping then
Sanity just within reach is getting harder to maintain
My every thought screams of leaving this place
Run into the night you so love. Your two dearest friends conspire against you
With every silent breath I risk your wrath
Every single day I stay you punish me with overwhelming silence
Broken only by the constant pounding score
Or scathing words like a barb in my heart. Not meant for me, but the world I am part of.
The world that shunned you for a face, but never once looked in your tempest eyes
All this pain and I remain still. Obscured by the red tide of your artistic rage
I remain against my mind's will and slowly break my heart
In this Hell for Two you've so skillfully made
I am like the housecat who retreats to her cage as the door swings wide to her liberation
Why feed this addiction I've started on the poison of you?
Living for memories of the safety I once felt standing in your dark shadow
Thriving on my infatuation with the dark sweet things under your rule
Infatuation turned to love. The secret in my heart is the shackle 'round my feet.
Feet which you once danced to soaring heights you now ensnare
From friend to slave and the slave is last to know
And you must be aware that this is so
You see me with possessive unconcern
You don't care if I stay. You'll chase me if I go
My soul the proof you need of your supremacy
Seemingly so selfish
But for me, the knowledge I am needed is, stupidly, just enough
It's all my heart needs to continue serving you
Another sleepless night is gone
In the windowless room the sweet first lights of dawn
Are but shady memories of the life I knew before
My former life. All its wounds which I sought refuge from as I took hold of your hand
Only to encounter more in this palace of a thousand bittersweet secrets
Another sleepless night with no conclusions met
I'm still trapped and walking blind
Through this twisting turning labyrinth of sadness and of stone
But suddenly, the hinges creak, a beam of light spills on the floor
Your shadowed form sways, exhausted in the doorway
Stagger in and fall beside me, nestling close to my tense body
Your arm sprawls protectively over my stomach and I inch into your heavy-eyed embrace
Warm steam on my cheek as you pleadingly whisper my name and fall into peaceful sleep
Another sleepless night for me, but I'll give it one more day for you