Bella's POV

Edward and I had fallen in love when I was just 16 years old. He was my everything; we had made it through the toughest years of our lives together. He went away to Medical School, and I waited for him while I got my degree in Education. I was now 28 and he was 30. We married right away, bought a home, and began sharing our lives together. I loved him with everything I had in me. I never thought that my love wouldn't be enough for him, but for the past year it hasn't been. We were trying to have a baby for over two years, and it just wasn't happening. So I went to the doctor to find out what was wrong, we found out that I couldn't have children, ever. I had cancer in my uterus, which luckily had not spread, so my female parts had to be taken out. Edward was never the same after that, nor was I. I thought he'd be there and maybe that was wrong of me. A year later, and we're here. We barely speak, we don't touch, and it's become unbearable.

"Edward… we need to talk..." I was basically begging.

"What do you need Isabella?"

"I need you Edward. You won't even look at me. I'm sorry that I can't have children; please don't continue to be angry with me."

"Will you just leave me alone, I have work to do."

He slammed the door in my face.

After that conversation, or lack there of, I gave up on my marriage. I found comfort in another man, and Edward probably had more than one comfort on the side. I never thought my life would become so meaningless. I never slept my with my comfort, or kissed him. We just talked, and honestly that's all I needed. His name is Jasper, he's a colleague at work, and he understands what I'm going through as he is recently divorced. This brings us to the present time.

"Hey Jasper, how is your Monday going?"

"Oh, you know how the students are on a Monday, basically terrible."

"Yeah, I agree, everyone is asleep in my class. So I'm not going to even bother with a lesson!"

We laughed, and at times I felt like I was in love with him, but I knew my heart longed for Edward.

"Well Bella, I'm heading home, I hope you have a nice night, if you need anything just call."

We hugged, and he left the building. I knew I should go, it was 5:30 and Edward would be home, not that he cared if I was there. I walked in the door, surprised to see that there was dinner on the table and candles. Edward didn't do this for me.

"Edward, whats all this?"

"Oh, Isabella, I didn't know you would be home so soon…"

"Oh my god, I can't believe you, you invited one of your whores to dinner, in MY home?!"

And with that I stormed into what use to be our bedroom.

"Actually, I did this for you Bella. I know I've been an ass lately, but I just… I don't know who you are or who I am anymore…"

"Well Edward, maybe if you hadn't checked out when I needed you the most. I had cancer Edward. Fucking cancer and where were you? Screwing some slut, trying to make a Cullen heir. I'm sorry I can't have children. Do you even care how much it hurt me to know I couldn't give you a child?" I was sobbing at this point.

"Bella, I know I've messed up, but I'm not the only one turning to someone else for comfort."

"I never slept with Jasper, I've never even kissed him. How many are there Edward, five six girls? How many?"

"That's none of your concern."

"Get out, get the fuck out Edward! I want a divorce."

"Bella, please don't say that, give me another chance, there are no other girls now, I've ended all my affairs for you Bella. Please don't do this."

"I have to think Edward… Please just leave me alone…"

And with that he left me in my room.

I cried the rest of the night and I had no idea what I was going to do. I loved Edward, but I didn't know this Edward anymore. I missed his touch, his scent, hell I missed everything. And with that I decided to give him one last chance. I woke around midnight.

"Edward, come in here."

"What is it honey?"

"I miss you, and I want to work this out."

He had the biggest smile on his face and he came over and lay down next to me.

He kissed me and all my emotions hit me at once. "Edward, I don't think we should do this."

"Whats wrong Bella?"

"You've slept with other women, I don't want to get anything…"

"Oh god, I don't have any diseases."

"How do you know?"

"I've been checked dear."

"Oh, well I'm still not ready for this Edward… "

"Well can we at least sleep in the same bed, and can I hold you?"

"Yes, I would like that very much."

We slept all night together, but it didn't feel like it use to…