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CHAPTER 1

Brittany and Artie are together. But Santana didn't mind that (At least that's what she says). Santana has always been patient waiting for Brittany to break up with Artie. She just keeps on reminding herself that the only reason why Britt is still with Artie was because she doesn't want to hurt the guy. It was enough for her to be with Brittany at school as friends and at home as secret lovers.

At school, she would always see Artie's hands all over Brittany. She would always see them lovey-dovey and all that. And all she can do is staring or move her gaze away just to save herself from pain. Of course it was hard for her to see the love of her life in the arms of someone else, but she endures the pain for Brittany. Brittany has this power over her that makes her soft that a cotton candy won't melt in her mouth. She doesn't want Britt to hurt anyone for her, Britt is just too good for that –she thought to herself. But it's a good thing their best friends, they can walk around school with their pinkies linked, whisper sweet-nothings or hug each other without anyone judging them.

After school Brittany and Santana always go home together. They would stay at the house of San or the other. That's their time, Santana's favorite time of the day. Brittany would always talk about doing choreographies for the glee club and some random stories while Santana just stare at those beautiful deep blue eyes not being able to really hear whatever Britt was saying. They would cuddle, talk about stuff, and they would share sweet lady kisses.

She was contented with all that. She's happy having Brittany even if she couldn't really call her 'hers'. She was okay being able to love Brittany unconditionally; being able to pour her heart out to her. And most of all she was happy knowing that Brittany is in love with her too. Was…

Santana's POV:

I am willing to wait. I've waited long enough, why would now be any different? I can bear more pain for her. For her to be completely mine. Just a little more sacrifice so I can be able to call her mine. I love Brittany, and love is enough, isn't it?

Santana is completely in love Brittany. There's no doubt with that. But of course sometimes she wonders when she will stop waiting…

The two girls went straight at the Lopez' residence right after school, they both sat on Santana's bed with a silence between them. The Latina was pissed because Artie kissed Brittany unannounced in front of so many people at their performance on a program in McKinley which made Santana jealous. Santana decided to be the first one to break the silence.

"Is it always gonna be like this? When are you going to be ready? When will you freaking break up with him?" Santana asked slightly annoyed.

"We talked about this, haven't w—"before she could finish San cut her off.

"Not really, that's why I'm asking you now, when exactly is this whole secrecy going to be over. Britt, you're not ready for like a year and a half now. Don't you know that it will be harder for the both of you making this pretending any longer?" Santana said wanting Brittany to explain herself.

"San, you know I'm trying, right? It's just not that easy making a decision considering other people's feelings. He's just been so nice to me and…I'm finding the right time. He's been through a lot lately, you know that. He can't lose me too. He counts on me." Brittany explained with a somehow pleading tone hoping that Santana would drop the topic.

"I know that, but he has friends Brittany. The glee club will be there for him, we're here for him. He won't be alone. Artie won't lose you; he'll just lose your relationship as lovers. And hell, I've been through a lot too. And you didn't even notice because you're too busy taking care of your boyfriend." San said with a tone of sarcasm at her last word. "Have you even ever tried considering my feelings too, huh?" she added, annoyed and hurt.

"San, don't do this to me, please. You know I love you, of course, I consider your feelings." Britt stated. "And how come you didn't tell me you had problems? If I only knew, I would've been there for you, you make me feel like I'm useless…" she added, and stopped finding the right words to address herself.

"Well, clearly it doesn't show. You're telling me that you consider my feelings but here you are, explaining to me that you can't hurt a guy because his nice and his dealing with some things, knowing that it's the very reason why I'm hurt." Santana poured her heart out, unable to stop a tear escape her eyes.

Brittany reached for Santana hugging her best friend after wiping her tears. "San, don't cry, please, it always seems like someone is punching my heart whenever you cry. I'm so sorry, I love you, San. I'll break up with him soon, as soon as he recovers from the incident." Brittany promised.

Santana broke free from Brittany's hug. "I don't know, Britt. We're going on circles here. I'm…I'm not mad at you; I guess I'm just pissed that you can't break up with him. I understand the situation, because I really tried hard to understand. But what if he'll never be okay? I can't see our future anymore. I guess I grew tired, not from loving you but from waiting." Santana said with so much pain and regret for saying it.

"Please tell me you're not implying what I think you are. I can't…Don't leave me like this." Brittany pleaded, her eyes filled with tears now.

The Latina lets out a sigh. She wanted to hug Brittany tight but a part of her is telling her not to because she might take back all that she had just said, instead she wiped the tears of the blonde. "I'm…Brittany, I'll always be here for you. I'm not saying I'm going to leave you; what I'm saying is that I'm not sure how long I'll be able to wait. It hurts too much to see him being able to show the world how much he loves you while I always have to wear this mask with a big 'friend' written on it." Santana said hoping that somehow some of her words helped the blonde feel better. She stood up reached for the door and held it open before saying, "I think we both need some time alone for now, we should probably rest, we'll talk tomorrow, promise" She gave Brittany a reassuring smile.

With that Brittany stood still feeling that heavy pain in her chest; the fear that Santana was really slipping away from her. "Yeah, I should probably go home" she said as she walked out the door and then stopped after passing Santana. She talked but wasn't able to face the Latina as tears flow down her cheeks, "I love you, San, more than anyone. Please remember that. I'll look forward to our talk tomorrow". The blonde then continued to walk.

Santana then grabbed her arm instinctively, "I'll walk you to the door"…When they reached the door downstairs Santana held it open for Brittany, before the blonde can make her exit "Uhm. Britt…" they made an eye contact and the blue met the dark brown; with that Brittany felt that it was going to be okay. "I love you, Britt, I love you the most. Take care on your way home. Goodbye". And the front door of the Lopez' family closed.

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