This is my First Song story, it is Stained's- So Far Away, hence the name, but in this part I only use 8 lined of the beginning of the song. I will write until the song is done and maybe some.

Please review, and this has nothing to do with my other Taito/Yamachi story Mistakes, but that is complete if any of you want to check it out.

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So Far Away.

Police sirens screaming through the darkness.

Gun shot echoing through the silence.

Screaming children, crying for there dead parents.

Blood shed every night.

Hiding from all people.

Every reason different from the rest.

This is what my life is now; this is what I've become.

(~This is my life~)

(~Its not what it was before~)

It was never like this before. Yes I had to deal with pain, but all digi-destines did. It was a different pain back then, a child's pain. The pain now is real, but after awhile you become hard, listening to the cries of a dying women don't shack you up as much as they did. Every time you hear another you become stronger, or that's what I keep telling myself.

I still remember the days when I would laugh and play, kicking a soccer ball around, thinking I had it bad when I had to clean my room. What I wouldn't do to have a real room now.

Having friends come over, crying when my little sister would come in to bug us, trying to get mom to tell her to go away. I would love to see her again; it's been so long.

" But you can't." I whisper to myself, there is no one else to talk to.

I've gone back once, to check and see how they were. It was a year ago now. When I had gone back after a year, I was shocked to see them, so much had changed.

" Two years…" Two years living on my own, I could not believe it. It seemed so much longer then that.

Everyone had been there, all my friends and family, well most. One person was missing from the group, I looked through the window trying to see him, my best friend, but Matt was nowhere in sight.

I stood there for another minute, burning their images into my memory, how I wanted to go in there and plead for forgiveness, but I couldn't I was a disgrace now.

I started to leave making my way to the stairs, when I felt someone grab onto my arm. I remember the fear that shot through me. I couldn't face them!

" Tai…" Remembering the pain in the voice still makes tears come to my eyes. I didn't want to cause them any pain, especially him.

He tried my name again and I turned around, I wanted to see him so bad, but I also didn't want to see how good he was doing without me, man was I ever shocked.

I remember looking up and gasping, I remember every second of our encounter. Matt look horrible, I mean he was still the most gorgeous creature I had ever seen, but he was a wreck.

" Matt!" I had said shocked. Tears were falling from his eyes, some going down pre-cried trails; his hair was a mess, looking as if it hadn't been brushed in weeks. He was skinner looking as if he had lost 20 pounds, even though he had been stick thin before. His eyes held so much pain, but there was so much hope, new hope I could tell, the kind of hope that you get back after you thought there was none.

I cringe now knowing that, that hope had been missed placed.

He had me in a tight embrace before I could blink, holding as close as he could. I herd him sob, and whisper something about this cant be a dream.

" Oh Yama." I whispered. I didn't want to hurt him!

I had to tell him something, before he brought me into the house, screaming that I was back.

(~All these feelings I've shared~)

So I told him the truth.

I told him that this had been a dream of mine for so long, that everything seemed all right in his arms.

He had started to laugh, it sounded as if he had not laughed in so long.

" Tai, everything is going to be fine. We don't care what happened." He had said cupping my cheek. " We need you, this… this seems like one of my dreams, but it can't be, oh Tai I've missed you!"

(~And these are my dreams~)

I told him I missed him to, we stood there for a while savouring the moment for different reasons I'm sure.

" Let's go inside Tai." The moment had gone; my dreams had ended with four words. When he tried to pull me inside I stood my ground.

" No Yama." I said firmly.

" What do you mean no?" He looked so confused, as if his world was falling apart. I couldn't have been his world though; I'm not worth it.

I had started to step back, I couldn't go in, didn't he get that when he spotted me I was leaving?

" You were leaving?" He said dumb founded.

" Damn it." I always think aloud. I looked down; I could feel his glare burning into me.

"You're a fucking Bastard, you know that?" He spat. " You come here, say you miss us but have no intention of staying." He was getting chocked up.

" Matt don't cry, dang it, no one was suppose to see me, I just had to know that you were all okay." I cried back, tears now falling down from my eyes. " I had to know that you were all okay…" I whispered.

" Do I look okay to you Tai? Hmm? I'm anything but okay. You were my best friend and you leave, alone, I would have gone with you, you know that? I would have left everything I had to go with you. But you left with only a fucking note telling me that your sorry." He yelled pulling out the note from his jacket pocket.

" You still have it?" I asked shocked.

" Of course I still have it! It's the only thing I had left of you. You left, how could you leave like that Tai. You said in this." He shook the hand, which the note was in. " That you loved me. You didn't tell me in person, you told me in a note, and then said good-bye forever. Do you know how much that hurts? When you cant even say it back?" He started to sob after that, and all I could do was stand there.

" You can't love me." I whispered, it was true, I was tainted, and I was disowned. I had no honour left in me; I had my life sucked dry that night.

" How can I not? Are you really that big of a Baka that you can't see that no one cares what you did! We need you back." Matt then got shakily up to his feet and came towards me. " I need you back, look at me Tai." Matt was now standing only a foot away. I had felt so lost; all I knew was that I couldn't go back.

" I'm sorry Matt I can't face them. I don't deserve anyone this." I say pointing to everything.

" Don't you want to be with me Tai?" Matt asked caressing my face.

" Yes, but I won't let you be with me." I showed all the love I had for him in those words, and pulled his head down for a kiss, it would be our first, and our last.

(~That I'd never lived before~)

He kissed me back, fiercely, and I started to feel myself fall into his grasp, but I couldn't, I had to go, I could never live this dream with him, he was too good for me.

I pulled back, from the kiss and the embrace. I caressed his cheek one last time, loving the feel of his skin under mine. He looked so happy, but I knew that with me, you would be happy for a short time, but then pain would be your world.

" Good bye Yama." I whispered and started to turn to run but Matt had jumped me before I got the chance.

" I don't think so Tai!" He screamed. He was terrified, I could tell. He was shaking and holding me down as hard as he could.

" It is better this way!" I screamed back.

" If you wont face them fine, but I'm coming with you." He said calmly, as if it was nothing.

He really had no clue what my life was like. I was living hour to hour with the threat that some guy might come into the wrong room and kill me. I had to live with hearing People scream their last scream and then die. I would wake up in the morning and have a dead body laying on the ground out side my door. I would have the same old cops come to my door and ask if I had seen anything, which they already knew the answer, no.

I would not let him live that life, I would not!

" Hell no!" I yell, kicking my way out from under him. But Matt was stronger then he looked.

I still can't believe what he said next, it felt like a dream, or a nightmare, what ever it was it shook me to the core.

(~Somebody shake me~)

" If you leave I will kill myself." He said it as if he had practised it.

We stared at each other for what seemed like hours, but must have only been a few minutes, when something hit me, that would stop him form doing it and make him get off of me.

" If you do that I'll do it." I answer the unseen question. It worked though; he was so shocked that he stumbled backwards, a look of horror across his face.

" What…!" He whispered.

" You heard me." I said standing up.

" Since when have you talked like that Tai, you would never." He said it as if trying to reassure himself.

" A year on the street will do a lot to you." I say lowly.

" Then get off the streets!" He screamed.

" It is where I belong, good bye Matt, I truly do love you." I say starting to walk backwards.

" Then why won't you stay with me?" He sobbed.

" I love you enough to know that I'm not worth you or anyone, good bye." After that I ran, I heard him scream my name so loud that all of Japan could have heard it.

I tried to keep my tears in check, but then I heard the screams of my family and friends, all begging me to come back, there all better off without me I kept thinking, making myself run faster.

That had been the last time I had seen them, a year ago today. I had almost turned back then, but I knew I was not worth it.

" I miss you Yama, I really do. But after that little girl, I- I can't see you again." I whisper to myself, the only person I have left.

" If only I hadn't been drinking." I whisper to myself again. " Sally would be alive and well, and I would be with you Yama."

I hadn't seen it coming, even though it had been full daylight, I couldn't stop.

I had been speeding, I admit I knew I had, but I was drunk and didn't care. Sally a little girl from another apartment in our complex ran out into the road, it wasn't the main road, just a little road that a lot of people don't use. I saw her but I couldn't find the break, so I ran her over. I remember her screaming her little 8-year-old heart out; I remember making her go quiet.

I found the break after I hit her, I hadn't of hit her head on, no she was an agile girl and had almost completely leapt out of the way, other then one of her legs that got caught in my car and…

I start puking thinking out what happened but I can't stop my train of thought.

Her leg was almost completely severed off. It was the most gruesome thing I had ever seen, I was about to phone 911 when some guy came by, not any guy, but a sick bastard who laughed at what he saw.

" Good job." he had said sincerely, and I started to lash out at him, how could he be so sick and twisted?

I said some mean things but then I hear Sally again, crying out in pain she was still alive! I felt joy and started to dial 911 and telling her how sorry I was, and that everything was going to be okay.

I had sobered up quiet a bit and was back to me regular mindset, well almost, my reflexes were a bit out of wick, or I would have seen the guy bring a club to my head mumbling about how compassion was useless. I would have never thought that guy would do that, he was dressed in light cloths and I would have assumed was a good guy, but no he knocked me out Sally bleed to death, and that's how this all started.

No charges were ever put against me, the family new I tried to help, but that other guy got what 10 years in jail. But life was never the same, my family disowned me saying that they were sickened by me. Oh no never to my face but they forget that our bedroom is rate beside there's.

I had no honour left; I couldn't take it any more so I ran, leaving a note to every one. Now I had to deal with surviving.

(~Cuz I~)

(~I must be sleeping~)

" You can't keep thinking about it!" I scold myself. " You have to be strong to live here, have to be strong." I say before resting my head on my flat below, exhausted from the hard day. Before I fell asleep though a picture of Yama flooded my vision and a smile formed on my face.

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