Summary: A Slytherin contemplates between duty and desire for love… for a Gryffindor.
Wish of the Tormented
Analiria 06-20-'07
As the sun fell on that winter day,
Tears fell in the dark hallway.
Instead of insulting you as I always,
My defense broke down and gave to what I've desired always.
.
I said comforting words,
Even ones that I myself didn't believe,
Yet you looked at me with such astonished eyes,
Not from hate, but from disbelief.
.
I guess you wonder:
"Why does this person,
One that always insulted me,
Now give words of wisdom,
To someone like me?"
.
But I never hated you,
I wanted you to detest me,
Even if it pains me…
So one wouldn't know that I care.
So you wouldn't be in danger
And make me feel despair.
.
I asked you for a date,
A partner for this night,
In exchange for the comfort,
Or I'll that tell that you've cried.
.
I stared at you then,
Observing the change in your features
As you smiled and replied with laughter on your lips.
.
'A dream come true', as people would say.
That was when I did one thing that I've promised myself not to do,
One that would say 'I love you'
I thought you'd pull back, disgusted of my actions,
Yet you did the exact opposite of what I've thought:
You've returned the gesture.
I was amazed,
Overwhelmed of my emotions.
.
But then a sting in my arm
Reminded me of the promise that I've made
That's why I'll cherish this now,
Savour this as long as it lasts,
For I know that…
We aren't meant to be.
.
I pulled back, turned, and ran away,
Leaving you with your thoughts,
Alone in the hallway.
.
As the moon shines this fateful day,
And as the heavens cry the tears I cannot,
I leaned at my window, and looked at the seas…
I closed my eyes and let one arrogant tear fall,
Which I know that sooner or later would become…
Suspended in time and space.
Note: This is one of the earliest poems that I've made, hence the child-like point of view. I'm itching to revise this, but I suppose it should be preserved for old times' sake. I think I'll just make a drabble of the same plot. (Analiria, 2010)