A poem type drabble in Alec's point of view

First ever upload on fanfic :D ..Is it normal that I'm this nervous and excited at the same time? READ AND REVIEW

It always rained, Magnus

Every time I came to see you

It always rained

It washed away the glitter I put on your gravestone

It soaked the red rose petals adorning your ground

It hid the tears flowing down my cheeks

As I kneeled before your engraved name

I came as often as I could, Magnus

So you wouldn't feel alone

You were always on my mind

I missed you so much

I thought about you

With each breath I took

I had given you my heart Magnus

It had always belonged to you

So when you took it away with your last breath

I felt so empty

I remember the day you were taken away from me, Magnus

I held you so close and felt my heart shatter

I listened to you heart beat fading under my palm as I drowned in my tears

I held onto your hand so hard wishing you would squeeze back

You weren't supposed to die

It should have been me

It was always supposed to be me who went first

But you jumped in front of me

You protected me from that curse

For so long I wished it was me Magnus

Then it wouldn't have hurt so much

But I welcomed the pain

I hoped it scarred me so deep

So I could never ever forget you

At times I wanted to give up

But you had told me to fight for my life

At times I hated myself

For not being able to save you

For feeling so powerless

I missed your warmth and your tender kisses

I missed the feel of your soft, tanned skin against my scars

You were so beautiful

You took my breath away

I missed your relentless teasing

I never blushed again after that day

I missed your rainbow colours

And your ever present sparkle

You had left me behind in a black hole

I thought we had forever

But you were gone so soon

I lie here now

Realising I've fought my last battle

The pain from the poisoned claw marks becoming unbearable

My own blood pooling around me

I fought so hard

I lived this long for you Magnus

Worried voices and blurred faces surround me

They're trying to bring me back

But I know it's too late

I know it's the end

Now as I close my eyes

All I can see is your green gold eyes lavishing me in its feline gaze

All I can feel is your long arms surrounding me in its loving embrace

All I can hear is your gentle whisper of 'I love you' in my ear

All I can smell is your intoxicating scent I had missed so much

All I can taste is your soft lips against mine in a breathtaking kiss

All I can think is that finally,

We have our forever

xoxo