There's no light in my life,
Yet people say I've so much to live for.
And I'm no longer complete,
But I'm not sure if I ever was before.
You were my other half,
But you filled up three quarters of my world.
Where you were three,
I was one, always the first to fold.
People don't notice the change in me,
I put on a smile and say:
'I'm good, I'm fine, I'm coping well,'
But without you I'll never again be okay.
And now I'm stranded,
Fallen in deeper than ever before.
You're so bloody far away,
And I can't take it anymore!
Because I see the looks people give me,
Like they can actually empathise.
And they 'know what I'm going through,'
But it's all just bloody lies!
I hate my life without you!
I don't want to live!
I'm seeing your photograph,
And feeling all you had to give.
Why couldn't they have taken me?
Why did it have to be you?
All this time I've been dying inside,
And it's something I can't get through.
These tears that fall from my eyes,
Even they remind me of you.
Because whenever something got too hard,
You'd say there's nothing we can't do.
Even though you've no ghost,
You're still haunting me.
Every time I look in the mirror,
It's you I see.
Not me.
So that's why I'm here,
With a knife to my throat.
And I know it sounds funny,
But I can't float.
I'm selfishly drowning,
In cowardly sorrow and pain.
And all it takes is a flick of the wrist,
And I'll be able to see you again…