Hey Everyone! I decided to write a one-shot about how Jasper feels after he almost kills bella in new moon.
Plz review! Hope you like it! =D
Jasper POV
As soon as Rosalie and Emmett took me outside I realized what I had done.
I had almost killed Bella
Bella; Edwards soul-mate, Alice's new best friend, Charlie's only daughter... And I, weak Jasper Hale had almost ended her life because I wasn't strong enough to resist the blood. I had fought with my own family to try and get her blood, I had endangered her life because I wasn't strong enough.
I was a weak miserable vampire, who didn't deserve to live. I didn't deserve my loving family. I didn't deserve Alice.
I hardly heard Carlisle and Bella convincing Edward to leave Bella and come to me. Bella's blood was so much more irresistible to Edward, but even he was able to stop himself draining her blood.
I am weak.
Edward came out of the house then. His face was paler than usual as he thought about the danger Bella had just been in.
"Don't worry Jasper, it's not your fault. We all slip-up sometimes." He said. I knew he didn't blame me for what just happened. He blamed himself.
I could feel worry, shock and sympathy for me coming from everyone. It was too much. I fell to my knees as the guilt washed over me. I hated myself, truly hated myself for what I had done.
"I have to go." I managed to say. Alice obviously seeing what I was going to do, came out of the house and ran over to me.
"Please don't go." She begged me. But my decision was already made. I didn't deserve any of the love I got here.
"I have to." I said and then I got up and ran into the forest. I didn't stop running. Maybe I wasn't going to. I didn't know.
Because all I felt... was guilt.