Hi! I wrote it when I was racked by the temperature.
However I hope you'll like it! If you don't, please forgive me, it was fever's fault! :p
This is basically the same plot of "Monster", that I wrote some days ago, but I wasn't satisfied of the history, so I changed something.
Thank God, summer holidays were over.
I knew that no one agreed with me, but for me they were a nightmare. So that morning I was happy to come back to school. That was my last year, then I'd leave Forks and all its inhabitants, and above all I'd leave the sick air of my house.
This sickness was not my parent's fault, it was mine. My brother Emmett had never had a problem with them, they never quarrelled, unlike me. Thus, the real problem was me. My parents have never gainsaid my theory.
I had thought to go away so many times, but I've always renounced because of Emmett, I couldn't withstand to stay away from him. He had always made me calm down with his jokes. His bright smile never left his face. He was better than me, far better, I was aware of it and I wasn't envious, because I cared of him so much. But now that he had gone away to work as professional football player, I was alone. I had passed an entire summer completely alone.
My bad temper didn't help the relationship with René and Charlie. Every time I expressed my opinion, different from theirs, even with my better aims, they always read it as a direct attack to them. So every dialogue with them ended with a quarrel. Emmett was no more there to distract me.
So, I arrived at the conclusion that it was better for us all that I stayed quiet.
I began to stay quiet even with my friends. I knew that I was a monster and I didn't want my friends to realize it.
Neither my best friend Alice could convince me of the contrary, even though she always repeated to me that I was making it bigger than it really was. She didn't understand completely my pain.
I reached the school on foot, it wasn't far from my house. At the entrance I saw Alice running toward me, hand in hand with his blond boyfriend Jasper. They have been together since we were ten.
"Hi Bella!" she greeted me.
"Hi!" I replied enthusiastically.
Jasper smiled at me "Please don't tell me you are so happy to be back to school…"
I shook my head "No, not happy. Agog is more appropriate" I said with a smile. Alice rolled her eyes.
"See you at lunch Bella" told me Jasper as we entered the building. Alice kissed my cheek and went with him to their class.
My first lesson was Math and I couldn't ask for something better. Yes I knew I was strange, but Math was a language that everyone could speak and understand, misunderstandings were not contemplated. No misunderstandings, no discussions, no faults, paradise for me.
As I entered the classroom I met Jessica and Lauren, they smiled at me, a false and sour smile. That expression on their face was still source of suffering for me. In fact until three years ago we used to be friends, we always hang out together and knew everything about each of us. Our friendship finished as Mike Newton asked me to date. I obviously declined, because I knew that Jessica liked him so much and also because I couldn't stand him.
I told everything to them, even that I had declined, but Jessica and Lauren read it as disrespect towards Jessica's feelings. Since that day they have stopped to speak with me. I haven't understood yet what I did to offend them, but this was my point of view of the story. They probably had good reasons to act like that.
I sighed afraid. I was a monster I knew it.
I sat on the first free place I found, completely absorbed within my thoughts.
"Hi" I heard someone trying to greet me.
I raised my face from the desk and turned my face towards the guy who spoke to me.
He was sitting next to me, and looked at me with a shining smile on his face. I've never seen him. Certainly he was new here, Forks High was so small that I knew all its students.
I admired his face like a stupid, I think my mouth was forming a perfect O. I couldn't say a word for some seconds, his beauty was astonishing. His skin was pale, his features were perfect, his right nose, his mouth, his bright and mesmerizing golden eyes. I've never seen eyes like these.
I cleaned my throat, then said "Hi". I hoped that the low sound of my voice hided the embarrassment I felt.
"I am Edward Cullen, what's your name?" his voice was smooth and honeyed.
I would have never thought that an old name like Edward could be connected to a breathtaking guy like him. Immediately that name gained a lot of points, it jumped on the top list of my favourite names. I blushed at that thought.
He caressed his bronze hair, waiting for a response from me.
"I'm Bella Swan. Are you new here?" I asked him. He seemed to be pleased of my interest.
"Yes, my family and I have moved from Alaska at the end of the summer. I don't know anybody in this school" he said.
"Don't worry, you'll strike up easily" I smiled at him. I was sure he would have soon a lot of friends. Undoubtedly he would be very appreciated by all the girls of this school. It was impossible that his impudent beauty went unnoticed.
"I don't think so" he replied to me with a strange expression on his face as the teacher went to the blackboard to begin his lesson.
I wasn't as absorbed as I usually was by the lesson. So, after some minutes of indecision, I permitted my self to turn my gaze on him. His arms were crossed on his chest, his eyes fixed on me.
He smiled at me but didn't shift his gaze.
I quickly moved my look on the blackboard. I think that my face reached the deeper shade of purple in 0.005 seconds.
At the end of that hour I understood that I had lost much of the lesson. It was the first time.
"What do you have now?" Edward asked me.
I took my timetable from the bag "English literature, and you?"
I saw him smiling and I soon understood that it had it too. "Me too".
"So come with me" I told him and walked through the hallway to reach our classroom. All the attentions were on him and on me too, because he was walking close to me. I could hear Jessica and Lauren sneering low. Okay, not very low. But I pretended not to have heard them.
"Have you always lived in Forks?" he asked me suddenly.
"Yes" I sighed. I didn't added anything else, the expression on my face was enough exhaustive.
"Why don't you like it?" he asked me seriously. He seemed to be very interested on my answer. He was looking at me with those wonderful eyes. I was going to tell him everything, but I couldn't, I didn't want him to know my real reasons.
"I don't like Forks, that's all"
"Okay" He had understood that this was a theme I didn't like to talk about.
"Why have you moved to Forks?" I was curious.
"Because we were boring in Denali. We lived there for a very long time. So we decided to move, and Forks seemed perfect for us" he explained.
What a strange reason to move. I've never heard of someone who moves for boredom. Then thinking about his words I grimaced. Perfect and Forks in the same statement were for me inconceivable.
He laughed and shook his head. "I saw that for you his incomprehensible. But my parents love so much trekking and places not too crowded. Forks gives them all they want". He shrugged.
"And you? Do you have what you want?" he was nearly a stranger, but I didn't want him to suffer for his parents's choice.
"Yes, almost everything I want" he answered. He looked in my eyes for the briefest of moments, then sat down and waved me to sit on the chair next to him.
I sat down. "Almost?" I didn't forbear from asking him. Damn! This guy was mysterious, and fascinated me too much. I couldn't let myself get too much involved. He hasn't been created for me. This was obvious. He was perfect, an angel, and I was the person who make people suffer, I was a monster.
"Almost" he simply answered caressing his messed up hair.
My eyes followed his hand and stayed fixed there until his face came near mine and I heard him murmuring to my ear "Bella, you should open your book, the teacher is staring at you". I didn't understand what he said, my brain had frozen when I heard my name whispered by his mouth.
"What?" I asked him, still dazed.
"Open your book" he repeated. He was smiling.
I did as I was told.
"Good morning Miss Swan!" the teacher said. I blushed and put down my gaze on the book.
I understood four things during that hour: first, 'almost' is a very cryptic word, second, there should be a law which prohibit awesome guys to use it, third, there should be another law which prohibit these same guys to whisper close to idiot girl's ear, fourth, this night would be very difficult to fall asleep.
"And now PE" he told me enthusiastically.
"Not for me" I replied. I was disappointed that he won't be my schoolmate of my next class. Maybe it was better for me. I needed to reorganize my mind. And I really didn't want to have PE, I hated it with all my strenght.
"Oh, ok. I have two hours of PE. Can I see you at lunch?" he asked me hopefully, but then changed expression and added "If I don't bother you or your friends".
"I am pleased to see you at lunch" I smiled at him and ran towards my next class. I would be more than pleased to have lunch with this wonderful and gentle guy. But I knew that it wouldn't take too long that he moved his interest on someone better than me.
Those two lessons seemed unending to me. When the fourth class ended I saw Alice leaning on the wall near the door of my classroom. She seemed to be excited.
"So?" she asked me and smiled.
"So?" I asked her, I didn't know what she was referring to.
"So, what about that guy?" she asked to me, and crossed her arms on his chest "And don't tell me what guy we both know who I am thinking about" she added satisfied.
"Nothing. He's new here and he introduced himself, he doesn't know anybody. He asked me to have lunch with him" I said. But when I saw Alice jumping on his feet without control, I added "It's only because I'm the only one he knows".
"Oh, Bella, he's so good looking,he would be perfect for you"
"I know he's good looking, and definitely he's too much for me"
"You make me get angry when you say stupid things, Bella" she told me seriously. "And if Jasper was there he'd agreed with me" she added satisfied. This last sentence was the truth, they always agreed in everything. They were striking. Sometimes I used to ask them something in different occasions, when they were far from each other. They always gave me the same answer that gave me the other. They shocked me every time.
"Where is Jasper?" I asked her, as we reached the canteen.
"As always he's gone to the toilet" she rolled her eyes "I can't believe how many times he goes there. I've never known anyone who needs to pee so often. I think he could establish a world record" she shook her head and laughed. I laughed with her. Alice was so genuine and direct, she really didn't like roundabout expressions.
We approached a free table. I looked around and saw Jasper arriving with his and Alice's dishes. He was always very kind to her. I didn't saw Edward Cullen. Maybe he had changed idea, nothing strange I said resigned to myself. I turned my eyes on the table.
"I am sorry Bella I didn't know what you wanted" a boy's voice told me.
I turned to thank Jasper, it wasn't necessary that he brings even my dish. "Don't be stupid Jasper, I don't need your…" the last word get stuck on my lips. It wasn't Jasper, it was Edward. And he was bringing two dishes. "I am sorry, I thought you were Jasper" I tried to explain, but I felt a completely idiot looking at his embarrassed expression.
"Jasper? I met him on the toilet" he said smiling. Alice laughed.
"So you met my boyfriend on his favourite place" she said to Edward.
"He told me you'd say that" he smiled and nodded to Jasper who was sitting.
"I'm Alice, Bella's best friend, and you are?" she asked him while she was helping Jasper with his dishes.
"I am Edward Cullen. It's nice to meet you" he said in a very gentle way.
Alice smiled at him and began to eat.
"Do you like lasagnas?" he asked me.
"I simply love it, thank you very much Edward" I told him.
He smiled and passed me one of the two dishes. And if he wanted it? "But if you wanted it I can eat the pizza" I immediately said.
He shook his head and smiled. "I have what I wanted"
"Are you enjoying your first day at Forks High?" Jasper asked him.
"Yes" he simply answered.
"Really?" asked Jasper, he couldn't believe him.
"Yes, everyone is very kind" he explained then coughed and added "I should say almost everyone"
"Why almost?" I asked. This word wanted to make me go crazy. Really.
"I don't think that Mike Newton is going to be one of my friend, I can't stand him. Two hours with him have been enough" he said.
"How right you are!" I smiled at him. He smiled and winked at me.
I must underline it. He winked at me. Definitely tonight I wouldn't sleep. I was happy that for once I would have lost my sleep for thinking about the unattainable guy next to me and not for crying.
"What do you have now?" I asked him.
"An hour of music and then I am free"
"Music? Are you a musician?" That guy was definitely surprising.
"I like playing piano, and I found this great special course here. That's way I was happy to be at Forks high. I am having almost all I wanted".
"Almost?" asked Alice intrigued. She had raised an eyebrow.
"Almost" he repeated, then turned his gaze on me "So you're not coming at music's lesson?"
"No, I can't play any kind of musical instrument" I shook firmly my head. Jasper and Edward laughed together.
Alice looked at her watch and stood up. "We are going to be late Jazz" she took his arm and made him stand up. "Nice to have met you Edward! See you tomorrow Bella" she blinked and went away with Jasper. He rolled his eyes and greeted us with the hand.
Edward was still smiling. I was looking at his breathtaking face, his mouth had a sweet grimace, and his golden eyes were glittering. When I realized that is gaze was on me I did nothing but blushing.
All of a sudden he turned his face and looked behind his shoulder disappointed.
"I don't think I'm going to withstand the stupidity of that two girls for a long time" he whispered frowning.
I looked who he was talking about. Jessica and Lauren.
Definitely he was too perfect for me.
I smiled.
He stood up. "Thank you for having lunch with me. I'm happy to have met you and your friends" he said sincerely.
"Me too" I couldn't say nothing more.
"See you tomorrow" He smiled. A crooked smile. Some girls were looking at him and I could perceive that they were as astonished as I was.
"Uhm, See you" I smiled at him like a stupid.
At science lab I was so excited that I couldn't do experiment the teacher told us to do. But it didn't matter.
This had been a very good day. An excellent and unforeseen day.
At 6 o'clock my mother came back home.
My good day ended at 6 o'clock.
"How's your day at school?" she asked me.
"Good, I really enjoyed it"
"Well" she said.
"I knew a new guy, he has moved here from Alaska" I said enthusiastically.
"I hope you did something better than following that guy all the day" she replied.
Indeed he followed me all the day. I smiled at that thought, then said "No, mum. I spoke with him only during lunch" I assured her.
She frowned sceptically. "Hope you'll do something in your life, Bella. Charlie and I aren't expecting great things from you. We know you perfectly, but hope is the last to die" she said resigned. "Maybe someday you'll amaze us. I have already given up all hope. Your father is still hoping" her voice was ironic.
I didn't say nothing. I closed science's book and went upstairs in my bedroom. I slammed the door.
"Damn Bella! Every time I try to have a serious talk with you, you always go away. You're no more a kid Bella!" she shouted from downstairs.
I was lying on my bed, my arms were crossed on my face, trying to think to something else. I wanted to speak with Emmett, but his phone rang without a response. Maybe he was training very hard. I had to bear his absence, even if it was very difficult. I put on the headphones of my Ipod and listened to my favourite songs. As the minutes passed I found the artificial quiet that I deathly needed.
The volume was at the maximum, so I couldn't hear my father knocking to the door. Probably he had knocked for so long on the door and probably he even called me several times. Otherwise I couldn't explain myself his ferocious expression when he tore away the headphones from my ears. His face was red for rage. "Bella" he called my name like an injury. "Don't you dare to act like this with your mother any more" it was an advertising. An advertising I didn't understand. I just ran away as always, what did I do?
"Your mother is desperate for you. She suffers a lot, and she doesn't deserve it." he made himself clearer. Then he came back, and closed the door, but not before giving me the usual gaze I was accustomed. The gaze which remembered me that I was a monster.
I was trying not to cry when the image of Edward crossed my mind. His brilliant smile and his kindness swept away my sad thoughts.
It was still a good day.
I don't know if to continue it or not. Do you believe Edward is human or vampire?