Hey guys, once again I'm being slow updating "I Can See Just Fine" so have yet another one shot, sadstuck DaveJohn this time around 3
Your name is David Strider and you just don't know how long it's been.
Nor can you remember a lot of things anymore. You can never remember to call your sister Rose after work or when you've had a bad day. You can't remember to brush your hair in the morning and often leave your apartment key on the dresser, resulting in you getting locked out quite often. But most of all, you can't remember happiness. It had been gone for so long that sadness had taken over, and after the accident you were simply lost in the void.
While you had forgotten oh so many things, there were a few you knew that you would never forget no matter how hard you tried. Like that one shade of blue that you loved even more than the color red, or that smile that could brighten your day no matter how absolutely terrible it had been. The one with those buck teeth peeking over the bottom lip that you found to be absolutely adorable. You would never forget the soft snoring that would drift through your apartment at the late hours of the night when you were still awake only to be accompanied by the rhythmic rise and fall of his chest under a Ghost Busters pajama top. Then there was the beautiful music that would fill the entire apartment from time to time, long bony fingers dancing along black and white keys in order to make the graceful sounds.
Cuddling on a cold day under a mountain of blankets, watching his favorite movies, singing terrible songs together, all the cake, Chinese takeout night; these were the things that you would never let yourself forget. You held them too close to your heart to let go of them.
You wished he was still here, but of course the only thing you ever held dear was stolen right out from under you. You've been drowning ever since, drowning in the weight of the world. Rose tried to be there for you, but it hadn't worked. You tried dating again, but it never felt the same. You were the only one who visited his grave anymore. You even tried to spend the night there a few times, but the grave keeper always chased you out when you tried.
That's where you were now; sitting on the grave of the only person you would ever love. Tears steam down your face as you talk, words simply flooding from your mouth. You told him just how much you missed him, and how you loved him with every fiber of your being. Then you just stop, reaching into your pocket to pull out a pocket knife that you'd brought along with you; the slightest of smiles tugging at the corners of your lips as you stared at its shining blade.
That smile quickly disappeared as you thought about the blade's intended purpose. You could just feel the disapproving stare of a certain blued eyed boy. He would never be okay with what you wanted to do. You sigh and slip the knife back into your pocket, tilting your head back to stare up at the cloudless sky.
"I love you John Egbert."
You say in a hushed tone, wind blowing against your face gently as if responding for him.
"I love you too Dave."
It was a quiet statement, one that could only be heard if someone truly wanted to hear it. At the point, you break down once again; blonde hair slipping behind the shades that you had worn ever since the day that he had given them to you. Tears roll from your face and soaking into the ground of your lover's grave.
You would live yet another day without him only to be with him in the end; your undying love never fading.
Hope that was alright guys! I'm sure I'll finish chapter four of ICSJF soon, but I'm not exactly sure then. Hope this will hold you over until then 3