Disclaimer: I do not own Yugioh.

A/N: Based of feelings in my life at one time or another. Japanese names.

Italicized thoughts of the inside of Anzu if you won't a better explanation just message me and ask.

I woke up my clock saying it was six in the morning I had to get ready for school. School was a lukewarm kind of thing. It was horrible most of the time but there were parts of it you couldn't help but want. I got up, and ate some food grabbed my school bag and went to Domino City High.

"Hey Anzu did you sleep well?"

It was my little friend Yugi. I never slept well anymore well not since that happened, but I wasn't gonna worry Yugi about nothing.

"Yeah, I'm slept really well last night."

/Do you ever tell them the damn truth? /

{What I tell them when I have the body is my own choice now leave me alone.}

/That's so mean I love you so much I can't bear to leave you alone. /

She receded back into the recesses of my mind. She would be back later, and of course she always had to add a hint of sarcasm whenever she expressed concern for me. I didn't want to dwell on these thoughts for too long I would dwell them at night. I was more like plagued at night was the correct choice of words, but this isn't the most important thing to worry about at the moment.

Yugi was staring into space also. I had almost no doubt that he was talking to his beloved Yami. Yes Yugi was lucky even if he did have another voice in his head he had one that genuinely cared for him. Mine only tried to hurt me or reminded me how much I hated living in this cold pathetic world. I wasn't gonna bother telling the young aspiring duelist to go to class so I blew right past him into the school.

Classes for the day were almost over it was lunch the end of the day was the saddest part of the day. Night was one time I hated the most for so many reasons one reason was that leaving school was like dying and every time I went home another part of me died I was slowly becoming numb on the inside. Another reason was that I was alone I didn't fear loneliness itself, but the thought of knowing that no one was there even if I wanted someone to be. The last reason was because of her or rather the real me depending on your point of view.

"Anzu I have something we have to tell you."

It was all my friends Yugi, Jou, Ryuji, and Honda was around. They all were looking away from me, and I didn't get the happiest vibe from them.

"Yeah, Yugi what is it you want?"

I looked at him I just had to be her for a few minutes then I could stop acting nice. I smiled innocently with a look of confusion or maybe curiosity on my face.

"Anzu we would all like it if you didn't hang out with us for two weeks. We need time to ourselves will you please stop hanging around us."

I was going to protest but there really wasn't any point to arguing right now. I figered I would just come back in two weeks, but somehow in the back of my head I knew that they wouldn't let me come back. I just ignored them and went home by day of happiness turned into the first day of pure hell.

/I told you that no one cared for you but me. Please don't worry about those asses we can talk about it when we get back home later tonight. /

{Thank you I fell horrible but please don't leave me alone…. I can't fell that feeling once again so please don't go.}

These new streams of thoughts didn't recede to the back of my mind but stayed with me like I was talking to someone else or at least someone else was there with me…for once. I reached my home I went and grabbed something out of my houses cabinet my parents weren't home. I then went to my room, and started on my homework for the day.

Night fell and the day became a blur in a mind a memory I wanted it to be a dream, but I knew it never would. Numbed on the inside and the outside I took a warm bath thinking and feeling nothing all the while. I went to my bed the only place someone would comfort me in my thoughts.

/How sad how fragile people are, but what I find interesting is that when they make masks to cover up these facts it makes them even weaker. It's a shame people are so cruel if they weren't you would be so much brighter you would be the like angel you're meant to be. Until then rest, and continue to shine inside of me, and guide me with your light./

I grew tired and my eyes closed I felt like a completely different person took over my mind, and this time I let them I had no desire to do anything even to "live" at this point. I would come back another day perhaps.

Authors note in the next chapter I will be explaining how Anzu's mind is working so it's less confusing.