Hey Guys!!
Here's my first fan fiction story. Hope you like it. Don't forget to review.
There will be much more to come !!!!!
Disclaimer: I do not own VA Academy or any of the character, they belong to the lucky Richelle Mead
Thanks,
Marla
RPOV
I woke to my alarm screeching. If I wasn't so happy that I was going to see Dimitri in an hour, I would have thrown the damn clock out the
window. I jumped out of the bed threw on a pair of running shorts and a tight fitting black tank top. I ran out the door and headed for the gym. I
couldn't wait to see Dimitri. I haven't seen him since our night together in the cabin, which was two nights ago. Dimitri and I finally gave in to our
feelings for each other and made love.
Opening the door to the gym, I expected to see Dimitri sprawled out on the mats reading one of those cheesy western novels of his. I looked
around, but he wasn't here, there was only one of his books lying in the middle of the mats. As I picked up the book, a piece of paper slipped out.
On it was only one word . . . CABIN. I knew where I needed to go. I ran out of the gym, headed for the cabin, excitement running threw me.
Approaching the door to the cabin I could hear Dimitri speaking to someone. I heard Alberta's voice. They were talking about me. I wasn't
surprised, Alberta knew about Dimitri and me, she actually approved of us. Alberta was a good friend to Dimitri. I didn't intend to eavesdrop, but I
was curious.
DPOV
Sitting here in the cabin waiting for Rose to get here. I heard a knock at the door. "Come in," I said. As the door opened, I saw it was Guardian
Petrov, "Guardian Belikov, can I speak with you for a minute please?" she asked. " Sure is something wrong," I said. "No, everything is fine you
just seem a little distracted lately. I thought you might need a friend to talk to." Alberta really was a good friend. It was nice to have someone to
talk to about Rose and me. "I guess my guardian mask needs some work, I'm usually very good at it," I said. I looked at her for a second than
asked,"Have you ever thought about not being a guardian? Or have you ever wondered what your life would be like if you could make your own
choices, if you didn't have to follow all these rules. Wish you had the freedom to love whomever you wanted." Alberta looked at me as though
she was thinking of a way to word her response. "Yes Dimitri, to a certain extent," she answered. "Sometimes I wish . . . us . . . as guardians
had more freedom. Why do you ask?" "We'll Alberta, you know that mine and Rose's relationship will never be accepted, the age difference
is part of it, and we both are to be Lissa's guardians, not to mention I'm her mentor. We both tried to keep our relationship professional. It's just
not that simple. We love each other." Feeling so frustrated, I placed my face in my hands an sighed. I looked up at Alberta and said, "I love
"Rose! There is no question about my feelings for her, but is it enough!"
Alberta looked at me with concern. "Dimitri we are guardians, there are no certainties in our lives, some of us never experience love. Most
guardians only know protecting their moroi and death. I can't give you the answers, the reason being, they're different for everyone. What I'm
trying to say is, find what makes you happy and hold on to it. What you love and cherish most in your life can be taken away at any given
moment. Dimitri, I know things seem complicated, hell life is complicated, just don't be so skeptical about your situation. Give it some time, I have
confidence everything will work out." I glanced up at Alberta, not sure what I was looking for in her face, just then I saw it, a glimmer of truth. She
truly had faith everything would work out. At that very moment I gained a deeper respect for Alberta. "Thank you so much, You've helped
me a great deal." I said. Alberta checked her watch, "we'll I have to be on duty in 20 minutes. If you need anything, you know where to find me."
She was opening the door when she turned to me with a smile playing on her lips and said. " Tell Rose to take it easy on you, your on duty
tonight. As she walked out the door, I would have sworn I heard her let out a little chuckle.
RPOV
I couldn't believe what I was hearing. I assumed after our night together in the cabin, professing our love to each other, that things between
Dimitri and I would be better. Dimitri was still worried about us being together. Yes, he loved me. He just wasn't convinced it was enough. He was
questioning being a guardian. How could Dimitri have doubts about being a guardian, it was his life, it is what he loves. Then it hit me, he was
considering giving up his guardianship because of me. I was the complication causing him anguish. I couldn't listen to any more. I had to get
away, give myself time to think. I walked back through the woods, needing to be alone, I headed for the novices' dorms. Hopefully I could avoid
running into anyone. Just then Lissa's emotions hit me through the bond. She was excited, happy, she was with Christian. Lissa didn't have a clue
as to how lucky she really was, I thought. I'm not jealous of Lissa, I would just like to have some of the freedom she takes for granted.
Blocking her emotions, I reached my room. I was relieved I didn't run into anyone, my emotions are so out of control who knows what could
happen. I walked into my room shutting the door behind me. I just stood there, not sure why I wasn't moving. I didn't even realize I was crying
until I felt the warm tears streaming down my face. I walked to the bed and threw myself across the mattress. My heart was aching not for me,
but for Dimitri! I never completely understood why Dimitri fought so hard to stay in control until this very minute. He knew falling in love with me
would only complicate his life. I knew falling in love with Dimitri would have consequences, but it didn't matter to me. I loved him so mush. I just
didn't see how much it would cost Dimitri. I know I can fix this, I can be unselfish and give him what he needs. I will make the decision that will
allow him to no longer have to choose. It will hurt me more than any pain I ever felt before but I can do this for him. I will leave St. Vladimirs! Allow
Dimitri to continue his life the way he planned before I invaded it. Just then I heard a soft knock at my door. I wiped the tears from my eyes and
stumbled toward the doors. When I opened it , I was looking into the most beautiful brown eyes. All I wanted to do was wrap my arms
around his lean body, lay my head on his chest. Tell him how much I loved him, how much I would miss him. I couldn't do any of those things it
would only make it harder to let go. "Hey," I said as I turned and walked back to my bed. I heard Dimitri shut the door. "Roza, is everything all
right?" he asked with concern in his voice." Everything is fine," I answered, making sure not to make eye contact. If I looked into those eyes I
would crumble, and he would know I was lying. "Rose will you look at me . . . please!" he begged. I hesitated, but could not deny him. I
looked straight into those tranquilizing eyes of his. He instantly came to my side. He cupped my face in his hands so gently. We were inches
apart, I could feel his warm breath on my face. I could feel the sparks from his touch. It sent shivers down my spine. "Rose, please tell me what's
wrong. Have you been crying?" he asked. " You know you can tell me anything. I love you Roza!" My heart was breaking into a million pieces." I'm
fine Dimitri I'm just tired," I lied. "Rose. Please don't lie to me, you know you're a terrible liar," he said with a hint of a smile. "I'm not lying I
really am tired." I said with a fake yawn. I really wasn't lying I was tired. Dimitri stood up and said... "well than I will go and let you get some rest.
I'll see you soon," he said. I stood up to walk him to the door when Dimitri slipped his arms around my waist and pulled me into an embrace. He
kissed my forehead and whispered.... "ya tak lyublyu tebia" ( I love you so much). I wasn't sure what he said, but I loved when he talked to me in
Russian. Dimitri left, Iclosed the door and returned to my bed. Laying here on my bed I could sense Lissa through the bond. She was on her way
to see me. I guess I was going to have to tell her what was going on and that I was leaving. She is not going to be happy. Just then I heard
Lissa knock at the door. The door was unlocked, so I yelled... "come in." The door opened, there she stood my best friend. Lets hope she still
feels that way after I tell her I'm leaving. "Rose," she said as she closed the door. "Where have you been? We waited for you in the cafeteria."
She looked at me for a second and said. " Okay, Rose, what's going on?" "Lissa maybe you should come sit down. I need to talk to you." I could
feel the anxiety in her coming from the bond. " Lissa, could you calm down. This is going to be hard enough without having to deal with your
emotions too." I said." Oh sorry Rose," she said. I didn't quite know where to start. So I just gave her the run down of my day from the time my
alarm woke me this morning. Lissa knew how much I loved Dimitri. She looked at me with sadness in her, "what are you going to do Rose?"
That's when I told her I was leaving. I could feel every emotion running through her. She never said a word. Then suddenly, she looked at me and
spoke." I can't believe you are leaving me, don't you love me?" I interrupted her. I know I was hurting her, I didn't like leaving her either, but it
wasn't forever. Beside no matter how far apart we where the bond would keep us connected. I explained to her that she is my family and I love
her more than she would ever know, but I also love Dimitri and I needed to do this for him. "Beside Lissa," I said "we will never completely be
separated. I need to give Dimitri time to move on." Lissa bowed her head and softly spoke, " Rose I understand why you have to do this, but
Dimitri loves you this is going to break his heart. I have seen the way he looks at you when he thinks no one is watching. He looks at you with
complete admiration." "I know Dimitri loves me, I also know just how painful this is going to be for both of us. I can't let him throw away
everything he worked for just for me. I'm not worth it Lissa, I said." My voice began to crack as the next words left my mouth. "I love him enough
to walk away and give him his life back, the life he had before I disrupted it. There is one more thing Lissa," I said. She didn't look surprised. "I
don't want you telling anyone what I'm planning. Promise me Lissa, promise you won't say anything to anyone." She wouldn't look at me but she
promised. "Rose," she asked, "where are you going to go?" "I'm not sure I haven't talked to Kirova yet. I'm going to see her in the morning. I
doubt she will object to me leaving", I said. "She has wanted this since we returned." " I'm sure you're right about that," Lissa said with tears in
her eyes. Lissa seemed to calm a little when I said to her, "I promise I'll be back before you have time to miss me. I'm going to ask Kirova if I can at least come back and
graduate here at St. Vladimirs." "Thank you Rose, I would really like that." Lissa replied. " Try not to be sad Lissa, you will have Christian here
and I promise I will call you whenever I can." Lissa hugged me, stood up and was walking toward the door when she turned to face me. She
laughed a little when she said. "The academy is going to be a dull place without Rose Hathaway around!" Before I could say anything, she turned
and walked out the door.