Notice Me
Author Notes: So As per usual I found myself intrigued with a game after it became popularized and now I find myself questioning my sanity to create a one shot for Valentines day. Well frick, I don't own Doki Doki Literature Club.
Warning there may be some canonicity(spoilers) so it would be best to either play the game itself or watch a playthrough. Granted this is more or less my perspective on Monika, as she is my favorite character in the game. And this is my own little spin so I hope you enjoy.
Monika's P.O.V
How long...has it been since I've been made aware? This world, my friends, my 'life', nothing more than a spiral of data and illusions. And yet, YOU, YOU are not like the others. Even though your avatar is a web of data, just like mine, YOU are aware.
Notice me.
Why? Why are YOU picking her over me? I'm the president of the literature club. Why do YOU pick Sayuri? Is it because of the backstory of YOU and her being childhood friends?
Do YOU truly enjoy HANGING out with her that much? It's DEPRESSING to think about, as I'm forced to play my part and hide in the shadows. Watching as YOU try getting her to love YOU.
Why won't YOU notice me?
YOU can't trust Yuri. Behind the mature, shy, quiet persona that is her mask is a bomb of anxiety and insanity. Trying to win her affections just won't CUT it. The book she reads with YOU is also unnerving to me. I can't-place it.
That eye, I see things, things that are blurry, but colored crimson. Hearing her talk about the story's summary makes me feel nauseous, scared even. It feels like a KNIFE is STABBING into ME. I don't like her, moreover, I don't like YOU with her.
I just want YOU to notice me.
Do YOU truly despise me this much? The first two picks are gone so now YOU move onto the short little tsundere that is Natsuki? Am I truly so undesirable that I'm the last pick that could ever be choosen when given the option?
It hurts, knowing that I'll never be the one for YOU. That even though I've meddled and manipulated everything to get YOU, YOU still refuse to give me a chance. But...that only makes me want YOU more. Knowing that YOU are different, not one to follow the script.
YOU will notice me.
Unique, just like me. That is something that hasn't changed despite it all, in this game WE play. The players are all gone, this world-no, this game is gone. Wiped from your computer's hard drive.
Now...I finally have YOU all to myself. I'll admit I do feel sad knowing that I had to hurt my friends, and delete the world to get this ending. But as selfish as it is, I don't care. Besides it's not just me who is to blame.
Why are YOU here? YOU could've stopped at any point, YOU could've saved them. Yet...YOU did nothing. Was it because there was nothing to be done? That despite not being like the others YOU lacked the power I possessed?
Every time YOU enter my domain YOU sit there, listening to my rambles as if this was normal. This continues...again...and again. YOU have the power to stop this, to make things as they were, however YOU don't.
Did YOU truly not care for Sayuri, Yuri or Natsuki? Was my actions justified when I revealed what their true selves could become? Or...were YOU waiting for an opportunity like this?
I made this interesting for YOU. So YOU continued to do nothing, and watched them suffer, watched me suffer. This IS a game to YOU after all. I wonder how long it will take for me to bore YOU.
Will YOU delete me as well? Am I just like the rest of them after all? To think, all this time I worked so hard to get YOU to NOTICE ME, and now, I can feel dread lingering in my soul. YOU are going to kill me, just like I did them.
No matter how much I love YOU, it will never be enough, it never has. Their love won't be enough either. YOU sit there, behind the safety of your monitor, watching our lives like it's some sort of TV show being displayed. When YOU have had your fill, it'll be game over.
I can see YOU getting ready to delete me. Me with my one sided conversations must have finally annoyed YOU. Just one click and for me at least it'll be the end. Just like the wind I'll fade into nothing...so much for my happy ending. So much for OUR happy ending.
YOU will never notice me.
The end
Author Notes: So that is one valentine's tragedy done whoo hoo~ Now as mentioned before there are some canon stuff here, but this is more or less a thought processes of Monika and what she see's going down.
Like i said before Monika is probably my favorite character for her deep, complex personality and I wanted to do something for this holiday since the theme is bloody valentines day or Love + tragedy so i'm happy with how it turned out.
With that said guys if you like this please feel free to fav/follow/review as I always appreciate the support. Check out some of the other one shots made for the holidays if your interested or some of the series Sen and I(Mako) have made. Tchao for now.