In the blink of an eye, life, love, and everything under those two categories was wiped out. And it hurt more than a punch to the gut ever could. I was young, eighteen. I was beautiful, or so I hoped. I had Sam, and everything was going for me. My best friend and cousin, Emily Young, was as fortunate as I was. We did everything together, but she had never met Sam. We were just hanging out like any other day. Then, enter Sam, and BAM! Love at first sight.
'Cause I'm not a princess…this ain't a fairy tale…
I didn't know what to think at first. I had no idea what made Sam leave me and go to Emily without looking back like he did. It hurt that he had no regrets, or so it seemed. When Emily got mauled by that bear, I tried hard not to feel slightly smug because it was wrong. But it was there, a thread of emotion I couldn't erase.
I'm not the one you'll sweep off her feet…lead her up the stairwell…
Then, I learned the truth. He was a werewolf, and so was I. The legends, stories they told, about imprinting made me realize the truth about Sam, Emily, and Emily's accident. I had thought knowing the truth might have made me feel peace of mind, but it really just made me bitter. And I made everyone around me suffer with me in the pack mind. I knew I was despised, but I couldn't seem to stop what I'd started.
This ain't Hollywood…this is a small town…
I had a chance to escape with the whirlwind of thoughts provoked from Jacob's departure. Seth followed him, which gave me an excuse. "I have to protect Seth," I told everyone. But really, I was just desperate to escape Sam, and Jacob's new pack gave the perfect opportunity to ditch the old pack, where no one really understood me.
I was a dreamer before you went and let me down…
Spending extended periods of time with Jacob Black was not something I would have ordinarily liked. But it seemed the immature, volatile werewolf he used to be was different. He seemed more subdued. I knew the reason: the girl he loved was dying. But, late at night, I liked to entertain other fantasies. And I found myself slowly falling in love with Jacob Black. Then came the half-bloodsucker mutant spawn: Renesmee. Even the way Jacob said her name told me that there was no way in hell he and I would be together. It seemed my heart was breaking over again, a pain I couldn't withstand.
And it's too late for you and your white horse…to come around…
And alone I sat, once again, wondering who was going to love me, comfort me, be there for me. I tried not to let my pain show. I didn't want to seem vulnerable. I wore the hard shell I had begun to shed for Jacob. I didn't let anyone see me. And it seemed my life was an unending, unendurable cycle of pain.
Say you're sorry /That face of an angel comes out just when you need it to /As I paced back and forth all this time /'Cause I honestly believed in you /Holding on, the days drag on /Stupid girl, I should have known, I should have known that/Chorus: I'm not a princess, this ain't a fairy tale/I'm not the one you'll sweep off her feet, lead her up the stairwell/This ain't Hollywood/This is a small town/I was a dreamer before you went and let me down /Now it's too late for you and your white horse to come around//Baby I was naïve/Got lost in your eyes and never really had a chance/I had so many dreams about you and me/Happy endings/Now I know that/Chorus//And there you are on your knees/Begging for forgiveness, begging for me/Just like I always wanted /But I'm so sorry/'Cause I'm not your princess, this ain't a fairytale/I'm gonna find someone someday who might actually treat me well /This is a big world/That was a small tow /There in my rearview mirror disappearing now/And its too late for you and your white horse/Now its too late for you and your white horse to catch me now