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Chapter 1

(Bella's POV)

"Bella, I don't love you anymore" said Edward.

His words tore through me like a knife stabbing me reputedly in my heart I didn't want to believe him. Yet, his golden eyes looked so serious. It shocked me. A lump in my throat was forming.

"You… you can't mean that" I muttered in between my sobbing sniffles, grabbing hold of his jacket and shaking him slightly.

"I'm sorry Bella, it's over between us" said Edward sternly. Pulling away from me making me fall to the ground.

Edward turned and began to walk towards his car, leaving me alone in the cold pouring rain outside of my house. I watched as he drove away, not once looking back at me. It was killing me. My love had just broken my heart with no reason for it. I laid on the ground looking at the car which just drove of.

"This can't be happening" I cried out loud and repeating it over and over again as tears rushed down my cheeks.

Then Charlie came out side and pulled me inside rubbing my back. As I just carried on staring at the end of the road.

(Edward POV)

God, I'm a horrible monster. I just left her there crying, in the rain no less. But I had to let her go; she needed to be free to be with a human, to be with someone who deserved her. Not like me, not a vampire a killer. It took every ounce of strength I had not go running back to her and tell her the truth that it was all a lie. I couldn't even look at her as I drove away because I was afraid, that if I saw Bella looking so hurt and crying, that I could never do what I had to.

The second I arrive at my home Alice came racing out the front door. She clearly had had a vision of what I had done. And I knew I shouldn't of but I had to. It killed me to do it as I love her with all my heart.

"You Asshole!" she screamed at me, as if I wasn't hurt enough.

"Alice, please just leave me alone" I grumped, I didn't want to hear her tell that I was wrong to do that to Bella and I was the love her life ECT. ECT. , because I already knew that already and I didn't want to be reminded of her standing in the rain.

"No, not after what you did" she growled. "I saw it Edward.. I saw it all.. when you left you should of saw her face…"

" shut up Alice.. Shut up, shut up."

I pushed my way past her and went into the house.

"Edward, you broke her heart!" she screamed after me.

Alice just didn't understand I had to do this to protect Bella; it was for her own good. I rushed up the stairs and into my room. Then I slam the door shut and went to my sound system. I grabbed the first CD I could find and put it in the CD player. Then I cranked the volume way up so I could drown out my thoughts and everyone else thoughts. Then I released this was the last song me and Bella danced to.

(Bella POV)

His car was out of sight a sat there in my room looking out the window hoping wishing this was all just some terrible nightmare. And he would come rushing back a scup me into his arms and tell me he loved me... I would do the same back, I squeezed me eyes tight together tears ran down my pale face. It wasn't until I heard the phone ringing inside the house that I got up, and went in inside to answer it.

"Hello?" I said in-between sniffles.

"Bella? It's me Alice" answered Alice in her musical voice. She made me smile just her voice had a bit of Edward in her. Then the pain came back.

"Hi Alice" I struggled to say, I had been hoping it was Edward to calling to apologize, but I knew better, if Edward wanted to talk to me he would just show up in my room, not call.

"Are you ok? Oh, that was a stupid question, of course you're not ok" said Alice. She knew then.

I couldn't say anything because I had begun to sob again.

"Bella?" said Alice.

Still I couldn't speak I was just too caught up in sobbing my eyes out. It hurt so much it felt like I had been punched. I couldn't breath.

"Hang on hang on... Im coming over" she said quickly then hung up the phone I didn't even notice. Until a bit later.

I hung up the phone. The room seemed to be spinning, and I felt light headed. I climbed to my bed and buried my face in the covers.. I slowly pulled off my soaking clothes and replaced them with nice dry ones. Just as I finished changing there was a soft knock on my bedroom door. I didn't even hear the knock from behind me loud tears. I hoped it was Charlie and he would leave soon.

"go away?" I said. I had forgotten Alice said she was coming over. And she slowly opened the door.

"Bella, I hope you don't mind but I asked Jasper to come with me" said Alice as she opened my door.

"Its fine" I lied. I knew why he came.

First thing Alice did when she came into my room was give me a big tight hug. The next thing she did was pull a box of tissues out of her bag. Jasper stood in the doorway looking as though he felt out of place.

"Come on in Jasper" I sniffled I couldn't even manage a grin. Charlie I could manage, but I hadn't been near boys and I didn't really want to be near boys at then moment..

Jasper walked over to my side and put one of his cold hands on my shoulder. I felt a wave of calm wash over me. I felt like Edward, it reminded me of him it made me stop crying but not stop feeling the pain of my broken heart. It was clear that Jasper didn't want to control all of my emotions, because he knew this was no time for that.

"I'm sorry" he whispered looking me straight in the blood shot eyes.

"Don't be. This is my fault" I said staring at the eye not meeting anyone's eyes.

Suddenly Alice voice filled the voice, "Your fault? No this is in no way your fault Bella. This is all Edward doing"

"Please don't say that.. Don't blame him… " I said trying to keep from crying.

"Why? It's true" said Alice heatedly.

"If it is true then he doesn't love me and then maybe…" I couldn't even finish when Jasper interrupted.

"Bella, he loved you and don't you ever think differently" said Jasper with a reassuring smile.

Again another wave of calm washed over me. I gave Jasper pathetic smile and a sign of thanks.

"It's getting late" I sighed. But really I wanted to be left alone

"I can stay if you like" said Alice.

I shook my head

"no. I really just wanted to be alone for a little bit."

"Okay, but if you need me just call me and I'll be here in a flash" she smiled hugging me once more

"I'll be ok" I was lying through my teeth. "I think I'll just go to bed, Jasper would you mind helping me with that?" I asked.

"Here lay down" he said.

I lied down on the bed and felt a wave of comfort and tiredness. With in moments I was asleep. Dreaming about Edward…

(Edward POV)

The music didn't help at all. I could still hear Alice yelling at my through her thoughts. I needed to get out and go run and try to clear my mind. I was about to leave when I heard Esme.

"Where are you going, Edward" she said from the bottom of the stairs.

"Out to go run of while" I answered not looking her in the eyes.

"Edward, you are going to need to talk about this sometime" Esme said, she was right but I didn't want to think about that. Every time I think of Bella I see her in the road.

"Later, I need to clear my mind" I sighed shaking my head trying to get the late image I saw of her out of my mind. As I walked out the door.

Outside the house I could hear Esme's thoughts;

You still love her. What happened? Why? Go back to her

No one knew why I did it ,I put my face in my hands, I needed to see her. Even before I had completely decided to go see her I was off running. I stood in front of Police Chief Swan's house in the very spot where I had broken Bella's heart. The house was quite and everyone in it was a sleep. It was a good time for me to slip into her room with no one noticing.

She was so beautiful, yet even in sleep I could tell she was hurt and sad. I stood in the shadows of her room. I watched her chest move up and down as she breathed. She tossed and turned a lot as if no matter how she laid she couldn't get comfortable. The moon light creped through a gap in the curtain shining on a strip of her face, lighting her face up even more, I could see her eye brows kitting together every now and again.

How could I do this to her…?

"Edward…why?" she whispered in her sleep tossing and Turing

"I wish I could tell you my love" I whispered back.

After an hour of just watching her I finally managed to make myself leave her again. But before I left I walked over to the head of her bed, bent down and kissed her forehead.

"Good by, Bella. I'm sorry" I whispered as I slipped out her window.

The rest of the night I ran, trying to reason with myself to stay away from Bella. I loved her but if I wanted her safe I couldn't be with her. Not after getting that letter.

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