Author's Note: Yes, yes, I know I should be continuing my other stories, but I just couldn't help it! Anyway, this one-shot may be a bit confusing, so ask questions if you will. Read and review, please!
Disclaimer:No own characters. Plot, yes, lyrics, nope.
Thinking of You
By: Crescent Matrix
Comparisons are easily done
Once you've had a taste of perfection
His lips were different from his.
Sasuke had returned. Six years they patiently waited for him to finish his first goal. A lot had happened during those six years. A lot had changed, and those changes were things the absent couldn't have known of.
The first thing he did was to kiss her. Sakura was surprised and shocked at the same time as she was pulled from her seat in the ramen stand and into a needy kiss from the raven-haired boy.
Sakura's thoughts were spinning. It wasn't gentle, soft, or caring like his. She couldn't help but compare them. His velvet lips were so sensual that she could feel his love for her pouring out of those lips. She couldn't feel anything from Sasuke. She didn't feel anything from him at all. She was kissing the person she loved. But that's just it. She loved Sasuke. She loves him so much more.
'But we couldn't be...' A tear rolled down her face. Sasuke thought that she was just very happy to see him after all these years. She was happy to see Sasuke... but the sorrow weighed heavier in her heart.
Like an apple hanging from a tree
I picked the ripest one
I still got the seed
Every night before she slept, she would look at the locket he gave her for her sixteenth birthday. It was made of a glittering silver metal shaped into a cherry blossom, a perfect round stone of jade adorning the middle. Inside was a picture of them at the evening of her birthday.
He had taken her out for their weekly dinner dates. She wore the baby blue dress Ino had given her as a gift with matching shoes. He asked the waiter to take a picture of them sitting on the garden fountain of the restaurant. Soft smiles adorned their faces. His arms were placed around her and now, Sakura could still remember how it felt, that warmth she'd hoped to stay forever encased in.
It was her lullaby.
You said move on
Where do I go
She was crying in his arms that night. He was supposed to leave for a mission.
"But an S-Class mission?!" She wanted to scream at her teacher and mother-figure. She was enraged. Tsunade knew how she felt about him and how he felt about her. 'I can't have you by my side, but am I going to have to lose you, too?' Sakura didn't trust him. Sure, he had done a lot of those suicidal missions for a long time and survived them all, but he kept returning barely alive. Once, his heart stopped for all of five seconds. Sakura kept crying as she hit him again and again when he was well.
"Sakura..." She turned to the silky voice that almost whispered her name. "I'll be fine." She looked at him with softened eyes and just touched the warmth of his body the rest of the night.
I guess second best
Is all I will know
She walked the aisle wearing the flowing snowy dress. Sasuke looked upon her as she went nearer with a soft smile. He had changed, after all, and maybe she had changed as well. They stared at each other lovingly as the distance between them grew smaller, but somewhere in the back of Sakura's mind, this sacred ceremony didn't feel quite right.
Cause when I'm with him
I am thinking of you
His touch was different from his.Sasuke's fingertips touched hers and she felt a jolt of electricity pass through her fingers, as though they were never meant to meet. She was feeling guilty. 'Why? I'm supposed to be happy now, right?' Her eyes, covered by her pink tresses, were filmed by tears. Sasuke didn't seem to notice as he took her hands in his and smiled at the large mosaic above them.
Thinking of you
What you would do if
You were the one
Who was spending the night
His smell was different from his. Sakura didn't feel like she belonged in Sasuke's arms.
Oh I wish that I
Was looking into your eyes
His eyes were the same, and yet very much different. Both black, then both crimson, the other, one black and one crimson. Sure you would say they were similar, but they are very much different. She had much preferred those beautiful mismatched eyes.
You're like an Indian summer
In the middle of winter
The times they fought. The times they laughed. The times they loved. She knows she can't turn back time just to be with him all over again, bitter or sweet those times may be, and if she could, she would.
Like a hard candy
With a surprise center
He was always so serious, well, most of the time anyway. She remembered seeing that small twitch of his masked lips time and again, and whenever she did, she smiled inside, despite her irritation whenever he arrived late. First impressions aren't everything, after all.
What he used to be when he was her teacher. What he used to be when he was her friend. What he used to be when he was her lover. What he is now... Even then, or a little while later, she knew she wanted to be with him.
How do I get better
Once I've had the best
When she spoke to Ino about him, her love, and her despair, Ino couldn't do anything but take her into her arms and give her a shoulder to cry on. She listened. That's the only thing she could do.
You said there's
Tons of fish in the water
So the waters I will test
"It's the law, Sakura."
"Well, the law can go to hell for all I care! Don't you want this, too?!" She pleaded him, tears brimming in their eyes. He was silent for a little while. "Well?"
"Sakura..." She looked at him with hope in her eyes. She was important, she knew. He loved her. He can't say otherwise. He just can't. "You'll find someone."
He kissed my lips
I taste your mouth
Evening came and she still stood before him still dressed in those black garments. Sasuke stood beside her. "Sakura, let's go home." And he looked into her empty eyes, knowing how death can hit his wife very hard. Putting an arm on her shoulder, he led her back to their home. "It's okay..." He kissed her lips softly. "It's okay..." He listened to her quiet sobbing, kissing her lips still, not knowing a different face was appearing before her eyes, a different voice was softly whispering in her ear.
He pulled me in
I was disgusted with myself
"Oh, Sakura..." She felt so guilty. But they were married, after all, what was there to be guilty about? Tears were forming yet again.
Cause when I'm with him
I am thinking of you
'Why can't I stop crying...?' It felt so wrong. It wasn't supposed to be him she was with. Not like this... 'I love Sasuke, don't I?' She does. Just not as much.
Thinking of you
What you would do if
You were the one
Who was spending the night
'Why aren't you with me tonight?' A teardrop fell.
Oh I wish that I
Was looking into...
His eyes... She wants to see them so bad...
You're the best
And yes I do regret
She shouldn't have told Tsunade. Or Naruto. Or even Ino. She should have been more careful. What if there wasn't such a law? What if they hadn't... fallen in love? Her eyes widened at the thought. It just hurt too much...
How I could let myself
Let you go
Her calling out his name, crying out for his touch. She could've fought. She loved him, right?
Now, Now the lesson's learned
I touched and I was burned
'Do I regret this love just because I'm hurt?' She already knew that pain would come from loving. 'No...' He promised, after all, didn't he? Fate was so cruel. Here were two people who loved each other, a love that is hard to find. And yet, they couldn't be together. Laws made by men rule men. And yet laws made by love... weren't men meant to follow them first and foremost?
Oh I think you should know
'I love you...'
Cause when I'm with him
I am thinking of you
Thinking of you
What you would do if
You were the one
Who was spending the night
Sasuke found out. "How could you not tell me?!" He was angry. Of course he was angry. His wife was crying for a dead man for a month! She never did tell him about that particular past relationship. No one told him either. And now, here she was in front of him, dark red circles surrounding her eyes, puffy cheeks adjoining, crying still.
Oh I wish that I
Was looking into your eyes
But loved her anyway. He didn't let her answer. Instead, he embraced her like he always did, only much tighter. He knew she was hurting. This is the only thing he can do while he waits for her. He'll help her, even if he was hurting, too, a little bit.
Looking into your eyes
Looking into your eyes
She couldn't take it. "W-Why?" she asked him with a raspy voice. It was his fault they both will hurt... for a very long time. Sasuke looked at her with a smile.
"The same reason you're hurting now. But I can wait, Sakura, I can wait."
Oh won't you walk through
And bust in the door
And take me away
Every night she dreamt of him taking her someplace far else, where only the both of them exist. When the morning comes, her dream is shattered, and yet... seeing Sasuke sleeping beside her... it didn't feel as bad as it did before.
Oh no more mistakes
"I'll just have to... live..."
Cause in your eyes I'd like to stay...
"As much as I love him..." She laid a bouquet of irises on the gray tombstone, and then stood at the meadow with her husband.
"Here lies Hatake Kakashi
A son, a friend, and a teacher
He will never be forgotten
For he loved and was loved"
"He will live in you... our love, Sakura..." And yet again, Sasuke took her in his arms. Let her cry on his shoulder till she can cry no more...
Author's Note: Um, me trying to explain... See, the order is a bit mixed up, but the story goes that Kakashi and Sakura had a relationship before Sasuke came back. When Sasuke came back, he hooked up with Sakura, not knowing that Sakura had just broken up with Kakashi not long before. Kakashi and Sakura had to break up because of some international law that no teacher (even former teacher) can have a relationship with his/her student. So, no one tells Sasuke about their relationship (either he didn't ask, didn't care, or asked but people changed the topic quite often). Sasuke and Sakura get married a few years after, and Kakashi was invited, although not seemingly present in the fic. Soon after, Sakura still meets up with Kakashi as friends, and then Sakura learned that Kakashi was being sent on that S-rank mission (I told you it was mixed up XD). Then a week or two later, Sakura learned that Kakashi died. Sasuke still doesn't know how close Kakashi and Sakura were, not until he got the truth from a sorrowful Sakura who was still mourning for Kakashi's death. And well, it pretty much ends with Sasuke going with Sakura to visit the grave of Kakashi. My implication is that Sakura would learn to love Sasuke, while Kakashi would still be a fond memory. Um, so, what do you think? Please read and review! ^_^ (Whew! That was kinda long! o.o)