I really can't believe how...stupid I am. I mean Bella is like a part of me now. She was all the best parts. The love, the happiness, the desire to do better.
People say it's better to have loved and lost than to never have loved at all. Bullshit. I guess they got the girl of their dreams. Not me...did they lose the woman the would die for a hundred times over to a...leech?
A monster...
I may be a monster but I do have humanity a chance at redemtion. Besides I'm warm and cuddly!
I sighed angery in general at the world. Why couldn't Bella love me as much as the blood sucker? I could give her everything! Love, Life, Family. I can imagine our little dark haired children laughing and running around on La Push. What's so terrible about being human anyway?
I got a invitation to her wedding. I'm such a selfish prick. I'll go maybe just to see her...one last time.
Damn imprinting to hell.
Why can't Bella have been mine? I know that...I cause the pack pain and it makes me feel even worse.
Maybe I'll finally get away far enough to have my thoughts to myself. Bella...so fragile and full of life...how could she just give everything up like that?
Renee and Charlie...And me. I'll always have the perfect summer though.
The best days of my life. Even better than leech-slaying.
My Bella...you'll always be a part of me. Even though when we meet again...if we do...we'll be sworn enemeies.
That same warmth to grace your face will be gone replace by that...leech's scent.
As much as I hate your decision I have finally decided to bow out gracefully.
But I'll always remeber you...your kiss as if from a rose.